TATTOO INK

TEARS

Week flew by quickly, only two days remained until the concert. I wasn't thrilled about the concert so much, I was excited to see Taehyung. We didn't see each other this days,we only talked on the phone and sent messages to each other. But I wasn't lonely, Kai was here. Two of us spent a lot of time together, the whole week to be exact.

Even now we were snuggled next to each other on the sofa. Kai's head on my chest while I stroked and played with his hair and his arms wrapped around my waist,this became our usual thing.

- I had nothing growing up...- Suddenly Kai started talking, I kept quiet and let him talk.

- I lived on the streets for years, no one cared,no one wanted to help. I needed to take care for myself, I loved to draw that's what saved me. I started slowly with stick and poke,that was all I had at the time. Then I met Jaein,he came to me one day and took me in. From that day I've been by his side.

- I'm sorry...thank you for telling me. - I snuggled him more tightly. It must have been hard for him to share that with me,his life was hard and now I understand why he's so closed off and buries his emotions.

- Kai...

- Hm...

- Why don't you bring some of your clothes here? I mean...so you have something to change while you are here. - I got little nervous about asking him that,but he was here almost every night so I thought it could be easier for him.

- Sure.

Kai lifted his head and pecked my lips. My tiger became a kitten.

- We must go,get up... - Kai moved away from me and stud up.

- Ugh...- I grunted.

- Come on...- Kai grabbed my hands and pulled me up from the sofa. When I got on my feet Kai pulled me close to him,he kissed me passionately making me weak on my feet. Really? Now? Does he want me to suffer whole day craving for him?

- Let's go...- Kai stopped kissing me just when things got heated up,I sighed at his teasing.

Gummy smile appeared on his face looking at mine disappointed one.

We walked together into the shop,then split out in different directions. I needed some coffee first.

- Mika...how are you? - Raizo was sitting in the brake room with a laptop in front of him.

- Good and you? - Soon as I walked closer Raizo closed his laptop,like he didn't want me to see what he was doing. I brushed it of,he could be looking at porn far as I know.

- Great. Why don't you join me? - Raizo offers me to sit down.

- I could for few minutes.

- Listen...I don't want to meddle but I noticed you and Kai are very close. - Raizo asked me nervously.

- We are,so what?

- Nothing...I just don't want to see you hurt. - Raizo said and I frowned at him.

- Why would I be hurt? Is there something that I need to know about Kai? - I asked him not understanding his concern.

- It's just...he is so mean and emotionless,that's why. - Now I understand what he meant, but I know there is something more to Kai than he knows.

I smiled and decided to change the subject.

- Is Jaein here somewhere?

- No,do you need him,I could call him. - Raizo was fast to pull out his phone. I stopped him by placing my hand on top of his phone.

- Don't call him,I just didn't see him for a while. When I think about it,I didn't see him since the convention. - Hm,really...Could I be wrong? I think about it and I wasn't wrong.

- Mmm...he is busy. - Raizo said that little weird.

- Busy? With what? - I asked him.

- Nothing important just some meetings and stuff. - Meetings and stuff? What kind of answer was that.

- Mika you should probably go to work. - Raizo got cold all of a sudden, he changed in a second, maybe I was to nosy and he didn't liked that. I got up and went to work.

Couple of hours passed,I had a guy sitting in my chair. He wanted some generic tattoo and I just did it. Well it was better then nothing.

I got distracted by the sound of door slamming, when I lifted my head to see who was the culprit I got pleasantly surprised. It was Jaein.

Closer he got I could see that he had blue bags under his eyes,like he didn't sleep for days. He was tense and nervous. Raizo was following after him with a straight face.

Jaein looked over me,in Kai's direction, one head tilt to the side was enough for Kai to be on his feet. The three of them situated in Jaein's office locking the door after they entered.

That was strange and unexpected, I wondered what's going on. They never did such a thing before, they always talked out in the open. By the looks of Jaein something was wrong.

Half hour later Kai exited the office. I glanced at him,he was now also tense and agitated, his jaw clenched as he passed by me.

I hurried a little with the tattoo process, just so I could talk with Kai. If he was willing of course.

- Kai? Is everything ok? - I whispered so only he could hear me.

- Yeah,yeah...everything is fine. - Kai reassured me with a fake smile. Lier...

- What's wrong with Jaein? He didn't look good...- Nosy me.

- Jaein...he...is just tired. Long day....- More lies.

- Listen, I'm soon going home. Will you come? I will leave my doors unlocked. - Maybe he doesn't want to talk here,in front of the others. Kai took a good look at me,like he was trying to memorize my face.

- Not tonight. - Kai sounded different then before. He sounded rude.Like we were at square one.

- I'll see you tomorrow then. - I gave up. I felt rejected,again...and now he is looking at me like he hates me and wants me gone. I turned around to make my exit.

- Mika...- Kai stopped me from leaving.

- You should mind your own business. - He said with a stern voice.

Well that hurt even more. I left the shop in a minute, I couldn't look at him anymore.

I came to my apartment, locked the doors and leaned my back against them.

I was on the verge of crying. Fuck...why? Why do I care so much? Don't cry because of that asshole....he doesn't deserve your tears...you are nothing to him...