'' My lady, can I come In'' I said and knock the door of her room.
But no answer. I knock the door second time.. No answer. Now I'm worried, she always answer then why no today.. ''What happened '' I said to myself.
I slowly open the door and peep inside but I can't see her. Where is she? Where the hell she is? If I can't find her then I'm gonna crazy. I need to find her.
Then I left her room and going outside to look for her. I search everywhere still I can't find her. Now I'm freaking out. I asked one of the maid if she seen her and she said she last seen her going to the basement. Ok now I remember her most favourite place of the house is the house basement. ''How can I forget? '' I told myself.
Now I'm going to the basement and there she is sitting on a chair looking her paintings. And now I'm relaxed. Her face is so relaxing and that's make me clam and happy.
Ok. But now I'm going to talk to her like angry person and asked her '' What she is doing here? And why not she told me anything? ''
'' My lady, what are you doing here'' I said angrily to her.
She look at me apologise face. '' um.. I was getting bor, so I came here.'' she said. '' and why? Umh.. R you looking for me? But W-why?'' she added.
''Yes, I was looking for you My lady'' I said calmly and going close to her. '' it's your lunch time so I carry your food to your room but you are not there. I look for you entire house but I can't find you. Can you understand how much I worried about you? '' I added.
She look the ground and said '' I'm sorry. Please forgive me ''. And look at me hesitately.
When she say to me please I can't angry anymore. I melt and she knew. She always say that to me and I can't do anything about that and obey her. Now she smiling, her smile I just love to see that. She really love to tease me. But she didn't know I allowe her to teame me. Bcz I love her smile. Just not her smile I love her very much like my own life. But she is my life, my whole world. I can't live without her, she's my everything. And I want her, I need her in my life any cost. I can't see her sad, and when she's crying my hearts broken and I hate that. Well I tell you something very important any person who make her cry and want her cry, I destroy them completely. I want to f*****g kill them but I can't bcz she's hate. if anyone hurt bcz of her she's become sad and that I can't tolerate.
Anyway she's mine and only mine. She's only belongs to me and if anyone near to her I.... He he he you know me right. Hmm
So I took one step and getting closer to her. I kneel down to her label and take her small hand in my big hand and tell her slowly '' My lady, you know how much I care about you and when I can't see you I really worried. So please don't do that again. Ok? ''
She nodded and smile to me. I smile back to her and said '' let's ok.... It's your lunch time and I know you are hungry, come on.'' I took her to her room and said '' wait 5 minutes, I bring your food and please don't go anywhere. Ok''. She said ' yes' and smile. I left her room to go to kitchen to bring her food. Then 5 minutes late I return her room with her meal.
When I see her, oh no.. She's sleeping on her bed. O s**t. I don't want to wake her up but I can't sleep with her stomach empty. She's need to eat. So I try to wake her up but she rolled over to her bed other side. Ok now I cuddles her and she giggling and laughing.
'' s-stoop, I ca-can't take it anymore. '' she said laughing.
Then I stop. She breathing heavily and her eyes watered from laughing. I smile and said '' now, eat.''
'' okay.'' she said and nodded again. I place her meal to her table and take a chair out for her. She seat and looking her plate with huge smile on her face. I know she loves it. Her favourite dishes Mixed Rice with a Chicken curry and salad and her drink. She's start to eating but stop and look at me. '' What happened, don't you like it?'' I asked her confused.
What happened.... I thought. I look at her thinking what's going on but she instant smiling and said '' What.. Look at my hand I can't use my hand is hurting.... So feed me'' she slyly order. I worried now '' What happened to her hand? Why can't I noticed earlier? '' I said myself.
I check her hand carefully and asked her what happened? But said to me angrily '' you feed me or not?''
' y-yes, but..'' she cut me off. And said
I'm fine nothing serious. Ok just feed me, you moron''. Ok now I understand what she want.
I happily said '' I love to, My lady.'' and she's smile. O god she's and her smile is dead of me and I love it.
So I feed her and looking at her thoughtfully. She's the girl I want to become my wife, my children mother. When I first saw her 14 years ago when I start my first job as a Butler to her family. And fortunately her father wants to me become her butler and quickly say yes to her father. Because I want to near her, I want to protect with my own life and I want to serve her until my end of life.
Now here Am I. Setting with her and feed her. I f*****g love her. She's goddess to me, my angel, my life saviour.