Rise of the Luna (completed)

22-Forgiveness

** warning triggering content**

- Finn’s POV -

I sat on the floor in the hallway and my heart sank as I heard everything that was said in Kayla’s bedroom. I didn’t know what to do and my mind was a mess with no coherent thought. My wolf had shut me off again as conflicting thoughts ravaged my mind.

Alpha Jake came out of the bedroom with his witch healer, walking past me and leaving the house as if I didn’t exist. Did they know? Did he know? What did Kayla say to him? A sharp pain hit my chest as I struggled to catch my breath. I needed to know what Kayla had said to Alpha Jake, even though I know she doesn’t owe me an explanation.

I made my way towards her bedroom, knowing full well that Leyton would bust my ass for trying to go near his sister. To my surprise, he doesn’t stop me. Instead, he lets me in, nodded at Kayla and left the room, closing the door behind him. I must be gaping like an i***t now and Kayla had to clap her hands at me to snap me out of it. I hesitated before sitting down on her bed next to her.

Her small hand reached up to my face and immediately a warm sensation hit me where she touched me. Sparks of pleasure shot through my veins and the pain in my face completely disappeared. As a future Alpha, I healed fast but this was impossible as I touched my face and realized that my bones have completely healed. I looked at Kayla in awe and gently held the hand that was still on my cheek.

How had she done that? No, why had she done that for me, after all that I’ve done to her?

I hope you feel better now, Finn. I’m sorry that my brother tried to break your face. What you did to me was.. I don’t know what to say but whatever you did made me realize many things and it allowed me to see Mum again, so I forgive you. I’m just as surprised as you are that my touch has completely healed your bones. I don’t know how I did that, maybe it’s the mate bond? Since I didn’t reject you, I guess it still works..

Stunned by the voice in my head. I blinked and gazed at Kayla again. Was it really her? How could she mind link without a wolf? Most importantly, did she just forgive me?

It’s not the mind link, Finn. You can only hear me if we’re in physical contact. I don’t know why I can do this but maybe this is the Moon Goddess giving me back my voice in her own way. And yes, I do forgive you. You should have helped me but you accused me of vile things and rejected me. I’m not hurt because I don’t feel the mate bond. I’m sad that you.. accused me of being.. you let him

Kayla broke down and I felt her distress washing over me. Her fear and images of Nate dragging her to the garage as she desperately tried to get away, of her futile struggles played in my mind. I gasped as I realized that I could see her thoughts and my heart broke again as those images played in my head.

I pulled her into my arms even as she struggled, fearful of the contact. Tears welled up in my eyes as I felt the fear of my mate, fear of my embrace.

“Shh it’s ok, Kayla, it’s ok now,” I tried to soothe her, “I’m sorry, I’m truly so sorry.. I was an asshole and an i***t. I should have protected you but.. I’m sorry, Kayla and I’d do anything to go back in time and change things but I can’t. But I promise you that Nate can’t hurt you anymore. I killed him and I found.. I found the video and photos. I destroyed everything so no one can ever hurt you again.”

She stopped sobbing and looked up at me with those big brown eyes. Relief filled them as she realized that she’s safe now but slowly, shame and disgust overwhelmed her as she began sobbing again. I could feel all of her emotions as I had refused to let go of her.

“It’s ok, Kayla, it’s ok. It’s over and it wasn’t your fault. He abused you but you survived and he can’t ever hurt you again.” My heart pained at the thought that she was the one feeling shame and disgust at herself.

I tried to stop him, I really did. But I couldn’t tell anyone.. I was afraid that no one would believe me and.. and he threatened me with those..

“I know, Kayla, I know. It’s not your fault. It’s not your fault. You don’t have to feel ashamed for what he did to you, it’s not your fault.” I tried my best to reassure her and hoped with all my heart, that she would not blame herself for the sins of others.

Please don’t tell anyone, could you promise? I don’t want anyone to know.. I don’t want Leyton to know. It makes me feel.. so dirty..

Kayla sobbed louder, every sob broke my heart into more pieces and the only thing that I could do was to hug her tighter. “You’re beautiful, Kayla, you truly are. And your heart is pure, if not you wouldn’t have forgiven me. Don’t ever doubt yourself,” I said with as much sincerity as I could.

But you rejected me. You don’t want me as your mate. Why would you do that if you think I’m beautiful and my heart is pure.

Her questioning eyes pierced through me and I was speechless. I didn’t know what to say or what to do. I don’t think I’ll find a more beautiful girl than her ever again and a part of me wanted her. If I wasn’t holding myself back, my wolf would have pounced on her already. The mental image of that gave me a hard on and I saw her blush. Could she see what I’m thinking? How is that even possible? My wolf was not interested in those questions, he just wanted to be with his mate and for a moment I lost control. I leaned down and kissed her forehead, and then her nose and I saw her eyes widened as my lips crashed into hers.

The sweet taste of her lips and her scent drove me crazy. I continue to hold her with one arm while my other hand trailed down her neck and moved to her breast. I let my thumb brush against her n****e through the fabric of her shirt. Gently, I grabbed her breast and and kissed her neck. The sensations of being intimate with my mate was driving me wild. I was lost in those pleasurable sensations and wanted more. I laid her down back on the bed and pushed her blanket away as I laid on top of her. I moaned as I rubbed myself against her and reached for her core with my hand. I gently rubbed her c**t and fingered her opening and that’s when I realized something was wrong.

I used all the restrain I had to stop myself and looked at Kayla. She was stiff under me and her opening was completely dry. Then it dawned on me that I couldn’t smell any arousal from her at all, neither had she made any sounds since I started kissing her. Realizing that I must have overstepped her boundaries, I immediately got off her and covered her up with her blanket and broke all physical contact.

“s**t I’m sorry, Kayla, I’m so sorry, I didn’t realize.. are you ok? I swear I won’t touch you anymore without your permission. I didn’t mean to do that I mean I’m crazy for you but I didn’t want to touch you without your consent. I’m sorry!”

Kayla stared at me in fear and shook her head as she turned away from me and pulled the blanket over her head. I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration and told her that I was going to leave her alone until she was ready to talk to me again and left.

When I got to the front door, Leyton came to the hallway and warned, “I don’t know why Kayla wants to forgive you but you’re an asshole, Finn. How could you reject you mate because of your selfish wants. She deserves better and I don’t want to see you come close to her ever again. If she wants to go with Alpha Jake and you dare to f**k that up, I’ll rip your head off your shoulders with my own hands. You hear me?!”

I nodded in shame as I left, more confused than ever about what I should do and more ashamed than ever of what I have done.