Audrey's strength

So good

"Talk Audrey" he whispered to my ear.

"I'm not sure if I wanna be earlier on Hill. I'm afraid it will hurt and I want be in this moment. All I need now it's you" I tried kiss him.

"Don't be a chicken Audrey. Will be OK. I will be by your side. You will see what Your dad prepared for you. It will be great closure" I felt he knew something.

"Jess Logan you know what is it" I looked deep in his eyes with suspicious face

"Yes A."

"Can't you tell me?"

"it's not my job baby"

"I can trade. You tell me and I give you Machete name" we laughed but I really wanted to know.

"Sorry but no. And I will find way to get this name from you" Jess hands catched my sides of body and tickled me.

"No no no" I was laughing.

"you got nothing to worry about Audrey"

We still got time before leaving. Jess found way to occupy our time.

Took me in his arms the way I liked the most. I around him with my legs and arms. He held me on bottom our heads were one to another.

"I can walk Jess"

"I love to hold you" second time love! It made this day more unique. We entered bedroom and soon were on bed. I didn't want to check if we got time for do something more than cuddle.

"we need be on our way on Hill in 20 minutes, 10 for kissing 10 for changing clothes deal?" was he reading my mind? f**k it not much time left.

I was in dress so Jess got easy access to my body. His rough hands touched my skin what gave me a shivers and pleasure. Jess catched fast where touch my body to hear my gasp. He liked discover my sensitive spots. Me his. We learned how to gave pleasure to each without s*x. And every day was harder to stop. We lived together, we slept in one bed, we attended to same school, worked in same place. We felt so good together we could laugh, cry together. My head was full of him. And in that moment way he was kissing me, touching me. I didn't want to end it. I waited him to took of my dress, my b*a, my thongs. I tried took of his t-shirt. He stopped

"Enough Audrey" he was just laying down on me I held him, played with his hair. His heavy breath tickled my neck.

"Jess I want more" I whispered.

"not now, we don't have time and condoms." he whispered without movement.

"we don't need them" I was red. He still was in same position but he knew I blushed

"I think we wait with kids a little bit ok?" I punched him gently.

"I'm on birth control" I mumbled

"why? Intense s*x life?" and another punch which made him laugh

"no, periods problems"

"what problems? Talk A."

"you saw my body you saw scar on my stomach."

"yes I thought it's after accident. You have also one on your spine." he got serious

"both are after surgeries. I couldn't move my body after I woke up. I didn't feel legs, arms. only me and my thoughts left" I felt tears Jess put his head up his eyes I needed. He didn't interfere wait for rest of my story. His fingers gaved me courage with their gentle travels on my body.

"so I needed help. Stomach because inside I had big metal part of truck pounded - but it was while I was sleeping. Spine to be able to move again. After all supposed be ok. But when I finished 14 my periods become a t*****e. Pain has been devastating me. So I got hormones to avoid menstrual pain. If I will want kids will need hormon therapy. But for now birth control helps me. " even telling him about periods was easy. He kissed me. We needed be on our way

" f**k A. We need go."

==

"come on chicken" I slipped my hand into his. On parking waited for us Kevin. He stood by jeep

"Audrey! Oh girl" words couldn't find way out of his mouth. So Kev took me into his arms. This day 7 years ago his best friend died.

"you look happy Audrey. You, is this day good for you?"

"I'm holding myself I tried focus on my birthday. Now I'm nervous couse I'm not sure if I'm ready to see what dad prepared for me that year." I noticed second jeep. In was Bastien, Ems, Madeleine and Daryl. I panicked, I tried run to car. Jess catched me and closed me in his arms.

" Audrey I need this beautiful mesmerizing eyes focus on me, show me this blue orbs" Why I listened him.

"now breathe"

"your gaze got some power over me Jess"

"it's love" I laughed he remained serious.

"I've panicked"

"This I know, why?"

"I don't want a party"

"no one planned one. Come chicken. You will see, ok"

"Jess"

"yes?"

"be close to me all the time"

"sure love" yes I blushed and he giggled

We got to the jeep. And journey began. We drove through woods to the other side of hill. I didn't know that uncle own whole mountain. We got to some kind of clearing and drove through Rocky road. At the end of it stood house made of wood. With beautiful porch, on it was swing.

I left car Jess was right behind me. I was standing breathless. I still had a drawing we did with dad with our dream home now I saw one f*****g real.

"This was surprise he wanted to show you 7 years ago. We were building Fun Hill and wanted live close. Little lower is similar home, me and Clare supposed to live in. Go inside kiddo."

I catched Jess hand looked into his eyes and we were inside.

Downstairs were kitchen connected with living room with fireplace and cosy couch. I imagined how that day would look like 7 years ago. My dad would stand as Jess now. Leaning on the wall with crossed legs hands in pockets and smile on his face while I would run to every corner with my mother.

"let's go upstairs" without a word my handsome boyfriend went after me up.

We chose main bedroom to see first. I opened door and saw warm room. Yellow color on walls orange curtains. In the middle big wooden bed. Behind it big picture. My mother and dad with me as baby in his arms. It was some kind of picnic. By both sides of bed were pics. On one shelf was photo of dad kissing hudge pregnant belly of my mom. On other side just them together. Because of accident, my mom depression I forgot how happy we were. How much they loved each. This room was field with love.

On hallway wall were another photos. By next room were two my favorite ones. For someone who didn't know my dad they looked almost the same. For us it was favorite story. Mom took me that day to playground. I was playing with some boy. His father walked to my mom. And after my dad approached.

First pic was his possessive reaction on seeing mom with some guy. Mom catched moment how he was saying "who the f**k are you" and second when he looked at me playing with some boy. I told the story behind this photos to Jess. He smiled

"yeah Kevin is right your dad would kill me" we laughed

"after some time he would love you like me" I blushed and got sweet kiss for it. Was ready to opened next door.

It was amazing view. It supposed to be my room. Light blue color on wall looked perfect with wooden furnitures. I loved it. By the bed was wall of shame. Photos since I was born till my 10th. I looked like happy child. Jess held me in his arms. Always felt his arms when I need them.

"U were super sweet baby" I rolled my eyes.

"Jess this house is perfect. I tried not think what if. But why I know about it now, not earlier. Why my mother kept it from me, why everybody kept it from me" I had mess in head, my feelings mixed-up. We were still head to head with Jess looking deep in our eyes

"I took here your mom, when u were in hospital. She ordered me to raze this house. Destroy to the ground. I didn't listen. Waited till you be grown enough. I thought that after college will be best. But you asked Claire and we decided to take you here today. If you ready I would like take you to second one. Claire and rest waiting for you to gave you birthday kisses. It's not a party just friends meeting. Please say yes"

Jess comfort me, I felt ready thanks to him.

"Let's go"

Second house was similar but had different inside. And all where in.

Auntie, Marry, Bastien, Daryl, Emily and Madeleine.

No balloons. No singing. Just wishes from friends. And cake, chocolate cake baked by Marry. Oh how I missed this taste. It was something. I felt good my mourning has end. Dad will always be in my heart but I promised to move forward. Jess, my Jess he prepared it. He didn't let change this meeting to a party. He was close but left me space. The best boyfriend ever. 6 pm appeared and we needed go to work. It was prefect solution for me. Small steps Audrey small steps.

Madeleine and Ems made Marry and Claire go with us. I observed how Kevin and Claire were looking at each. They still got love in eyes. I made decision to talk about it with Kev soon.

"Jess"

"yes Audrey" his fingers reached my face.

"thank you for this day. You, you. f**k. I love you Jess" he smiled and kissed me. I wanted say much more but couldn't find right words.

"I love you girl" best voice, best words, best Jess. Mine Jess.

My shift at race track started with long line. I cut it with fast service. Before Jess first run I asked Madeleine to replace me for a second and run to kiss my boyfriend.

"good luck Jess" and run back to bar. My intention was obvious. On start line Jess looked to camera and winked. I smiled to my sexy driver on the screen. I heard Madeleine gasp. I ignored her fully focused on screen showing race.

"You two are crazy. You live like on desert island. I wish to ignore others like you do" she was so different from girl I thought she was.

"It's easy M. Focus on Daryl. If you like him why you think about others opinion. f**k it. Do what you like" that's what I did all my youth.

"easy to say A. But I'm trying" in that moment my f*****g handsome winner of his first run approached to me. He came behind me grabbed me closed to him and kissed my neck. I served customers with him on my back.

"Baby you don't race more?" I sat on his lap in free moment.

"Daryl asked for 3 runs one by one. After 2 got Bastien and than me. So I got a lot of time for you" his lips were so warm today.

"fight?"

"not today A."

"great"

"you don't like when I'm boxing?"

"I like but today want have you close all the time" and our lips met again.

I was in love, we were in love. We said the words in my 18th birthday.

I closed my bar and went to main building. Wasn't sure where Machete placed me today. I wished VIP to had opportunity to talk with Marry and rest. Dimitri waited for me with gift and birthday kiss.

"it will help you here and at school and college"

"thank you Machete" we laughed

"chose bar kid. Today you decide"

"here!"

"great have fun!"

Today weren't many people. So I even could sat on guests side to talk with Marry and auntie. And from time to time kissed Jess. He showed me program machete installed me. I wasn't good with IT but I had him. Midnight appeared so fast.

We said goodbye and we're on way to our apartment. I looked on Jess focused on road. He was so perfect. I closed eyes for a moment.

I woke up in bed, sun blinded me. I was in pj next to me slept deep Jess. I must felt in car. He brought me here in his arms, changed me without waking me up. I smiled to myself. Gently got up and went to bathroom to refresh. Warm water on my body washed out sand and dust from hill. Jess came in. He did it all the time. I wasn't ashamed any more.

I observed moves of Jess by the sink. Even brushing teeth looked sexy. Way he held toothbrush. I enjoyed watching. When he rinsed mouth I noticed his smile, he was watching me in the mirror.

"Hey sleeping beauty" I wanted say hi but my mouth was occupy by his tongue. I was trapped between wall and his body. Never before I felt his p***s on my nude body at least boxers but now nothing. He felt that I was nervous.

"do you want me to leave" I shook my head in no.

"stay" I whispered while was touching his chest. He smiled and got back to kissing me. He left my lips and traveled with his tongue to my neck, to my breast, and lower. Hi kneeled and put his lips on my v****a. He teased my c**t, it was most pleasant feeling. First he made circles gently after stronger. I felt shivers of pleasure. When I thought I can't feel better he put into me his finger and moved it up and down,my p***y meowing from pleasure pouring out my juice. I mumbled his name when o****m hit me, wave of heat mixed with satisfaction. Jess gave me a second to rest when he came back to kissing me. Water from his hair was falling on me when he looked at me. I kissed him. He took my legs up and his d**k was in my v****a entrance. He slided hudge thick d**k slowly till was full in me. It hurt a little. He wait for a moment after moved his hips back and forth. Jess and me were making love. His eyes were focused on me, mine on him. Pain was mixing with pleasure. When we were close to come Jess kissed me I was holding his arms strong drown my nails in his skin, than I felt another hot wave of pleasure. At the same time I felt his c*m inside me. Jess didn't move. He was laying on me closed in my arms with his head hide in my shoulder.

"I love you Audrey" he whispered

"I love you Jess"

Jess turn on his back I laid down on him. His chest became my pillow my hand traveled up and down his stomach. My leg was on his. Jess finger draw on my arm circles. I couldn't stop watching at his p***s. First I saw, first I touched.

"what's on your mind A?"

"your p***s" yeah I blushed but not much. We were completely one now. Few minutes ago we were one body. Jess heard confidence in my voice. Still my announcement made him chuckle a little.

"what about?"

"I want taste you like you tasted me"

"later Audrey my body still processing "

"who was your first girl Jess?"

"You my first one in everything. You first girl I kissed, first I love, first one I had s*x with. Why you think otherwise?"

"you knew what to do, you guided us"

"I read I watch but it just came naturally. Your body showed me when I gave you pleasure" tears showed in my eyes. Jess thumb tried get my head up. I didn't want look in his eyes. It was hard to believe that such handsome, smart perfect guy just had his first i*********e. Jess moved, he laid down in pose to have access to my eyes.

"Audrey please open eyes" In that moment felt some strength to hear truth.

"hello" his smile, his eyes melted me.

"Audrey when I was 16 and Todd 15 he liked a girl. She has been visiting us few times. At her last one Todd went down for food for her, she came to my room and said that I'm her fav Logan. I threw her away. Todd and I made a vow that night. That we wait for the one, for girl we knew from beginning is special. We both believed in love like at Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. And decided not waist time for not important relationships. I kept this oath.

Audrey you the one for me. With your first 'f**k you' above me reading you intrigued me. And under branches at gim when this dance was. f**k! You looked so amazing. From that moment you were in my head all the time. Audrey do you even listen to me?"

" I am"

"you trust me?"

"yes"

"why u had doubts? Baby talk please" his hands on my face, he knew how to make me weak and vulnerable

"It's... It's so hard believe that you, Jess you so amazing. f*****g handsome, smart with incredible sense of humor, so talented. I just can't understand why I should be special for you. Why me when you deserve much more"

"Audrey, baby I don't deserve you it's thought I woke up with every day. I dream to spoil you. But we at school from Monday to Friday. Work at weekends."

"we different Jess"

"We are. Audrey every day with you showing me that trying to keep social frames it's a mistake. We have our own rhythm I would not change it ever. Audrey I want you, the way you are, no one ever care about me as you. Audrey I love you, it's not empty fraze. How it was in NIN song. In my nothing you everything for me" Jess was close to cry. I ruined so important moment in our life.

"Jess I love you, sorry I ruined this moment. My complexes, my luggage. Jess I love you so much."

Our lips met our nude bodies touched

===

Jess

Fuck, I can't again. Cold water, waterfall, why didn't it work. Audrey smiled when she felt I was ready again, her hand went down to grabbed my d**k. Wanted protest she shut me down with a kiss. I could just let her do whatever she wanted to do with my body. She made me turn on back, jumped on me. Her lips made a path from my lips thru neck with small stop on teasing my n*****s down to my hard as rock d**k. Her mouth were as tight as her p***y. I felt like in heaven. But I needed stop her. Wanted finish inside her, after her o****m. I took her up. She sat on my p***s didn't gave me back control. My hips bounced in her rhythm. When I was close took control back. I put my chest up, grabbed her neck and rolled her. Her eyes filled with l**t were more blue than ever. I felt her o****m she just whispered my name her core clenched tightly on my d**k. My lips were on her neck when mine hit me. I got of her but slided her to my arms. We layed without movement for some time.

"Jess?"

"yhym" I wasn't able to talk.

"you gave my p***y stretching training" she giggled in so sweet way.

"did I hurt you, why didn't you told me to stop" f**k I gave her pain.

"I was focused on you Jess, I just feel now, will take shower and be ok. I didn't said it to worry you. But to gave compliment"

"Audrey?"

"yes?"

"I love you"

"yhym, me too" I took Audrey in my arms and gave her a ride to shower. Didn't left her for a second. It was so incredible be with her under warm water. Way we touched each. After shower Audrey changed wet shits I made a breakfast for us. Home smells like flowers

"I will go to washer and be right back ok"

"sure I'm still preparing"

"oh good morning Ms Logan, please come in" what? Did I heard my mother. She promised don't show here uninvited.

"be right back" Audrey left and my mother approached

"why you here?" I wasn't happy

"I tried call yesterday. You both didn't answer. So here I am to wish Audrey best" her eyes were all over the place.

"you like it?"

"u should spend money wisely, not on flowers"

"I'm spending them as I want. And filling this room with flowers for Audrey was wise." she gasped. I didn't care.

"I talked with your father. He is willing to forgive you."

"well I'm not willing to forgive him. So you may tell him this"

"you both should talk!" good that Audrey entered.

"mayby I should leave you?" I reached my arm to catched her. And held in arms

"sit A. And eat baby" I tried show my mother difference in conversation with her and Audrey.

"maybe coffee Ms Logan?" my mom ignored her question.

"why you eat breakfast it's almost 12?"

"we eat when we want" I was close to kicked her from our flat. Audrey tried vanish and quietly ate her breakfast. Scrambled eggs teasted her. When I cooked something what she likes it's disappearing fast.

"Audrey I'm here to wish you happy birthday"

"Thank you Mrs Logan" worst wishes ever. What was she doing at our place.

"have you celebrate?" why she cared.

"You read a book, so you know the answer. Jess just surprised me with flowers and wishes"

"Great, ok kids I'm leaving now. Hope soon we will have more time to talk."

Finally she left. I was in anger that I didn't noticed Audrey held me in her arms. When she made me look in her eyes frustration flew away.

"Jess eat" for you everything was in my head but didn't say it.

"you liked my breakfast?"

"very! You do magic! Please teach me!"

"I can aks Mark to do it. I don't reveal my secrets" her smile, her eyes. My perfect girl. I didn't need her help. I liked cooking and the most liked see that tasted Audrey.

"They miss you. I saw it when we were on date" Audrey didn't care much about other people but if she paid attention read emotions like pro.

"I know. But it's hard to find time"

"bla bla bla. You have time for gim, to read, cook. I may plan visit if you like" my girl and her plans. But it helped us. Audrey made a schedule for every our day. When we stickied to it we got a lot of free time.

"so u think we can go visit Ann and Mark today?"

"call and we will know" she was thinking about me as no one else. She tried show me her attention at work after I made this stupid jealous fight. But she also wanted me meet with Ann and Mark. After seeing my mother.

"call, my kissing animal" I needed more. But Audrey made me to gave her my laundry and went down.

I called Mark they were ready for us but he told me that after our date some food critic visit them and wrote great review and since that Mark's restaurant is booked. I knew Audrey was responsible for it.

I run to washer to kissed her. On stairs I heard conversation.

"I'm Nate. Second floor"

"hi" My sweet voice

"you don't have name?"

"Audrey" f**k of her dude.

"why you smell this t-shirt?"

"couse I love it's scent"

"so boyfriend?"

"yes" her confidence was so sexy.

"maybe friendly coffee later?"

"no thank you"

"don't be like this!" he sounded inpatient. Probably guy who not often heard no.

"I think I made myself clear. Let me do my laundry" I was in that room. Audrey smiled and put her arms around me. She knew I'm f*****g possessive. What she didn't knew it's I heard this conv. So I wasn't jealous I was f*****g proud of her. I looked at this guy. He was good looking. Tall with muscles still Audrey was mine and I was hers.

"hi I'm Nate" his hand waited for me

"Jess" it was my moment of domination.

"I know you. You fight on Fun Hill."

"yes"

"well I think soon we meet in cage" Nate didn't wait for my respond walk away. I focused on the most beautiful blue eyes in the universe. I raised Audrey and sat her on washing machine.

"Audrey" I've stopped kissing her.

"yes?" her voice while was catching breath was sexy but I needed make her to do some workouts. Even kissing tired her

"who you called about Mark restaurant?" her smile and blush on face. The most beautiful woman in the world

"I didn't"

"you know what I will say now" she giggled and tried look like me and with low voice said

"you terrible liar" her fingers played with my hair.

"so tell me truth"

"I really didn't call. Marry's brother write to city newspaper about worth visit places. So I just said her about restaurant with best food in whole state and she did rest"

"we can go visit them but from 6 they got full house, thanks to your chat with Marry"

She kissed me.

"Jess"

"Yes Audrey"

"don't fight with this guy"

"why you like him?" I knew I will got punch for it.

"he seems aggressive, maybe don't look stronger but it's kinda guy you can't trust" I used my thumb to make her look into my eyes

"hey I manage him"

"no if u will showing off with your guard down. It looks super sexy but may harm you with him" she was so cute talking about my boxing posture

"A. I promise to ask Kevin not to pair me with him, until I don't see this Nate way of fighting, ok? I will not get to cage with him until we find his weaknesses" wanted said more but my lips were occupied.

"Jess"

"yes baby" I loved this our way of talking.

"you boxing today?"

"no. When this laundry will be ready we need go if we want have some time with Ann and Mark"

"let's get ready and I came back for it"

Audrey could read people, their emotions. She felt if can trust someone with one look in this person eyes. And Nate gave her chills of fear. I wanted confront with him fast. But in that moment I had also a second thought.

"Audrey"

"yes?"

"Baby what you thought of me when you saw me first?" I liked way she weight every word before let them out.

"I saw you first when you fight someone in front of school. I thought f**k another James Dean. After I was sure u mean because you took of my spots. But when we read together under branches I felt that behind bad boy posture is something more, trauma maybe" it was sweet again. If she only knew why I tried took her places and why I fought with this guy. She would think I'm stalker so I let go this thought

"you great in reading people you see thru them. I asked cause of this Nate guy"

"when he started talking, even he tried sound nice, I felt fraud. And some kind sick aggression. My brain send signal to run"

Audrey was focused on road and it was easy talk with her without blush.

"Audrey I trust your hunch"

"Good. Jess please don't let your irritability take control over you. We both hothead but this time you need be patient as you are patient with me"

"I will be Audrey"

"he will try knock you out balance. Made you mad, provoke I'm sure he will, please don't let him baby"

"I will be immune. Even if he will try hit on you" I lied but it was a sentence she expected.

"You worst liar than me" I swallowed laugh.

"Audrey I love you"

"don't change subject" we parked. She still didn't react to my declaration of love. I catched her

"I believe if he try get your attention you will easily reject him. But what if he try harm you. Don't expect I will let him. Deal?"

"Deal!" I kissed her.

"I love you!" I could say it over and over. I was happy. I was ready to say this girl with the most mesmerizing eyes this stupid sentence every minute.

"Don't yell! I love you too, now come" her blushing was my obsession. I needed last kiss. Ann was crying Mark applauded. Audrey wished to be invisible.

Our hosts loved Audrey as much as me. We tried help them prapre for bussy evening. But I wasn't Todd and Mark didn't trust me as him. I could chop. Audrey was with Ann preparing tables. I have no idea about what they talked but Audrey entered kitchen with beautiful smile.

Before our leaving we ate together. It felt as family dinner. Audrey was right. I needed them.

"No Jess, I drive!"

"Nope u ate to much will have time for nap"

"why I can't stood up, and always obey"

"Love! baby get in" interesting if she ever get used to this words. after I kicked engine she flew away in land of dreams. We had a lot of time left so made extra rounds she could rebuild strength.