Audrey's strength

My queen

"When?"

"Today"

"How?"

"That I believed?"

"No, Audrey f**k, don't think that. When Mel showed me this post I knew you will be hurt. I just wanted have opportunity to talk with you to explain what happened" he pressed me strong to him.

"Jess"

"Yes?"

"Let's go to school tomorrow"

"Why?"

"To show them that it's not so easy to ruin us" he laughed and tried put up my head

"Please I need your eyes"

"Why?"

"I'm addicted to them and looking for answer if you serious" I kissed his neck and pulled my head to faced with him.

"I'm serious. We shouldn't hide. We need show them how strong we are"

"OK" he smiled, his eyes shined.

"U were cruel for Beatrice" It just poured out of me

"I know, don't regret what I have done. I said sorry to her after and she hugged me. It wasn't me when I shout out her but now, still could just left her later"

"We here now Jess, let's not think about what if" my kissing monster left me breathless again.

"Can I stay?" his breaking voice

"It's your home Jess, our home" our foreheads were one

"Need be sure you want me"

"I do" his rough hands on my face, my neck, my body. I stroked with my thumbs his neck.

"Audrey I'm so sorry" I kissed him to shush him

"Jess I love you. Please stop sorry"

"By the lake I lost my uncertainty. My fear that I'm not enough for you. I was so confident and let this Bea to surprised me." This was reason of his small change. He wasn't rough in bed he was confident.

"Jess look at me" when perfect dark orbs pierced me I could find words.

"You much more than enough for me! And don't f*****g dare to doubt that. I'm yours completely" he kissed me

"I'm yours Audrey, I love you" and again our lips met. Soon after we went sleep. I was in his arms, we got through this nightmare.

===

Jess pov

She took me inside, dressed my wounds. When she said she forgives me I made a vow. If she let me stay I'll do whatever she wants. When by the school I saw her eyes, felt her pain something broke inside me. But she did forgive me. Wants go school next day fine we will go. I was sure this insta end our relation, will be end of us, end of me. That's why I wanted kill this motherfucker. Now she was in my arms. Tried sleep. I couldn't close eyes. At dawn sleep finally took over me. When alarm rang I couldn't weak up. Audrey was awake but didn't move. Just stroked my arm.

"Jess" I kissed her neck

"Yes?"

"Have you been able to sleep?" Again I kissed her, this time in shoulder.

"Not much why you ask?"

"You wanna get up?"

"Have you change your mind and want put blame on me? Chicken" she giggled in my favorite way.

"Didn't change my mind, just still little sleepy" she hid her fingers in my palm. I started kiss her neck, collarbone, shoulder

"Jess"

"Yes?"

"What you want to do?"

"Follow your lead" I got back to kissing her neck. She turned on her back. She was in T-shirt I had yesterday on my back it was so f*****g sweet.

"Jess don't do it!"

"You don't Wana be kissed by me?" I used her weapon against her. She rolled her beautiful blue orbs. I came back to kissing her. Forehead, nose, jaw, cheek, chin.

"Jess" I stopped to met her eyes

"Yes my queen" her fingers deep in my hair made chills on my body every time when she dit it.

"Do you want us to stay home?"

"Baby if you want go school we will, if you want stay home we will do it"

"Jess I want to know what you prefer" smart-a*s I smiled and said nothing got back to her neck

"Jess I don't like what you doing. Baby don't try pleasing me at every cost. I'm happy when we made decisions together" I stopped for a second

"I know" and bit her gently in neck on her spot. When she gasped I took up my head

"So what we're doing today?" I irritated her a bit but she smiled

"You seem happy Jess Logan" oh yes my queen I could howling from happiness

"I woke up by side of the most beautiful, smart, sexy woman in the universe so yes I'm happy" she blushed a little smiled and put her hands on my neck

"We will stay home, ok?" I just shaked my head in yes and got back to kissing her. This time I was penetrating her mouth with my tongue. I wanted eat her. I laid down on her to be above to got access to whole her body.

"Get back my t-shirt thiev" I really was happy. Her laugh, her shiny blue eyes, her scent, her taste. All mine.

"Nope" she chuckled I took duvet from her and tickled her

"You sure" she fidgeted from left to right

"I'm sure" she laughed in sweet tired way. I hoped self defense trainings will help her but still her condition was below zero. Two more tickles

"I'm rethinking" now I was laughing bent to her our heads touched

"So how it will be?" I kissed her

"You must understand why it's so hard. Look how good I look in it. And it smells you. I needed this scent at night now feel sentiment to this piece of material" she hid her head under rim, only eyes left. Blue orbs pierced in me, mesmerizing, my addiction. I sat between her legs looked at her. She was so perfect. Without thinking my hands travel under her/mine t-shirt. My lips followed arms. I was under material when she catched my head.

"Jess" f**k too fast, too much, i***t. I came back to her face

"Sorry" My fingers stroked her hair

"For what?" Beast

"I don't know" we laughed.

"I really would like you f**k me right now, but got period. What's why I stopped you" f**k! really, not fair

"I help it, now I regret" she blushed

"How helped? I don't get it" was she pregnant, fuck

"Jess breathe" I looked at her she smiled so nothing bad

"with calendar I supposed get it in California, I went to doctor for help. He gave me shot of some medical fluid to induce period. To finished it before our trip. And I got it yesterday. What was you thinking baby? You looked terrified?" what a relief I think I need condoms, why put it on her, just for my pleasure, selfish d**k!

" I thought you used after pill" I tucked my head in her shoulder

"I wanna see this blush"

"Nah"

"Jess you need look at me. I need tell you something about me. But to find guts need your eyes" I put my head up immediately and it was f*****g ambush she looked at me with wide smile.

"Sexy" I chuckled

"Smirk" she giggled

"Jess I told you that to have children I will need some hormones therapy. It wasn't lie." her voice became sad

"I'm listening baby" my eyes in hers

"It's all. I need hormones to don't feel pain during periods and will need them to have kids. So don't worry, we safe"

"It's not about being safe. I just felt as doushface that put protection on you for mine pleasure"

"Jess you didn't forced me to use birth control. I do it for years. I know we safe if I would feel different would tell. Asked you to use condoms"

"Terrible liar Audrey" I kissed her nose

"Have I ever pissed you with asking if you took pills?"

"I'v been taking them every morning since first one, but you don't piss me. I treat is as caring about me"

"Do you love me?" her pupils grows hiding blue orbs

"I do" I kissed her. She stopped me

"my kissing monster" and she attacked my lips. I loved kissing her often had to at least brushed her cheeks with my lips. I loved her taste.

"Shower together?"

"Period?"

"Tampoons?" she laughed

"OK, give me 5 minutes" I bent to her ear and whispered

"You got 3" and she run. I checked cell got few messages from Natalie, Travis, Daryl and Bastien all with same questions are we back together. I wrote all we ok and will see at Hill in the evening. I went to Audrey. She didn't like her periods and felt ashamed. I forced her to this shower.

"Audrey"

"Yes"

"It's part of you baby, don't feel ashamed please" I kissed her neck and washed her. She turned and did the same for me. I loved our showers. Today I needed it more than ever. And she let me. As always after she stayed in I went make breakfast.

She left bedroom with my cell in hand

"Jess your phone buzzing like crazy"

"You checked?" she rolled her eyes and did her face asking really. I chuckled.

"Look at yours I'm having havy attack from all since morning" Audrey got back to bedroom.

"Same rush?"

"Yhym"

"Travis and Natalie will come to Hill today"

"f**k my fault"

"Why?"

"I copy paste same message to all and to them also. I don't see problem in it and you?"

"I like Natalie" she came checked what I was doing, kissed my shoulder

"Approved?"

"Yhym" I tittered. She loved the most mine scrambled eggs and omlets for breakfast. Today's scrambled eggs

"Sit 1 minute and ready" I liked the way she listened to me. This time she started bang fork on island

"Food, food, food" she laughed I turned to her and she played that it wasn't she. I gave her food with smile.

"Jess" She called me after clean plate when I took only two forks to mouth

"Yes?"

"Can we left home earlier. I wanted go to old house but I heard that she is back so I need few spring clothes from shops."

"Sure baby"

"You don't like your food?" I almost chocked myself because of laugh

"I like, that's why I eat slowly, cherish every piece" she bite her lower lip.

"You want some more from me?" she smiled. Treated my question as invitation and stole almost half my plate. I watched her every move with smile and love. She tried act like nothing happened yesterday. For her we have said everything yesterday and were able to move forward. She didn't hold a grudges. She closed yesterday in her box and hid it inside.

"Audrey" I got cup of coffee from her

"Yes?"

"I don't know what our trip will look like. I'm not asking about plan I just need details about the clothes. What should I take"

"I checked weather will be warm. About 20/22 degrees colder in the evening. So t-shirts, hoodies, sweater I love you in sweaters you look so hipi in it will fit to car" she played my nerves.

"Audrey! What car?"

"Blue" I could just laugh.

"Audrey when we decided go for this meeting only about 20 I promised will not ask. But whole trip is secret" she was angry she knew I will now be angry too.

"we will be one night in Berkeley, after in San Francisco when we have dinner, after we go to Malibu and other destination in LA - Mulholland Drive. Happy?"

"Very"

"Audrey I love you" she knew I loved old movie called Mulholland Drive and organized sleeping at this area. I wanted beach we were supposed live on most beautiful. But why this dinner in San Francisco was so important. It was only one food point she said. I decided not ask she was already pissed

"Audrey baby" she was motionless. I must approach to her. I kissed her. It was mistake. I catched her head in my hands and forced her to look at me

"I love you" now she let me get my kiss

"I love you but you pissed me"

"I know, but I keep my promises and don't ask about 20. Can I pissed you little more?" She smiled and looked deep in my eyes, gasped

"Shoot" I put my arms around her. Perfect hands leaned on my chest. I liked this warmth on my body

"What car?" I used my sexiest voice. She punched me but answered

"Blue... No purple, hm?" she put finger on her cheek pretend thinking. f**k she was beautiful! Everything was in perfect proportions. Her large blue eyes perfectly highlighted the cheekbones and shapely nose. Her full lips called for kisses. Her pale skin and almost black hair complited perfect picture. She was perfect.

"Jess?"

"Yes?"

"Where are you?"

"Here, was thinking how f*****g beautiful you are" blush, punch, no kiss! ha! Being a romantic paid off.

"Still won't tell you what car" I giggled

"Audrey?"

"Yes?"

"I wanted rent car alone"

"What car?"

"Lamborghini or Ferrari" she tried stayed calm, but got nervous

"Never, to fast!" f**k her accident I should think. Wait her eyes!

"Audrey! You rent one of it?" she kissed me. And tried turned from me. I couldn't let her go. Did my girl knew about my favorite car

"I'll not let you till you tell me. Now I need know" I got excited

"You immune to my inpatients now I'm immune to your curiosity" she kissed me

"Tell me"

"You have to let me go I ate to much" this time I will not get in her ambush. I kissed her

"You can puke on me" she laughed and tucked in my arms.

"Jess I love you so f*****g much"

"Ferrari? Lamborghini?"

"Fiat" I laughed. She was so sweet

"Lamborghini? Ferrari?" She smirked

"Love you so much Jess, but baby f**k off" I smiled and kissed her.

"you wanna cuddling on couch?"

"Sure" I followed her. She took remote and start tv. I laid down on couch observed every her move. She looked at me with wide smile

"It's only 3 days and you will know. Don't ask"

"I'm not asking. Kevin knows?" she chuckled bent over me and kissed me with passion. Second later set down on me. I rolled us wanted have control.

"So Kevin knows?" She closed eyes and pretend sleeping. I lower my mouth to her ear

" I love you like crazy"

===

I was close to kill love of my life. He was so annoying. Tomorrow we were going for our meeting to Berkeley. Today he thought we go to work, but Kevin closed Hill for winter break. I was taking Jess for surprise birthday party.

I invited Ann and Mark, Emily Bastien, Madeleine, Daryl, Kevin, Claire, Isabel, Marry, Travis and Natalie. Also my grandparents but wasn't sure if they had time.

Jess knew I was going to surprise him in Malibu. So he wasn't expecting party at all. He was so important to me. Two days ago I thought I lost him, but we were happy as ever. So I organized this party in few hours. I was smiling like freak. I was driving so Jess looked in window.

"Audrey talk"

"Nothing to say, just I love you"

"Audrey?"

"Yes?"

"What car?" I rolled my eyes. He will knew soon. I decided to gave him documents today so could stop hear every 5 minutes this question. I had a lot surprises in my sleeve so could reveal this one.

On Hill guard opened gate for us. It woke up Jess

"What's going on?" I played dumb

"I have no idea" he pounded eyes in me

"Audrey you are worst liar in the world"

"Still you love me!" he smirked

"You don't love me?" I parked on main parking by private bar. And left car.

Jess run after me, catch me with his arms.

"I love you Audrey, I love you" and we kissed.

Bar was dark, Jess felt what was going on. Before he was able said something lights was on and everyone said "SURPRISE" I let my boy to greet with everybody.

Bastien approached to me

"You know he hates surprises?"

"It's my revenge for annoying me" we laughed and Jess came back with gifts

"You got something for me?"

"This party isn't enough? You greedy Jess Logan!" I put my arms on his shoulders and kissed him. After opened my purse and took out envelope and gave it to him.

"Happy birthday boy" it was first gift he opened. And had tears in eyes.

"I can change it for Lamborghini" he shake his head in no

"It's perfect, and I reverse my sentence that you worst lair! I believed it will be blue" and I got another kiss. Took off me Jess my grandpa.

"I think it's inappropriate young man" Jess looked at me with smile

"Sorry sir, I couldn't resist" Jess faced my grandpa without fear my granny joined them and they gave him envelope. I rolled my eyes

"Audrey surprised us but we aware you will visit this last book shop. So have fun inside" Jess took it thanked them. My grandmother hugged him strong.

We had great fun until pieces of Kevin conversation felt to my ear

"No Lilly, no you can't, you will not ruin this day...... This I can promise...... No I will not do it......... It's her decision..."

I stood up and went to catch air. Went to car took cigarettes and smoke one. My perfect boyfriend run after me. I leaned on car my back and leg, he approached and took cig from me. Just was looking at me. We smoked together one cigarette in silence. Without taking eyes from each. I was calm.

"Jess let's go inside. It's your night, you can't run. Come. I want another slice of cake" I smiled to him. Hi wrapped me with his arms.

"One kiss" and our lips met. Did he know what I've heard? Or just came checked why I left. Who cares. He was by my side when I need it. We came back inside.

I didn't ask Kevin about his conversation with my mother he didn't said nothing about this call. It was Jess night we focused on making him happy. Jess hated surprises but this party made him smile, laugh he had fun we both needed it. After what happened it was sweet change. Yesterday all asked how we were, is everything OK. Today we just talk about nothing. My grandparents left first. It started real party. Kevin opened bar for all.

"Audrey someone will drive us. Don't worry join."

"I can be bartender. Prefere stay sober"

"Your choice, so whiskey double please" we smiled and I served Kev. I liked being behind bar. Thanks to it could leave Jess some space. He talked a lot with Travis I noticed they like each. It made me happy Travis knew me well hoped didn't tell a lot about our childhood.

Jess shone in company. He was drinking beer but sparing himself I managed to spend some time with Marry. It was pleasant evening and night.

Jess approached me, took me in his arms from behind. He trapped my hands in his grip. I could only bend them to stroke the skin of his strong arms. His warm lips kissed my neck. I heard loud gasp of Claire. We both looked at her Jess plunged his chin into my shoulder

Kevin hugged Claire and asked what's happened.

"Just look at them. Just old times showed in my head. I saw James and Lilly. They were same in love"

"We were the same" mumbled Kevin. They let in moment and started kissing. We smiled and Jess got back to kissing my neck. Moment later he whispered

"I want go home" My grumpy boyfriend I was able to move to faced Jess and kissed him.

"Let's try go, but I think it will be hard it's your party" we chuckled and kissed again.

Helped us Kevin he wanted go with Claire I thought about their reunion.

"Guys time to finish! Jess need be in shape tomorrow" Jess laughed but thanks everyone for coming. Few minutes later we were on our way home.

I helped Jess take gifts and we sat on couch.

"Audrey?"

"Yes?"

"Thank you for gift. I know I was annoying" I smiled and looked at him

"did I make good choice? Can try change for Lamborghini?" he came to me kissed me his eyes were smiling

"You made perfect choice. I always wanted ride Ferrari"

"You sound disappointed?" I made grumpy face

"I'm afraid"

"About what?"

"That's it some of your trick" I smiled and climb at him

"You were annoying. I didn't have gift for today so decided show you rental papers. So you can see what I rent. No tricks" his hands traveled on my back up and down

"So I'm f*****g happy" f*****g period I wanted him so much with this kisses he woke my l**t. He felt it and stopped me. He held my head with both his hands he wanted me the same as I. His dark eyes burn with l**t.

"Let's go sleep baby" he waited moment for me to cool down. I leaned my forehead on his shoulder. His hands stroked my body. Felt his heavy breathing on my shoulder and neck. He laid us down on couch. I felt fast in dreams in his warm arms.

We woke up late. And run from one to another corner of flat. We weren't nervous, laughing all the time. I was packed, Jess not so much so I helped him. We left home on time with taxi.