[BRIAN] I know I made the right decision, although my emotions try to convince me otherwise. Kissing Ava was wrong, and f*****g her was even worse. What the hell was I thinking? How did I let my attraction to her cloud my judgment, especially considering she’s half my age, my late daughter’s best friend, and the daughter of my mentor? You can’t just forget something like that, can you? It’s the only thing that should have mattered, and I should never have allowed myself to forget it. Those facts should have been permanently etched in my mind, engraved in my thoughts, and if possible, tattooed on my damn soul. But none of those damn facts stopped me from touching her inappropriately, from indulging in the kisses we shared, or from obsessing over her every waking moment since then. I s

