SILVA?

EPISODE 03: MEETING DIAMOND

The week that followed were the worst moments of my life,I became numb almost lifeless or rather a robot, everything in my life felt empty and void and if given a chance I knew deep within me that without a thought I'll gladly give up my life for my baby sister's.

It's Diamond's funeral but I didn't want to go and not just because I couldn't stand my dad's 'friends' who'd come to sympathize or more like have fun and make merry but because guilt was eating me up and I had a lot to tell my sister which of course I won't be able to do so without tearing up and making a mess out if my self but rather I'll go later on to pay my respects alone.But then again, Richard had other plans, because not only had he made it quite clear to me that I didn't have a say but he went as far as getting me a pretty black dress and was whistling happily.

One thing I'd notice unfortunately since Diamond's death,was that Richard had become a lot sober and happier which wasn't a surprise to me since it's his fault she died,he even stopped bringing various women to the house and instead took good care of his appearance while hardly sparing a glance at me which suited me just fine since it meant no more beatings.

We got to the cemetery and the service was conducted well enough but all this while I willed myself not to cry and even if I wanted to,I wasn't sure I would have for I am pretty sure my tears tank will definitely be dry and empty by now.

The first shock came,when I saw Richard bawling his eyes out crying and lamenting as tho he cared but then again I was in for more shock when I saw Beatrice,yes you heard me right,my mother who'd abandoned her daughters in the first place not only back for the funeral but also sobbing uncontrollably and the hatred within me doubled but there wasn't much I could do about it.

We got back home where there were eating and drinking and lots of laughter going on,my aunt Percy (my dad younger sister)and her husband Fred were around and acting as tho it were a family reunion instead of a funeral although I'll add my twin sister Daniella was no where to be found and honestly I didn't care a bit about her as she was the least of my problems.

Not quite long after my parents locked themselves in the study along with my aunt and her husband to discuss,I left and traced my way back to the cemetery where Diamond was buried.

'why did you leave me?I thought you said I was your Silver and you love me alot,I hate you Diamond I really do hate you for being so cruel and for abandoning me....you're just like everyone else.... please come back Diamond,I miss you already and so much,how am I supposed to live without you here,...... alright I promise....i....I promise not to call you baby anymore just please don't die....wake up please wake up.'

I lamented and cried amidst hiccups whilst rolling on the floor not minding how much of a mess I might look, anyone who'd see me at this point might actually think I'm crazy but I didn't care I just wanted my baby sister.

It was hours and everywhere was almost dark before I stood up and dusted my dress ready to go back home although if I had my way I'd stay here forever.I was on my way back while trying to block and preventing the tears that were threatening to fall when I saw her.

A little girl about Diamond's age sitting all by herself and crying her eyes out,the urge to protect her and make her stop crying was so great I couldn't help but to go to her.

'Diamond??'

I called to be sure I wasn't hallucinating cause she looks alot like her.

'my name's not Diamond but I like it'. She replied and looked up at me with big innocent brown eyes that were so adorable i almost cooed at her.

'why did you call me Diamond?momma said Diamonds are very pwetty and gli.....gli....hmmm glit yes glit alot'.She chattered as tho she wasn't sobbing minutes ago.

'glit?'

'yup....glit dummy,it means shinin'.She replied obviously pleased with her self for knowing something I didn't.

'you mean glitter?'. I corrected immediately I realized what it was she was trying to say.

'And don't call people dummy,it's not nice'.I scolded in my big sister tone.

'I'm sorry'.She pouted cutely.

'why were you crying all by yourself?'. I asked after remembering the reason I'd walked towards her in the first place.

'I can't find my momma', She said as tho realizing herself what she was doing all alone and resumed crying with a greater intensity.

'Are you lost then?' I questioned then watch her bob her head up and down in affirmative.

'Alright then I'll help you look for your mommy'. I said again and immediately she smiled widely at me and wiped her tears with her small hands.

I held her hands and helped her find her way home and she is quit clever and outspoken for a seven year old(as I later learned)while she helped with the directions of her home she could recall and during the walk to her home,I learned a lot about her and she cracked me up alot with her not so funny jokes.

We got two blocks away from her house when we saw her family already panicking and fretting over her disappearance and I decided it was time to go back.

'what's your name?.

'it's Dani.....Silva,my name is Silva'. I corrected myself immediately.

'i like your name....my name is Sierra'.

'it was nice meeting you Sierra,now run along,you mummy looks worried'.

'will you come visit me?I want to be your friend '.She said with obvious displeasure at not having me go with her.

'of course Diamond....sorry I meant Sierra,we can always meet there'. I said referring to where we met.

'you know the way there now right?'

'of course,I'm a big girl'. She said giving me a toothy grin before waving and running to met her worried family.

It was then I knew,she was my Diamond,my baby sister had come back to me and it didn't matter if her name was different this time or that she was a year younger,all that mattered was that she is back to me and this time I wouldn't let any harm come to her and will protect her as best as I could,the pain in my heart was temporarily lifted and with a toothy grin I broke into a run!!!