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EPISODE 06:MURDERER!!!

I was 19 when I took the stripping job at club climax. I was now a full blown stripper and lesbian and didn't give a f**k what was thought about me..I moved out of the small apartment in the ghetto and moved somewhere much more classier and stylish after I'd killed my baby, yes_ you heard me right. There was no way i was going to bring a bastard child,unwanted and unloved and even a product of a stupid bet into this world, maybe if I had I might have eventually grow to love him or her but I wasn't going to take any chances, I wasn't going to make any child pass through the emotional and psychological trauma that I did. If i was ever going to have kids, it'd be one I planned for, wanted and which of course would be genuinely loved not just by me but the dad also and i guess in my own messed up way,i loved my child.

And so I had laid down in the quack doctor's office while he'd not so really sterilised a long scissor like tool and inserted in between my legs, snipping away at the tiny life growing inside of me. I was without any form of anesthesia and so I felt every single pain right to my bones,it felt as tho I could die and a million needles were piercing through me but I wasn't going to allow a single tear drop nor allow the screams threatening forming in my throat to pass my lips.

I had bled heavily after that for days which after passing out from blood shortage and rushed to the hospital, had learnt from the health practitioner that I'd severely damaged my womb and could no longer mother a child as the possibility of that was almost non existent. And right then and there I closed every possible door of emotion as not only did I killed my baby but the remaining naivety and humanity in me.

Pretty soon I got used to my new routine, during the day, I stay home having enough rest and preparing for the night job ahead. Giving up totally on getting any form of degree or furthering my education, instead I relied on books and self helps as I was very smart and had a thing for learning.

My stage name was 'Cat' and I was always the star of very night show, I was also the highest paid stripper and only strips for those that could afford it without breaking bank. Although at this point, I completely despise guys but on few occasions gave blowjobs for VIP's only cause the pay is usually pretty high and a girl gotta survive anyway. But other than that, I hated having to do anything with males and you definitely cannot blame me for that since basically they're the genesis of my problems.

Along the years, I had come to realise that I was heels over head in love with Diamond but it was my deepest secret, one that must never be known. You can't really blame me tho, she still stood by me even tho she wasn't pleased with my occupation and was looking so damn beautiful at sixteen I often get jealous whenever she was complimented by guys and girls alike as I wanted her all to myself. I guarded her the best way I could and probably went a little bit extreme and over board.

Few months before I'd moved to my new apartment, I and Diamond had a quarrel about a guy she liked and I disapproved of (mainly because she was barely 14 and I felt she was too little to get involved in male drama....not because I was jealous mind you) and she'd got mad and left the house late that night. She had ran blindly that she bumped into some hoodlums lurking around the corner, feeling remorse at how I had reacted, I had followed her immediately.

When I got to where she was, she was on the verge of being r***d and was being threatened by the three of them hoodlums. Without thinking twice, I offered myself to do as they pleased in exchange for Diamond, of course they'd agreed seeing how curvy I looked and they took turns brutally using my body while making sure Diamond watched. I could still remember vividly the pale look and tears streaming down her face.

After the three guys had their of me and just as they were buckling up their shorts and belt, I picked up the short gun they had used as threatening leverage swiftly and aimed at them, I could still see the shock on their faces when I pulled the trigger and commited murder for the second time in my life and so it became official, I was a MURDERER!!!

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It started raining heavily as I pulled a stunned Diamond out of the ally and into the nearest church around. She looked pale with tears gushing down her cheeks, in short, she was looking like a pale faced ghost.

Immediately we got inside the church( which was the first time I had entered one since my baby sister death), I grabbed her towards the alter, thankfully the church was empty but well lit and made her make a promise before me and Gid that she'll no matter what happens keep her virginity and remain chaste until marriage and of course to never mention what had happened that night as we're to never talk about it, yo behave as tho it never existed and totally forget about it.

With big brown eyes full of pain , regret, hope and trust, she gave me her word, she promised!!!