Bloodlines Truth

Chapter 4

He looked at me, really looked at me. “Empathy wasn’t exactly taught in my training.” His wolf howled at his words, guilt coming through on each note.

“You think I don’t see what I missed. You think I don’t know what I have done.” He ran his hands through his tousled hair. “It’s too late to fix it by pretending I cared back then, when we all know I will be lying,” he met my eyes, raw and unguarded. I could see the pain and the shame in them as well as his wolf fighting for control.

I stared back. Finally knowing what I would have to do.

“Training … Haven’t you ever wanted to be just you? Logan Reigns. An Alpha people can look up to and love. Think about it …” Logan's expression changed, almost like he didn’t understand that it could be possible. ‘Wanted to be just me?" He let out a bitter laugh.’ That’s not how it works, you’re born Alpha or your nothing.’ He growled low his wolf closer to the surface with every word.

‘But maybe I was too busy proving I deserved the title to notice what being an Alpha truly meant and the responsibility that goes with it.’ He looked away, briefly, then back at me with a strange look in his eyes, almost vulnerable. ‘Maybe I just need someone to help me figure that out.” An open question in his eyes.

I realized that maybe he isn’t a hopeless case. Maybe this will be okay. “Yes. You are born Alpha, but you decide which one you want to be. Once you figure that out, Logan. Then we can talk.” I looked at him. Giving him a way in. I was ready to turn around and go back to my cottage when he looked at me something in his eyes shifting.

“ You're giving me a chance?” disbelief in his voice. Then he looked down. “Or are you buying time before you leave me?” Our bond was humming with a sense of acceptance not pain. He sat down on the ground in front of me, half talking out loud, half questioning himself. “ Which Alpha do I want to be. Never had that choice before.” He looked up at me. I hadn’t realized that I had started moving closer to him. ‘ What kind of Alpha do you need?’

I sighed and bent down so that I could put my hand on his shoulder. “ I'm not buying time, Logan. If it was only that.’ I scoffed. I looked at him this time so that he could see and feel exactly what I meant with my next sentence.’ You remind me of someone I lost. He tried to be what others wanted him to be and, in the end, it killed him, but being who I am, I wont allow you to walk that same path if I could help it. But I can only help up until a point.’ He stared at me as if finally realizing that I would not disappear. That I was actually staying. He went completely still.