Teen disasters

Chapter 16

   I wake up and everything is still dark. I'm literally half my body on top of Alex, although he's comfortable ... I stretch a few inches to reach for the cell phone and it drops. Curse! I reach over to grab it and I do it, and, damn it! Alex was right that I'm cursing a lot, although I am amused at the same time.

   I turn on the cell phone and it is difficult for me to get used to the light, when I finally do it I see that it is ... 4 A.M ... 4 A.M.? Wow, our "nap" lasted a little longer than we had planned, how weird the alarms didn't go off. Although now that I think about it, what alarms? If we didn't put any, it's Eliana vacations, by God.

   I get up to go to the kitchen. When I go down I grab the milk from the fridge and when I turn around I throw it on the floor staining everything because I see Alex lying on the door frame.

"Hello" he speaks with his sexy sleepy voice, rubs his face and comes towards me to give me a kiss on the cheek.

"Hello ... do you want a chocolate? I was about to make one" he just nods and goes over to the chairs at the breakfast table. "It was a joke, you made me spill the milk".

"4:18 A.M.?"

"Exactly, our nap went wrong" I answer as I grab a cloth to clean the floor. "A little help?"

"I did not throw it" speaks raising his hands in the form of innocence.

"No, but it was your fault".

"Maybe you're done" I look down and he was right.

"The next time you clean, did you hear me?" he just nods, sitting down and resting his head on his hand with his eyes closed. "Hey don't fall asleep again, I'll make some milk there".

"Good" he murmurs.

   I bring the water to a boil while I grab the lactal bread and make six pieces of toast and then slather on plum jam, three for each.

"You never lit the fire" Alex speaks laughing and when I turn around he was right, I put the water on the fire without the fire.

"Curse!"

"Stop cursing".

"CURSE!" I scream separating letter by letter. "Well let's have microwave coffee with milk, and that's what I do".

   The microwave beeps and I take out the mugs, burning my hands, pass them mugs and hand Alex his along with his three pieces of toast and I do the same.

   We finish having breakfast at the same time and we stare, until I cut it when I check the time ... 4:47 P.M.

"I'm going to continue sleeping, will you?"

"Also" my friend answers.

   We go up and go to bed, he grabs my arms and makes me hug him (not that I resisted much, we almost always end up like that so it's the same). We look at each other for a while and I kiss him on the cheek, which takes him off guard but he smiles, then I put my face on his chest ... it's nice, as I had said before, his power to calm me to the max, it's like magic .

"I love you" I hear him whisper, maybe he wanted me to hear it, maybe not but I answered him anyway.

"I to you, Alex".

   And so we fall asleep, when we wake up later we set the time and it is already 12:49 P.M. just right for lunch. The truth is that we did not wake up very late, we were both surprised because we thought we would get up at 3 P.M. more or less.

   In the afternoon we are going to ride, we do not talk almost anything but it is not necessary. We are not one of those people who have to be talking to each other all the time, we can shut up and stay that way the same. We feel great between silences and words, I feel that our friendship is unique and I would not trade Alex for anyone else in the whole world.

   We got on well from the first day of school, on the first day of primary school when each student was entering we had to say our birthday and we were the only ones who agreed on the same day. That's why the lady from that grade was amused and made us sit together, thanks to that we talked and talked the whole class until the lady wanted to change us again but this time we were the ones who did not want to. And from that day it continued like this, always at the same school, and always together.

"I loved coming here".

"Me too Alex, me too".

"Did you see what good ideas I have? If I didn't tell you, you didn't even remember this house".

"Great your ideas, wonderful your ideas" I speak sarcastically.

"Good thing you say that, I want to climb that tree, that is my new wonderful and great idea".

"Do it and I'll get on with you".

"Seriously?"

"No".

"Give it, please" makes pleading eyes as he clasps his hands.

"Okay, let's go up".

"How easy to convince" laughs but not me, clearly I did not find it funny.

"Sorry? As you said?" I speak crossing my arms.

"Nothing, I didn't say anything, just a joke. I said that I love you, that I love you with all my heart".

"So it seemed to me".

   He climbs the tree and I often do it, something complicated but finally I succeed, his sudden follies are funny.

"Thank you, I already knew it, but thanks".

"Voice aloud?"

"Sí". (Yes).

"Lo siento". (Sorry)

"Está bien, es adorable. Pero deberías de tener cuidado con lo que pienas, te lo diré otra vez". (Okay, it's adorable. But you should be careful what you think, I'll tell you again)

"Está bien, lo haré". (Okay I will)

"Fin de la conversación, volvamos al inglés". (End of conversation, let's go back to English)

"I did not know you spoke English" I speak surprised.

"Little, you too".

"Little bit? You make good prayers, you impress me every day" we both laugh.

"Gastón would have loved to come here" I look at him while he pays attention to every detail, I know he is imagining him here, playing, laughing and running everywhere.

"I would have loved him, I know. And the most likely thing is that he is looking at us from above, having fun with us".

"I miss him a lot Eli, he was my little brother, we fought yes, but things of brothers. I never told him I loved him".

"I know Alex, I miss him too. But you know that he will continue to be with you, in every step, in every important moment and not in your life. It's with us, it's in your mom, it's in your dad, it's in your heart. You know what they say, people do not die until they forget them, their soul does not die, he is still here with you, with me and with everyone".

"If I had been, if I had ..." I cut him in mid-sentence.

"If you had nothing, if you had been the same would have happened. You have to stop blaming yourself, it wasn't your fault, nothing was. You did not make him sick, we do not know how it would have been" at this moment I approach him and hug him, he returns the hug and hides his face in my neck, then I feel his tears run down my neck.

"Sorry" says while trying to separate but not let.

"Don't apologize for something as common as crying, don't apologize for having f*****g feelings. My mom always tells me, if you want to cry, cry. Everyone does it, when we are born, we are born crying, it is crying that gives us life, that communicates to the world that we are alive".

"Don't curse so much".

"I make a whole argument for you and, do you just answer me that? You're amazing Alex, you're amazing" the last one I already do with laughs.

"I know, I love you Eli. I needed these days, these talks. Thanks for not leaving me".

"How am I going to leave you? Are you crazy?"

"A little, but in my defense you are more so".

"You're right, you're right. But it's our secret, did you hear me?"

"As if the rest of the world doesn't know".

"Did you hear me?!" I repeat now, separating him from me.

"Yes ma'am" we laughed and we only stayed a while more up there in the tree.

   We return with the horses to the house just in time for supper. After having pizza for dinner (everything super elaborate since it was homemade pizza), we go back to bed. Yes, we sleep all day and we don't regret it, obviously.

   But now that I think about it well what happened before and it is not the first time, there have already been several, how many things have I said out loud without him answering me? In other words, he only listened to them without making any comment. What has he heard and what has not? And I don't mean just Alex, everyone. I live thinking, of course, everyone thinks, but I don't realize when I say something out loud, it's like it comes out without my permission and it doesn't even tell me I did it.

   I'm not a believer in God, but I quietly pray that no one heard me speak my thoughts out loud. Please! Or at least I want to realize if I do, so something running from the place depending on the thought.