After having a meal, I got left on my own in the kitchen while Seojun went back to his room to do things that I have no idea of. I proceed to clean the messes on the table that came after we ate. I put each plate and other utensils in the sink with extreme care, getting ready to wash them. Feeling my throat dry, I stop for a very short time in order to pour myself a glass of water and then take a few gulps to refresh myself. I inhale, taking a very deep breath as the same thoughts begin to make me drown. What is going to happen to us when we come back to Seoul? Is it really possible that Seojun and I will not be like how we are right now again? I close my eyes and lift my head, I look at the ceiling as I inhale a huge amount of air one more time. Upon remembering that I have completed

