Stuck Between Brothers

Chapter 5: 17 years old.

Its been 3 years since I last snuck out to the boys' house. Lucas was still my best friend. He still never had a girlfriend, and he spends all his time with me. We are glued to the hip. He is now 6'4 and a total dreamboat, hes the star basketball player. Josh is also just as beautiful as ever. He also became wrapped up in Mia since that day. 3 years they have been off and on. When they're on, it's the most disgusting display. When they're off, he spends his time at parties with what girl he can get. Who wouldnt jump at the opportunity to be seen on Josh Andrews arm?

Josh is pleasant around me but he isn't the same boy who would play with my hair every chance he got. He still has my heart though. I realized 3 years ago that I had very strong feelings for Josh. They were always there. I just never admitted them to myself until I saw Mia hanging off his arm.

Tonight though, Uncle Donnie is working the night shift. Being 17, I should be fine. But its the anniversary of my dads death. Every time I close my eyes, I see the hole in the bridge. I see the mangled corpse of my father in his coffin. I cant stop the waves of pure heartbreak that keeps running through me. Since Uncle Donnie told me I couldnt stay with the boys anymore, when I had my nightmares and especially on the anniversary, I would go to my Uncles room and cry in to his chest. There were so many nights he had to run in to my room and rub my back to help me sleep again. I warned him this would happen when he took away the sleepovers. He powered through, and we have actually grown even closer.

I grab my blanket and open my window. Hopping out, I try to steady my breaths. I can't stop the tears running down my face as I cross the street and walk to Josh's window. Giving it three taps, I try to push it open. Its locked. I start to panic even more.

"Josh?" I tap his window harder. I am now sobbing. Josh never locks his window.

"Jude?" I see him turn his bedside lamp on and sit up looking at me. He stares at me for a moment before jumping out of bed and unlocking his window. He grabs my blanket and helps me in to his room.

"Hey Judey girl, what going on?" He whispers to me as I cling to him. Sobbing in to his chest.

"Shhh. Its ok. Go get in to bed." He says. "You can have the wall." And suddenly im transported back in time, to when he cared about me. Why did he not care anymore.

"Joshie? Why don't you care about me anymore? What did I do so wrong?" Im crying even harder now. Heres the boy who stole my heart, then crushed it, acting like nothing has changed.

"What do you mean?" He says, confused.

"What do I mean? Josh you held me 3 years ago, then acted like I barely existed. YOU WENT TO MIA. The girl who bullied me every chance she got. She still pushes me around and you let her. You stopped caring about me and I dont know why." I whisper yell at him, while also choking down the sobs trying to escape.

"You and Lucas were my boys. MY BOYS. You guys were there for everything. You kept me safe. You protected me. And then just one morning I mean nothing to you?" My heart is breaking again. Looking in his eyes, I cant read beyond the shock.

"And here I am, being pathetic as normal. Crawling in your window looking for comfort. And you gave it to me. Only its out of pity now. I can tell you dont care about me." I start to grab my blanket from him, but he pulls back.

"You're not pathetic, Judey girl. I always cared about you, you will always be my Judey girl." He whispers back to me. "Go get in bed." He orders me. I have no fight left in me, so I crawl in bed. I feel him slide in next to me. This time, he gets under my blanket with me and pulls me to his chest. I start crying harder because this means more to me than it does to him. He wraps his arms tighter around me and starts humming the tune to "Blackbird" by The Beatles. Twisting my hair around his finger, its like we picked up right where we left off. I breathe in deep and smell the familiar clean linen smell. I finally start to relax in to him.

"Joshie?" I whisper.

"Hmm?" He grunts while he still humms to me.

"Why was your window locked?" I ask. My voice cracking.

"You stopped coming." Was all he said. Slowly I drifted to sleep, listening to the tune of his heart and his deep humm.

"Oh you have got to be kidding me!" I wake up from the best sleep I've gotten in years. I sit up and look towards the awful sound that woke me. Mia is standing in the doorway, jaw dropped. Oh shes pissed.

"JOSH WHAT THE f**k!" Mia yells again. This time Josh actually wakes up. His arm still around me, he rolls and looks at the door.

"Oh hey Mia." He said nonchalantly. No care in the world that his girlfriend just caught him in bed with another girl.

"Dont hey Mia me. What is she doing here?" She asks with disgust in her voice.

"Don't worry about it." He says to her. Leaning over he kisses my head and slides out of bed.

"Lets go Mia." He said walkin to her. She looks pissed.

"You're going to have to burn those sheets when the trash leaves, Josh." She says.

"Would you just shut the f**k up for once." He yells.

"JOSHUA MICHAEL ANDREWS." I hear Mrs. Bettie yell from down the hall.

"What has gotten in to you, boy. You know better than to ever talk to a girl that way." She scolds him as she walks in to the room. She sees me, and her face softens.

"Hey baby girl. Bad dream?" She asks. I nod.

"Come, lets make some pancakes. You can go wake up Lucas for me." She reaches out to me. Saving me from this highly awkward situation.

"You're just going to take her from one of your sons room and send her into anothers?" Mia points out with utter disgust lining her tone.

"Mia, you know where the exit is. I heard how you talked to our Jude, and you are no longer welcome in my home." Mr. Andrews speaks up as he walks down the hallway. Giving me a quick smile, he pushes me towards Lucas' room.

I walk inand somehow Lucas is still asleep. Walking over to him, I see hes shirtless. Immediately I blush. Sure I've seen Lucas shirtless planty of times, but this seems so intimate. I reach out and poke him.

"LuLu, its time to get up." I say.

To my surprise, he reaches out, grabs my hand, and pulls me down on to him. He adjusts me to where I'm straddling him.

"Mmmm." He grunts. Hugging me to his chest, I feel him thrust upwards. Im not stupid, I know boys have morning wood. What I was not expecting, was to like the feel of Lucas against me.

"Lucas. Lucas!" I panic. This cant happen. I push up against his chest and try to slide off of him. He grabs my hips, holding me in place.

"JuJu, I swear if you dont stop wiggling around..." He says. His morning voice deep and surprisingly sexy. I feel my panties drench immediately. What is happening to me?

"Umm. LuLu, you.. you need to let me go." I stress. I try to move out of his grip again, but he holds me firmly against his very excited member.

"Why should I do that?" He says and slowly grinds in to me. I cant help it, a little moan escapes my lips. This encourages him. He grinds in to me more. One hand still firmly holding my hips, the other reaches the back of my neck and pulls me down to him. His mouth meets mine in a hungry kiss. I cant help myself. I kiss him back. I start to move against him.

His hand leaves my hip, and reaches around and grabs my butt. Never in my life, did I imagine my first kiss to be with Lucas. Definitely not with us dry humping eachother while his mom makes pancakes in the kitchen.

I feel his hand slide under my shorts, he slowly starts rubbing on one cheek. His other hand has slowly made its way down to the front of my shirt. He softly pinches my n****e, amd quickly swallows the moan that leaves me mouth. As we fall deeper and deeper in to the moment, I feel his hand move towards my center. I feel one of his fingers tease my entrance and gasp. I have two options here, I can keep dry humping my best friend and lead us both to an orgasm we are both chasing, or I can stop it right now. We're already doing it, things between us are already crossing a line. Might as well not leave sexually frustrated.

I grind my hips back in to his finger, causing it to slip it. He groans in to my mouth. I gasp as he fully inserts his entire finger in to me. I can feel the palm of his hand covered in my arousal. I pick up my pace grinding in to him, and start sucking on his tongue. He slips a second finger deep in to me and I bite his lip in response. I can feel the pressure building. From his jerky hip movements, I know hes getting close too.

He pulls his fingers out and grabs my hips as i sit up. I have more control this way. My head falls back and I grind my center faster against his hardness. He sits up, lifts my shirt and takes one of my n*****s in to his mouth. Thats all it took as I came undone. Right there on top of my best friend. He shoved his fingers in to my mouth to silence my moans. I dont think he meant for his fingers to go in to my mouth, but taking the opportunity, I swirl my tongue around his fingers, tasting myself. I suck his fingers deep into my mouth and thats all it took for him to come undone.

And there we were. Forehead to forehead, and heavy breathing.

"What a way to wake up." He grins at me, kissing the tips of my nose. I pull back and just stare at my best friend. His beautiful green eyes staring back at me. Im not sure what I'm feeling right now. He grabs my face and pulls me in to him. Kissing me deeply. This kiss has so many emotions running through it. Do I have feelings for Lucas? Does Lucas have feelings for me?

When we break apart, I can finally take in everything around me. I look down and see that at some point, his sheet was removed from between us. I also learned a very interesting detail about my best friend. He sleeps in the nude. I was one thin fabric away from losing my virginity to my best friend, and I had no idea.

"Uhh. Your mom is making pancakes!" I squeak out. I go to his dresser and pull it open. I grab him a pair of boxers, and steal a pair of his sweat pants. My shorts are currently soaked through. I threw the boxers at him and blush when he stands up. No modesty what so ever from him.

"Alrighty then. Ill see you in the kitchen!" I yank on the sweat pants and go to open the door. I run face first in to Josh. He just stares at me. Confusion written all over his face.

"What the f**k did you just do?" He all but growls at me.

Fuck. What did I just do?