That moment was very intense. Grabe ang pawis ko at kaba ko. I can’t describe the experience: it’s breathtaking, mixed with fear, excitement and…and joy. I guess these lines from Vanessa Carlton’s White Houses perfectly describes my feelings:
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it’s more common than you think
After that, he hugged me tight. I can feel his hearbeat. Ang bilis.
After 30 minutes or so, nakahiga lang ako sa left side nung bed, still naked. Naka blanket lang kami kasi medyo malamig because of the aircon. Tahimik lang ako. Nakaharap ako duon sa bintana nila, nakatilikod ako kay Darryl na nakatulog na ata. Ang dami kong iniisip. Parang may sumasanggi sa isip ko. I have this feeling rin kasi eh. Sadness? No. Happiness? I
