Finally,Home

Chapter 3: The Main Town (version 2)

It is almost a week since I got here and sometimes I take a glimpse of my phone. It is tempting since it is always beeping , until, I promised myself that I will lessen my time in social media. One message makes me tremble. I almost hold my breath. I know he will never find me here unless, my family in Miami told him. It is impossible that they will lead him here. They will beat him to death if they saw him.

I know where you are, if I get you don't even try to run away from me again.

I am always thinking, why do I deserve all of this? I lost my memories because they said that my past is so horrible. I've been chased for the things that I can even remember, all I can confirm is that I almost hit my older sister because of my anger towards her. I also had a boyfriend once, but.... they mistreated him. They blame him for my behavior. Mom says that I really need to manage my anger. Anger Management. Crap. She triggered me and ruin my dream!

Ysabelle, stop ruining and messing my things, just please! I'm begging you! it's my project for tomorrow, my professor will kill me if I didn't pass anything!

I beg her as she holding the maroon mermaid dress that I sew. It's my master peace. I've been so sleepless because of that project.

"Ruin it?! you're too harsh my little sister! Oh, you want this? I will borrow it for tonight, Megan is hosting a party. If you want to join, then come with me at seven in the evening, and if you're not interested, I'll just return it as soon as I got back. Okay? See you later!"

she says while still holding my dress. She's about to go out of my room when I snatched the dress away from her. She never keep her words. Never. Trust. Her.

She is like an evil witch!

"You b***h! this is the reason why no one wants to be around you! you're selfish! You're crazy! you don't want me to borrow that?! then it's yours, but first....."

she said and pull the dress' laces as it tear apart. I can't believe what she have done to me! she always wanted me to get scolded! since I get well from my therapy, all she did is to make my life miserable! she is not contented until she embarrassed me to death and I don't know why mom never scold her. It is so unfair.

"You're mad at me little sis?! don't you ever think that you still have a future to hold! your life is disgusting! you're pathetic! no one wants you! there's your peace of s**t!"

she said and she throw my dress in my face, and when it fall down to the floor, she even kick and stamp on it.

I don't know what happened to me but all I can see is her very irritating smirk, her envious laughter and her evil looks. I always give my best so I can be accepted! I am so full of it. I feel my breathing up rising, my heart beats so fast, I want to punch her. My vision is turning dark and I don't know if I'm still breathing. I can't even hear a thing.

"What are you doing to your sister?! stop it ! Deborah, I'm telling you! Don't you dare hurting her again! or I will call the police!"

I return to myself when I heard my Mom screaming and crying, I'm pretty sure that I don't know what I am doing. I noticed that I'm sitting above my sister's body, her face and arms is full of scratch, my right hand is holding a piece of broken mirror and I think I'm about to stab her. I also noticed that my whole room is a mess, the whole body mirror is shattered into pieces, my bedside table and my lamp shade is broken, all of my things are scattered in the floor and the curtains are all cut into pieces, my sister is bleeding and crying. She is begging me to stop. What have I done? I look at my hand and it is also full of blood and bruises. I started to cry and ask for forgiveness.

I don't know what's happening to me.... is it true? am I really crazy? No! I don't want this! I'm not crazy! I'm just mad!

After that incident, when Ysabelle got back to our house from the hospital, she keeps on avoiding me. I tried to apologize but mommy cast me away, until she told me that I will be going back to Dad. I tried to ask her maybe if I can stay, bit all she said is, if i didn't go, she will be forced to put me in Psychiatric Jail, that she's too kind that she even let me go free. That is the main reason, but I know, they are hiding a lot from me, and that is what I wanted to find out.

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”Hey Deb! what are you thinking? you've been staring at your phone for so long, is there someone or something that bothering you? Aren't you bored here? or maybe you're just bored and tired of your phone. Why don't you come with me? I'm going to the main town to pick up some supplies. Get ready, change your clothes. You will scare them again if they saw you with your modern outfit, it's kinda old fashion here. I'll wait for you outside."

he said. Maybe he's calling me for ages. I hide my phone and smile at him. I wanted to forget that memory but it seems like it is haunting me over and over again.

"That's a very great idea dad! maybe that's just what I need. See you."

I said while he's walking out of my room. I sighed as he disappear from my sight. I've been a burden for everyone, I can't burden them anymore because of what I am suffering right now. Mom is right, I have to change and control myself. There's no one who's going to help me but myself.

I take a warm bath and wore my simplest dress. It is almost faded. So maybe it is okay now. But what I can't change of my self is my hair's color, it is too blond and it's wave and length always attracts too much attention, so I decided to braid it. I also did not apply any make up as if I'm even using one. Everyone said that I look exactly like my mother and I can see that. How I wish that I can understand everything and she can love me too. I know that I should know myself better first.

"That's better! Hop on!”

dad said, while praising my look. I hop on his truck. We're not talking, he did not disturb me, maybe he noticed that I'm really off today. I'm sorry dad. He only broke the silence when we stop in a diner named Shelly's.

"We are here! Let's grab some lunch first. I'm really hungry. Shelly's is the most popular diner here. Well the food is not really bad. Come on!"

he is too excited so I tried to smile. I got out off the truck and I follow him. We enter a not so big diner, but it is really cozy inside. It is tropical themed and the green plants makes the whole dinner's ambiance more relaxing. Dad made me choose a spot and he ordered our lunch he knows food here than me so it's fine.

I choose a spot near the glass window, from here, I can see the whole street. I can see that most of them are using bike as mode of transportation. It is really good here, I like the ambiance of the whole town. A really good place to start new beginning of my painful and unfortunate life.

Is she the daughter of the man living in that old mansion? is she the one who killed Johnson?

I don't think so, I think it's the older one. Well, it's been how many years since that happened? eight or ten? well, we can't deny that she's really gorgeous.

I take a glimpse of those who's talking and they hurriedly walk outside. I don't know if they are talking about us but it gives me more pain. What really happened from the past? Well, I just ignore them. I'm about to stand and help my dad when suddenly a familiar silhouette appear in five meters away from me. He is standing in the middle of the road, he is still wearing the same hoodie jacket when he appear in our land. I started to get nervous when he slowly walks towards the diners window. I'm starting to get scared, he is now in front of me. I clearly saw his face, he's face and hands are burned. He touch the window and I scream.

"Deb! Deb! what's happening to you!"

I heard dad's voice as he shake me to get my attention. He quickly run towards me when he heard my scream. I'm crying and everyone is staring at me again. Their face is full of questions and disgust like I'm an i***t.

"Dad, he is here! he is following me around! he is outside the window!"

I said while crying and pointing the glass window, dad embrace and I saw a woman shook her head as if telling my dad that there is no one out there. I'm so scared that I can't move myself anymore, dad embrace me as I stop myself from crying. He even asks assistance from the waitress to change our seats far from the window. A middle aged woman wearing a waitress' uniform assist us.

"Here young lady, drink this to calm you. If you're calmer, please eat something, it will makes you feel better."

the lady said named Arisa said and she tap my head and put the cold water in the table.

"Thank you. You saw him right?"

I ask and she look around as if someone might hear us. She sits in front of me. My dad is still in the counter to get the other meal. She look down before she speak.

"Yes, but young lady, as you can see, everybody here thinks that all of your father's child is insane. No one will believe you here. I saw him too but when you started to panic, he quickly run away. That man is appearing everywhere but no one knows who is he. "

Arisa whispered. I really thought that I'm just hallucinating and imagining things but everything is real!

"Miss Arisa, do you know what happened to my family eight years ago? why does everyone think that we're crazy?"

I asked and a confusion appears from her face.

"How come you didn't know ? well, maybe your family is trying to forget but, if you insist knowing....Well, eight years ago, a big news spread wide here in the main town, no...the whole country. They said that one of your father's children killed someone in the mansion, the investigation is too private and because your family is too rich, they managed to close the case without us knowing what really happened. Well, your father is back, you might want to visit me in some other time."

she said and she quickly leave me as she saw my father coming back to our table. How big is that news?

"Are you okay? did she bother you?"

dad said while putting our food in the table.

"Don't worry Dad, I'm okay, she comfort me infact. Dad, I promised I saw a man in the window, his face is burnt, as well as his hands, and I always saw him outside our mansion, sometimes, he even tried to come near me, I thought it's just my imagination until now. Do you believe me.dad?"

I ask and based on his expression, he is starting to think.

"Well, I believe there's someone like him in this town, but I never thought that he will enter our property and why is he following you? Well, let's not talk about that, let's eat first."

he said. He shrugged his shoulder and we started to eat.

After we had our lunch, we go to different farm supplies and grocery stores, people keep on whispering how blond my hair is, or how I look like, they will keep on giving me dagger look. It's almost three in the afternoon when dad bring me to the nearest meadow, it is peaceful out here, the grass is too green and it was mixed by wild flowers, I think, next time I'll come back here to paint.

"In that tree, that's where me and your mom met, she is crying that time and I am getting fresh grass for the animals when I saw her there wiping her tears. Actually, she keeps on shooing me away like I'm kind of a cow, she looks so lovely and looks like you, unti she gave up and she told me her tantrums. Until we keep on meeting each other.'

he said and he was smiling like mom is the most precious thing that she saw.

"If you really love each other that much, then why did you separate? is it because of me?"

I ask confidently. He just smile and walk back to the truck.

"Whatever happened to our family is our fault, our mistakes, so you should not think that it was your fault. Because we both got busy, we didn't notice that we're all falling apart that we didn't manage to catch you all from falling."

dad said as he enter the truck, I got in and he smiled before he started the engine.

Even you decided to separate, we are all still falling and we cannot do anything about it.