Missing

Chapter 11

He and everyone was starting to really annoy me. I hung up the phone tired of all these people. I needed to figure out what was happening with Fawn before I threw myself into another relationship. Sean was someone I worked with for a long time. We grew fond of each other. Then there was the night that changed our work relationship. We were working on the legality of this contact the company was taking on. I had doubts but Sean bought be a really amazing dinner and we talked all night. One thing led to another, and we hooked up. I was so drunk, and I believed every word he said. Sean told me he was ready to settle down, start a family, and get his life right. I was in love and completely believed him. I was stupid and didn’t realize that he was not ready to settle down in any way. He cheated on me several times and apologized promising he would change. He never did. Catching him constantly on other women’s pages liking their pictures. I was tired of confronting him after seeing message after message. Sean was a player and the man who broke me. I would never let that happen again. I hated him and everything he stood for. I was ready to move on but not this quickly. It was too fast and too good. Cassian was perfect in every way so far. He checked all of my boxes and that was dangerous. I was in deep thought when he called me again and again. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was a shallow reflection of my true self. Bags and worry took over my face. Even I couldn’t beat this terrible ache that I felt. My best friend was gone. I was alone too. What if she was dead? What if she was alone hurt? I started sobbing uncontrollably. I was officially broken right now. Maybe I would get my s**t together tomorrow but tonight I would cry and let out my feelings. I didn’t like crying. I thought about my childhood for the first time in years. In fact, my childhood consisted of my mom's terrible boyfriend choices. They yelled at me and told me to “shut the f**k up.” That I was ruining their time with my mom. She did the best she could, but she was so far from perfect. We reconnected in my 20s. It was hard considering she was off and on drugs almost all my life. I thought about Fawn again and cried screaming into her pillow. Like this would make any difference.

Then I heard a knock at the door. I was so frightened I approached very slowly. Maybe it was the police? Maybe it was Fawn? I opened the door cautiously.

“Cassian. What are you doing here? I told you to leave me alone. Please.” I almost cried.

“Mai, you’ve been crying baby girl. What is going on? I am here to help.” He lifted my chin.

“Nothing. I don’t want your help.” I snapped.

“I can’t sleep leaving things the way they were. I am worried about you.” He pulled my face up. I had been looking down. He can’t sleep. Okay wow. I had to get these thoughts about him out of my head.

“I just want to be alone. I have to go meet with my new company tomorrow.” I thought about anxiously.

“Does that mean you’re going to stay?” He asked.

He pulled me closer and kissed me until I pulled away out of breath.

Cassian looked me in my eyes. s**t. He was so beautiful. I hated him but his gorgeous green eyes could melt me, and they did.

“Maisy, I want you.” His eyes showed he was telling the truth.

“Ever since I saw you, I can’t stop thinking about your body, pulling your long hair, kissing you, f*****g you….”

I couldn’t help myself I jumped on him basically.

He kissed and bit my neck. “Oh, Cassian don’t stop. I’ve wanted you too. I thought you were too hot for me, and I was upset about my friend and my ex.” I rambled.

“Let me get you a drink.” He broke away. I was so disheartened.

“Okay.” I said almost on the brink of tears. He was going to do it to me again. I am nothing to him.

Cassian made us some shots and gave me and him three. I took all of them in a row without missing a beat. He followed and so did his hand into my shirt. I wasn’t wearing a bra and Cassian seemed enthusiastic.

He took off my shirt and discarded it on the floor. Then without warning he picked me up and brought me into Fawn’s room. The bed still smelled like her.

He slid my pajama pants off. Then he ripped my panties off in a swift motion. His eyes looked into mine as he put his face in between my legs. Cassian kissed both my thighs teasing me. I was throbbing and wet.

“f**k, Mai you are so hot.”

My p***y was waiting for his tongue. Finally, he kissed my wet lips sucking on my c**t and I didn’t realize I had been moaning his name over and over the whole time. He moved up to my shirt and took it letting my boobs spill out in full view. He took the n****e left in his mouth first kissing me in between and then the right nipple.I cried out. I was almost begging him to f**k me at this point.

Reaching down I unbuttoned his jeans and slid his shirt over his head. Oh. My. f*****g. God. Cassian was so f*****g fine and sculpted. Like the f**k?

I stroked his long thick d**k in my hand. He went back down on me but that’s not what I wanted right now.

“f**k me.” I breathed.

He pulled me closer, and I ran my hand through his dark curls.

Cassian purred and removed his boxers.