Relief
1043 Words
But that excitement when I first met him had now turned into hatred, despair, anger and frustration. It was nothing like what I first felt when we started talking.
“I’ll get him for this and that’s a promise” Lisa looked mad
“But why would he do something like that” Jess scoffed “I can’t believe I was excited about hanging out with him. He’s so disgusting”
“I’m really sorry “ Lisa said once more.
“Hey,” Jess suddenly sounded excited “Do you know what would make you happy?” Jess smiled trying to cheer me up
“No” I said wiping my now red eyes and sniffing as mucus started coming out of my nose profusely.
“I’ll be back soon” Jess quickly stood up, grabbed her jacket and went out of the room
“You can tell me what’s really going on now” Lisa said looking me dead in the eye with a straight face
“That’s all I promise” I lied again
“I know you well Hannah, spill it” Lisa pressed further
“I am pregnant” After saying these words, I started bawling again like the first set of tears I had cried wasn’t enough. I had finally let it out after holding this information from the people that currently matter the most in my life.
“I know” Lisa said calmly and lightly stroked my back
“But how” I managed to voice out from the buckets of tears I was currently pouring out
“The day you found out, I noticed that your countenance changed and you were different. Instantly, I knew something was wrong. I tried to pry it out of you to make sure you were not in trouble and you didn’t want to ask for help. So I kept watching you and I figured it out. I didn’t say anything in front of Jess because I wasn’t sure why you don’t want her to know now”
As much as we are roommates, even if we were not the same age, she always acts like an elder sister to us.
“ Wow, that’s really good. You’ll make a good prosecutor” I sniffed again with a small smile that didn’t reach my cheek.
“ That’s not what’s it’s called but thanks” she hugged me even tighter
“I want to tell her but she really doesn’t want to see me get hurt.” I took a tissue that Jess had left for me and blew my nose with it
“should I tell her?” Lisa asked “ If it’s too hard for you”
“Nah, I’m good. I think I can handle this” I smiled again
“What about your family?” Lisa finally touched the subject that I wasn’t ready to talk about. Fresh tears came to my eyes. My family was strict and they really would not accept this. They once cut all ties with my paternal aunt for giving birth to a child that wasn’t her husbands.
“I’m sorry” Lisa pulled me in closer and hugged me tighter knowing she had touched a sensitive topic. “What did Brad say?” she said carefully knowing it was another sensitive topic
“He said he wasn’t the father” I cried louder again this time grasping my chest trying to breathe. The pain I had tried so hard to push behind me and get over with, felt like fresh wound again. It was a really horrible feeling
“My God! ” Lisa still held on to me
“He met me a virgin and he knows he’s the only person I’ve had s****l i*********e with. He told me he'd never leave me. I can't believe I trusted him. I believed in him so much and he let me down this way. He said a lot of sweet words to me. He promised me so many things. I can't believe I foolishly believed him”. I tried desperately to stop feeling pain by hitting my chest continuously. But it felt like somebody was using knife to open the fresh wound.
“Its okay.” Lisa continued to comfort me still rubbing my back. “ We’ll figure this out…..together” she whispered in my ear
I could only nod as I wasn’t able to talk. Just then, the door flung open and Jess walked in. She looked up to see me red eyed, all teary and all sweaty.
She walked over to me quickly, dropped the ice cream she had bought on the table close to her and asked with a serious tone “what’s really going on?.”
She sat close to me again and looked at me with a very serious expression. I looked up at her,
“I’m pregnant”. I said quietly and slowly as if I myself did not believe what I was saying.
“Oh no” she said in disbelief “Why?” she asked me quietly with a soft voice
“You didn’t use protection?” She asked again. She was trying to wrap her head around what she was just told.
“well, the egg has already been broken, you can’t glue it back together but you can use it to make a meal or dish” Jess said in soft whisper it was almost hard to hear ."My mother used to tell me these words whenever I had done something that I'll regret dearly".
"I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be asking you these questions. The only question I should ask now is what’s going to happen ?” she still looked confused
“I…..I….. I don’t know” I sniffed “Brad says it’s not his, my family can never accept pregnancy that’s not within the confines of a marriage. I just don’t know what to do. I’m really confused” my tiny voice squeaked out.
“Shush, we’ll figure it out. For now, you need to sleep” Lisa concluded
She laid Hannah back on the bed, used a wet wipe to clean her nose and took another one to wipe her sweaty forehead. She covered her and tucked her in.
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