She Thought

Chapter 16

“Nath sasama kaba ngayun?” tanong ko sa kanya kasi bumisita talaga sila dito sa bahay namin.

“Oo pero kailan tayo uuwi?” tanong niya agad kahit papunta palang kami doon gusto nang umuwi.

“Ewan ko kasi kailangan ko pa kunin ang card ko at ibang requirements para mag-transfer sa ibang school.” I said.

I just prepare some things as usual and I am still thinking if I will visit Dad because I don’t know if I can really face him. Nath and I was so silent here in the car because we’re both busy in our phone.

“Zia! Buti naman pumunta ka talaga!” bati ni Axe pagkarating namin.

“Wow Lee! You look different now, I think you lose some weight?” Nath said.

“Wala no!” mabilis niyang deny.

“Tara na nga sa kanila Ella.” I said pero pinapasok muna kami ni Axe kasi magbibihis muna siya.

Axe is like a princess because he took so many time just to change a shirt. Nakapabebe talaga. Wala na akong magawa kasi antagal talaga niya makapagpalit that’s why I entered his room and I was shocked because I saw him that he was applying a liplint.

“Axe? What are you doing?” I asked suddenly then I laughed.

“Bhie sorry, ngayon ko lang din nalaman na ganito pala talaga ako.” Axell explained and he was shaking and he’s nearly want to cry.

“Omygosh Axell HAHAHAH, ba’t ka naman mag-sosorry? At bakit ka umiiyak?” I really laughed at him kasi yung mukha niya parang gulat na gulat.

“Hindi ka man lang magalit? Hindi ka man lang magulat? Hindi ka ba magtataka? Girl! Ganito ako oh! Bakla ako! ” He asked while his was very confused.

“Bakla ka! Then? Kailangan ko bang magalit sayo? And let me ask this ba’t ka sumali sa varsity?” tanong ko.

“Hindi ko pa naman alam yon na bakla ako doon. Nalaman ko lang nung nagtravel tayo.” sagot niya.

“Well how? Dahil ba kay Nath?” I asked.

“Oo pero hindi ko siya type! Ito kasing si Ella dikit ng dikit sa akin tapos nalaman ko na wala man lang akong nararamdaman pero yung may gwapo sa mall, tumitibok puso ko.” he explained.

“Talaga ba? Nakakatawa ka bakla! Well it’s good to know na nalaman ko na, you don’t need to say that I have to be mad at you, I should respect your decisions and things that you want. Life is short honey, let’s enjoy it and do the things we want. Happy for you bff! Hindi pala kita boybestfriend. Don’t mind other people about how they treat you, they are not worth it to be mind. I will support you and will love you! Did Tito Hans knows about it?” I said and asked.

“Hindi pa, ayaw ko munang sabihin baka kasi mag-sagutan pa kami ni Papa. Tara na nga napakatagal na natin dito.” He said.

I went out to his room and hurriedly went to Nath who’s bored na and apologize to him because it really took us a lot of time and Ella call me pala 5 times na but I was just laughing.

“It is really funny?” Nath asked.

“Well if I will tell you about it, you would be shocked.” I said.

“What is it?” he said.

“Mamaya na!” I answered.

Axe finally get out of his room and we went to the car papunta kila Ella. Nath is mad na because he was curious and bored while me and Axe were just looking at each other and laughing.

“May plano ba talaga kayo pumunta dito?” Reniella scolded us.

“Uhm, yes! But the anger you felt right now will turn into ashes if you will know!” I said while laughing.

“Ano? Napakaselfish naman!” she said.

“Axe! Sige gors na!?” I said but Axe is so nervous. “Ladies and Gentleman, I would like to welcome Leehan Axell C. Galsedo! The one and only prince that turn into princess!” I announced that made Ella laugh and Nath.

“Ba’t kayo tumatawa?” Axe asked.

“Bakit? Kasalanan bang tumawa? Alam mo kasi Axe, alam na namin ni Nath noh! Hay nako! Nung nilalapitan kita nandiri ka tapos yung may nakita tayo na gwapo natunganga ka! Hinihintay ka lang namin.” sabi ni Ella kaya nagtataka ako.

“Wow! So alam niyo pala? Bakit hindi niyo ako sinabihan? Napaka selfish niyo talaga!” reklamo ko.

“Sorry Zia pero si Axe yung hinihintay namin.” Ella said.

“Sanay na ako guys! Bahala kayo!” I complained.

We just watched some movies here because we don’t have anything to do here. We didn’t know that Nath is a kind of sleepyhead because he suddenly dozes off while watching movie. I suddenly got hungry so I decided to go out but Axe wanted to go with me. We’re here at the barbecue place near in the house of Ella.

“Ano sayo Axe?” tanong ko sa kanya kasi minsan lang ako manlibre.

“Kahit ano lang Zia.” sagot niya kaya dinamihan ko na din dahil alam kong baboy talaga kaming dalawa.

“Alam mo Zia, napakaswerte ko pa din pala noh?” he suddenly said kahit serious pa kami kumakain dito.

“Buti naman na realize mo! Pero Axe bakit?” tanong ko.

“Kasi…. may kaibigan padin ako na gaya niyo. Sa iba pa diyan, mandidiri na at manghuhusga pero sobrang thank you kasi tinanggap niyo pa din ako. Hindi ko man nasabi ng maaga kasi natatakot ako pero salamat kasi kayo ang naging kaibigan ko.” sagot niya.

“Hey! Does it really required to judge someone? Does it required to tell people how to behave to become a human? Hindi naman diba? So why are you thanking us? You should thank your self because you really do what you want. No matter what people say, just be you. Nath said that we should not expect anything to be perfect but we should know that in everything there are breakthrough and breakdowns and always remember that every cloud has a silver lining. Always remember Axe that we will support you in all ways because you’ve been always supporting and helping us.” I said.

“Wala man lang talagang araw na magalit ka? Zia! Bakit napakabait mo?” he said.

“Why? Am I too kind? Alam niyo hindi ko talaga kayo maintindihan! Kayo na nga yung sinusuportahan tapos kayo pa ang magagalit. Sa totoo bhie, ano ba talaga?” reklamo ko.

I’m happy for Axe that he unveiled his facade that he was a gay. Why people think that all people would judge them. Did they really think na there will be no people who will help them? Ganito ba talaga ka harsh ang mundo? That people would hide their dreams because they think people would judge them. What about those people who wants to help and support them? Does it make us feel less human? But at some point, I’ve also felt it. I am nervous to face my friends because what if they will judge me too? I thought that I was different but I wasn’t pala. I am still a weakling who’s afraid because what if I will not meet those expectations of mine? How many times would people remind me that there’s not perfect and not everyone can’t meet their mere expectations? How would I go on?