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Hi, my name is Thea Brightson ...And no my name is not short for anything it just Thea , I know I also wanted to know what it meant too as I was growing up and all mom told me was that I was a Goddess and should start embracing that ...only to find that the name is a name of a Goddess later on once I was grown enough to go through Mr Google and kindly ask what my name meant and I swore that man knew everything, things that I didn't even have worry about.
I just woke up to my noisey alarm and as I look at it again I see the time being 7am which means I need to wake up and start to prepare for the little ones to school before they get late and I need to try and find a way to get a job for myself or else me and my little siblings will probably stave to death or lose the house and we all get to be really homeless or be put to foster care at some point , they'd live me cause am already above 18 which declares me to be an adult and possible no one could ever adopt me but they might adopt my other youngest siblings cause they are adoptable age Kiara is only 4 years old almost 5, Jake and Julia are both 7 years old , and then there's James who's 13 and Liam who's 9 months younger then me almost the same age as me cause we were born in the same year , I was in January and he was in December .
no matter how hard life gets we always tell ourselves we are the Brightson and we are capable of getting through and over anything in life cause like I said we are the Brightson and the Brightson always get stronger and better.
we came up with that after 3 months of crying the little ones missing mommy and having to be the strong one out of me and Liam who spent most of his time drunk his ass off cause he couldn't handle the loss and like he always says everyone grief is different ,I just wish his didn't involve alcohol and naked ladies to traumatize my little brothers... although he has changed and there's a small difference now to him I still like to watch over him over now and then like a little brother, he hates that but he's my little brother and when he's not drunk I love keeping him around cause he spends most of his time with us and we all eat dinner together as a family and he laughs with the kids more often ,feed Kiara and do train noises with him, he's becoming my brother now, the one I knew before our parents died ,he even reads them stories kiss them Good night James told me a couple of days ago and I found it so cute that he even does those little love gestures that mean so much to the kids.
I wake up and drag myself from the bed to take a shower firstly before we run out of the hot water, which has been giving us trouble for a while now, today it hot water and tomorrow it could be ice cold water ,in this house you are never sure,Liam still has no idea how to fix it,he keeps saying he will look into it but I know my brother he's scared to mess it up more... in this house hold you lucky if you get the hot water and we can't even fix it cause dad used to fix it when he was still alive and now he's not alive.
about 6 months ago my siblings and I lost both our parents in a plane crash that was flying from Huwaii after spending 2 weeks loving each other with out a doubt from their anniversary holiday, it was the hardest time of my life especially since am the oldest ,all the kids look up to me they are waiting to see what happens now , they waiting for the eldest, I had to quit law school and I've been looking for a job ever since , for a while we've been living out of dad and moms money that they left for us to use if ever they were to be met with an unfortunate situation like they did , And we had to save most of it for the children to be able to use when they go to college after high school , the only person who has been giving me trouble is Liam ,he refuses to be younger then me , he's stubborn like Dad and I always smile at his stubborn nature cause it just reminds me of dad and somehow we all have a live of them in all of us.
I enter the shower and look at the mirror as hazel eyes just stare back at me ,I must say out of the children am just the one child that managed to snatch half mom and half dad and blended them together so well that when I was with both mom and dad it was hard to tell who I looked like the most cause like I said I mixed them so well you could never tell.
I look like a mess my hair is everywhere it looks like I've been electrified ,scary cause this is the look I always wake up with, I always wonder how do the other girls do it , wake up and look like they just come out of a magazine cause I can't even pull off a small flawless look not even once and definitely not with this hair. I wash my face and brush my mouth that smells like a whole sewage busted in there and turn on the water as I wait for the hot water to turn up as soon as it does I take my clothes off in record time and bath in record time again cause I wanna save hot water for everyone ,cause am the eldest and the responsible one in this house hold , as soon as am out of the shower I open the door and about to go to my room when I bump to Liam looking like he just wake up from a damn magazine , I must say he looks like a model and he could pass as one ,cause my brother is as handsome as they come, one thing am sure of is that.. And one thing am jealous of when it comes to him .
" Morning Thea " he says in his deep voice which I think shouldn't be like that ,he's growing up too fast and he should wait a little , cause somehow now it seems like he's older then me yet am the oldest .
"Hey Liam ,why wake up this early? " well that no surprise question , most days I have to drag Liam out of bed to go have breakfast with us ,And today he woke up two hours earlier then to be dragged out.
" why ,am I not allowed to wake up early in my own home? " he says as he just stares at me with those hazel eyes that we all seemed to inherit from dad accept Kiara and James they have moms grey eyes ,which is a relief cause atleast we have too much of Dad in all of us we need a little bit of mom in some of us.
" no not really ,just curious ,do you have a date? " I shoot another question,as I lift my eyebrows two times in a wicked way that he sure can understand he just smiles and shows off those Dimples that only me and him seem to have inherited from dad again.
"honestly no, if you must know I thought you were still asleep and I just wanted to be the first to wake up today and help with the chores and kids just to give you a rest for today after all you have been taking care of us for the past 7 months without complaining so, I thought you deserved a break for today and maybe other days if I can wake up again " he says and I feel myself tear up , my brother sees my work and appreciated it atleast , now that doesn't happen everyday and if I am to be honest Liam is hard to deal with mostly and to hear him say this means so much to me I don't even know if there's anyone who can understand that .I just hug him and he taps my back awkwardly.
" okay that enough love move " he says and I move and look at him with eyes filled with tears
" why you crying, you crying cause am helping or cause you don't want to be helped? AM confused " he says looking at me like the answer he'll be able to see
"no dummy am crying cause I didn't think something like this could happen, like you worried about me, you always poking me so it strange that you'd worry , it shows you truly my brother and that you truly love me no matter how much you say you don't " and to be frankly he always pokes me.
"okay whatever so you okay with being helped? cause we all know you not super woman you need help here and there and am just trying to be a good brother"he says with a smirk I smile at that.
" I know I've been a lot of work lately and am hoping that I could make up to you and the kids and be a good example to the boys like you are to the girls. " he says and am shocked cause he's never been like that... if you know Liam you'd know that he's caring and loving but he's not the sentimental type of guy he just likes to keep it to himself.
" isn't that the sweetest thing you've ever said to me thank you "
" whatever just don't get used to it, am never gonna say it again. " he says and I smile seeing that my old brother is back again
"yeah ,just wake the kids up and they should all shower I'll pick their clothes out and go down stairs to start preparing breakfast so that we'll all eat without having to go drag anyone from their room " I smile at him
"oooh wow now that really nice, remind me next time to not help you, I should let you collapse and die whiles I snore"
"and you do snore , finally you admit that"
"okay I didn't mean it like that Thea "
"ooh really how did you mean it out to be like then" I fold my hands and wait for him to answer and he just looks at me and goes into the bathroom with out saying a word ...And I dance internally cause I won.. And with Liam I rarely win anything even the small sibling fights.
I head straight to my room and dress in my jean pants and my Smurf t shirt that mom bought for me before she left... as soon as am done dressing up I try to fix my hair and put it up to a neat bunny which by the way isn't successful and I end up with a mess bun which am okay with either way cause atleast I got to do a bun at the end. I head downstairs to make breakfast , And as I prepare breakfast I can hear Kiara crying ,she always does this in the morning she's very grumpy and is never in the mood so to get her way she cries ,am sure Liam will skip her for as long as he still volunteers with the kids he'll want to skip her ,someday I want to skip her too but I can't cause if I do the little ones won't be able to deal with her and that unfair on the kids.
as soon as I finish setting the plates and place the toasts and sausages along with the juices in their respective cups James runs in and gives me a hug which I think is sweet cause the kids love that...mom did a great job raising these kids cause all they know is love and love and more love am proud of them all for being so loving and always the perfect little cheer ups.
" hey James " I say as we let go and carry on fixing the table for breakfast .
" morning Sis, why did you let Liam wash the kids he doesn't know how to wash them the right way , he made a mess in the bathroom and he's more wet then the kids in that bathroom , and Kiara had all of her toys in the water even the Teddy dad brought him , that thing takes forever to dry " I smile
" well he asked to help, and you know Liam is good at playing and reading with the kids and wash the dishes, and maybe tidy up but he's not good with bathing the kids , he seemed eager to do it I didn't wanna be the one to tell him no "
"well good for you cause now you'll have a bathroom to clean once he's done "
"once who is done? " walks in Liam with Kiara in his hips wearing gray joggers which I suppose he changed into and a vest and his hair looks wet
" once you finish bathing the kids " I say
" what were you two talking about? "he asks
"you obviously ,the entire bathroom you can't walk into cause it way too filthy and am asking Thea here why he allowed you to do this type of chore cause you even had Teddy in the water " says James as he starts to look more like Dad the any of us, James is Dad with everything ,the walk, the voice, the eyes, the wisdom, which doesn't come as a surprise cause he spent most of his time with Dad talking about Africa and trying to drain knowledge from the old guy .
" I'll clean it up " he says as he hands over Kiara to me who already has her hands streghted out for me to take her
" and what was I suppose to do with Kiara, if she didn't get the Teddy she was gonna cry the entire bath session and I don't need a headache this early in the morning " he explains as he sits down in the table ...I smile and take Kiara to her seat and strap her up so she doesn't fall down...I start to dish for everyone and that when the rest of the Brightson walks in Jake in his khaki pants and top , and then Julia with her Barbie ponytail and her pink dress , we all exchange morning hugs and kisses then Liam prays and we start to dig in and eat as we talk about what we'll do today .
" I got offered a job today " Says Liam out of nowhere whiles we eat and everyone stops and looks at him even Kiara stops which is funny cause am not even sure she fully understands what her older brother just said
" where? "
" THE DEVELS LAIR " he says whiles he cuts his toast and eats like he didn't give us the shock of our lives ...more me then anyone else , THE DEVELS LAIR is the one club we always warned to stay always from no matter what cause this club is full of these that are unexplainable , especially during midnight, some disappear and some just stop being normal once you stay in that club till midnight you can never be able to return normal or return at all that is if... And now my brother wants to go work there .
" ooh that great that means you can buy us more chips and we'll eat pizza every Friday now " says Jake jumping from his chair to hug his older brother
" yes little man that means Pizza every Friday night for us now , maybe we'll even go out more " he says as he raffles his hair and looks at me.. I say nothing .
"let all finish eating so I'll take you all to school "
"I was hoping to take them to school,like I said I want you to rest and maybe go see Mrs Lucky I'll take care of the kids, I'll go to work later today " Says Liam
" you not gonna read me a story today ?" asks Kiara in her baby voice
" am sorry Princess but I can't tonight , it my first day and I have to work in order to buy you another Teddy " he says and I know that Just bribery to keep Kiara from crying her eyes out
" but who's gonna do the monster voice for me ,Thea can't she's got a voice of a girl "
" well James will do it for you I'll teach him a few tricks on how to do it properly"
he says as he looks at James who just continues to eat like he didn't even hear them speak , sometimes James scared me, he seems so much of a gentleman it scares me cause I don't wanna think my brother is gay even if it for one second... not that I have anything against gay people , I just don't think he'll be able to handle the hate that comes with being gay, I know I'd love him non the less but I want him to be comfortable with being himself and with how the world is and in this small town word travels fast and we don't need more difficulties to deal with especially now that Liam is going ahead and taking jobs from clubs that are dangerous, I squeeze my eyes shut and wonder how did mom deal with all of us...I zone all of them out and wish mom was here,we just lost both our parents and this is not gonna end well for all of us... I feel a tap in my shoulder and I open my eyes to look and everyone's eyes are on me.
" Thea why you crying " that when I feel the tears in my cheeks and I wipe them quickly
" am not am just tired Baby "
" is it because of me? " asks Jake I look up to him
" why would it be your fault Jake? "
"I don't know maybe cause I said I want to eat Pizza every Friday... maybe now you think I don't want your food ,I like your food it tastes nice I promise " he says
" no that not it...I promise " I try to re assure him
" then was it me? " says Kiara
" what? " I ask as I stand up and go to hold Kiara in a tight hug.
" I said I don't want Liam to go and work, I didn't mean it I know we need the money and James can read to me the story so don't mind, I promise I'll be thankful " she says as she cries and I hold her tight .
"no baby am not mad about that, these are tears of joy , Liam will finally work and am happy "
" Really? " Kiara asks as she let's me go and I wipe her tears and kiss her .
" James can you take them upstairs to brush their teeth and prepare for school, I'll come get all of you and take you to school right now and if you all hurry I'll buy all of you milkshakes... " says Liam with am smile .
" I don't like milkshake " interrupts Kiara
" well what do you want your highness? " asks Liam with a smile through his voice
" I want chocolate and Ice cream " she says as she jumps down and goes to hug Liam who's goes down in his knee and hugs her and I stand to clean the table...
" okay I'll get you one as soon as you done and we leave " he says as they unhug and she runs upstairs and the others follow suit
" Thea talk to me " says Liam and I take the dishes to the sink , repeatedly .
" just say something, curse, shout, anything, you always shout and tell me off , it scary you not saying anything right now. " I keep taking the dishes silence and putting them in the sink and when I open the tap he closes it .
" Liam ,I wanna wash the dishes atleast allow me to do that " I say as I open and he closes it
" no not until you talk to me , Thea we need the money and they offering to pay me so much money it'd help is a lot around here , you wouldn't have to worry about finding work and saving up enough cause we'll not touch the inheritance we'll just open a fund bank for the little ones to use in College , why don't you understand that am trying to help !! " he shouts
" how is this helping us exactly " I look at him
" you are putting your life at life risk for what for money, people who go to that club either don't return or they don't return normal is that what you want "
" Thea that not about that,I wanna keep my promise to mom and dad of taking care of us all"
"then you doing a lousy job at it "
"but am trying ,why isn't that enough, all you ever did the past months is tell me to be useful and do something and not be dead weight , and now that am trying to do exactly that you..."
" I DIDN'T SAY GO GET YOURSELF KILLED " I shout at the top of my lungs and he just looks at me and say nothing
" we just lost mom and dad, not even a year had ended and you want us to have to bury you too, you could work anywhere ,any place but that club but you chose it, and you want me to be happy you not dead weight anymore,well am not, you still dead weight and for as long as you work there that all you'll be , cause you'll just make us worry about you if you'd return today or not ,And that not what neither me or the little ones need, you said you want the boys to have a role model am sure they didn't mean a brother who just goes ahead and sells his soul for free" I say without breathing and Liam just stares at me
"Liam we need you, the kids need you, I need you , you are my brother and I can't do any of this without you, I need you to help me out with the boys they growing too fast,I also need someone who's gonna scare boys away from Julia "
" the last thing we need is another Brightson dead ,we need you alive and kicking we need to know that no matter what you here and you'll always be , and if you can't understand I can't make you understand " I say as I kiss his cheek and head to my room to change and go at The Lucky's... and as I turn I see Kiara in James hip, with Jake and Julia holding hands looking at us like they heard everything which am sure they probably heard.