The Acceptance

Lively and heart clutching memories

Aniz Serkhan Shah pov

Ring.Ring.Ring.Ring.Ring.Ring.

I felt like my head would be exploding soon with all the notification I was getting through all the media. Why do The Cobra's want me?What do these guys have to do with my Baba?What do they have to do with me?They just ended a war 2 months ago!!!What do they want from me?

Knock.Knock.

I opened the door.Wondering who was at the door,I saw my baba."Baba!"I cried while hugging him tightly."Aniz!What did you?"He said and pushed me away.

I have never hugged him before in my entire life.He and I have never spoke before.This was my first time hugging him.And there I was again.Broken again because of what he said for the first time after my ammi left me alone with my abusive baba.He might have not touched me and abused me phisically...yet I was there,being abused by his words towards me.Behind my back or to my face, I was broken again.The pieces I sticked together being torn apart again.

Since my life started,I only felt pain.

Flashback...

I was in my ammi's room.She didn't wake up.It was very weird to see my ammi like this.I tried waking her up,but she wouldn't even take a glance at me."Ammi!Ammi!AMMI!Ammi, wake up ammi!Wake up!"I screamed but still she wouldn't open her eyes.I felt upset.

My baba already didn't like me. Now Ammi won't wake up.The aunty who helps us in the house came in to the room after knocking my ammi's room door twice."Aniz.Why are you crying darling?"I heard her soft voice saying to me."Ammi won't wake up."I explained while pointing towards her.The aunty went to my tammi and called for her.Nevertheless, Ammi won't say anything.

"Aniz, would you go out for a moment?"She asked.I saw her eyes being filled with water.I said OK and left immediately.She closed the room door immediately.Out of the blue someone started shouting very loudly indeed.I was very frightened and started to get worried.

"Aunty!Aunty!Aunty open the door!"I screamed while hitting the door as hard as I could-but she wouldn't open the door.

Hours passed.I sat on the floor outside the door, my back lying on the door.My dad came in with a bottle.I didn't know what was in it-but it looked familiar to the bottle they show in movies.My dad strike me with his leg to the side.I winced a little."Shut up!"he said and broke the door.He broke the bottle in his hands.

The glass table was broken with his hand, making his knuckles bleed.I was shocked to see my Baba like that.My eyes were wide and then I ran into the room and squeezed my Ammi with my tiny hands.I started sobbing as hard as I could.Baba pulled me away from Ammi and threw me towards the glass mirrored wardrobe casing my head to hit on it and bleed heavily.

"WHAT IS WRONG?YOU!IT IS YOU ANIZ!DO YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE?!YO ARE THE ONLY WRONG THAT HAPPENED TO MY HAPPY LIFE WITH YOUR DEAD AMMI!EVERYTHING BEACME WRONG AFTER YOU CAME TO OUR LIFE!IT WAS ALWAY YOU!YOU ARE THE REASON WHY WE GOT INTO SO MUCH FIGHT!WHY THE F**K WERE YOU BORN TO US.YOU ARE HE MAIN REASON SHE GOT SICK SOO MUCH.YOU ARE THE REASON WHY SHE WAS DISTINGUISHED WITH BONE CANCER!YOU ARE THE REASON EVERY FIGHT BETWEEN US HAPPENED!EVEN NOW!EVEN NOW YOU ARE THE REASON SHE DIED!WHY DID YOU EVEN COME INTO OUR LIFE?!YOU!iF IT WASN'T FOR YOU NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED!MAYBE IF YOU DIDN'T COME INTO OUR LIFE,NOTHING WOULD HAVE HAPPENED!EVERYTHING ONLY HAPPENED ONLY BECAUSE OF YOU!IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR MOTHER,YOU WOULD HAVE DIED IN HER WOMB ALREADY!I WISH I NEVER LISTENED TO YOUR MOTHER AND ABORTED YOU RIGHT AWAY!"he sighed after saying everything.

While he yelled all those words to me,I only watched him.No tears were formed in my eyes as well. He shrugged and started to mumble something in his mouth, then said softly, "You know what? You didn't die on that day,perhaps now you will die," in a very cynical way.He took the glass bottle he broke and made his moves towards me.I didn't know what to do.I just stood still.My heart started to make leaps that I started to sweat very hardly."YOU SHALL DIE NOW THEN!" he yelled but I started running to escape from him.

I ran outside the house towards the woods that had dead trees.I kept running and never stopped, just to be far away from him, as far as I could so that I wouldn't be under his cruelness.I stopped when I knew that Baba wasn't behind me chasing.I had hard time breathing for I have never ran like that before.

Days passed and I was as hungry as wolf, for I hadn't eaten or drank anything for days.I stooped at my house after long long walks in the random directions I took.My heart started racing again at the thought of entering the same house my Ammi died.The same house my Baba tried to kill me.The same place where every lively and heart clutching memories took place.

Baba's acidulous words kept buzzing in my ears causing me to shut both my ears as hard as I could.'WHAT IS WRONG?YOU!IT IS YOU ANIZ!DO YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE?!YO ARE THE ONLY WRONG THAT HAPPENED TO MY HAPPY LIFE WITH YOUR DEAD AMMI!EVERYTHING BEACME WRONG AFTER YOU CAME TO OUR LIFE!IT WAS ALWAY YOU!YOU ARE THE REASON WHY WE GOT INTO SO MUCH FIGHT!WHY THE F**K WERE YOU BORN TO US.YOU ARE HE MAIN REASON SHE GOT SICK SOO MUCH.YOU ARE THE REASON WHY SHE WAS DISTINGUISHED WITH BONE CANCER!YOU ARE THE REASON EVERY FIGHT BETWEEN US HAPPENED!EVEN NOW!EVEN NOW YOU ARE THE REASON SHE DIED!WHY DID YOU EVEN COME INTO OUR LIFE?!YOU!iF IT WASN'T FOR YOU NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED!MAYBE IF YOU DIDN'T COME INTO OUR LIFE,NOTHING WOULD HAVE HAPPENED!EVERYTHING ONLY HAPPENED ONLY BECAUSE OF YOU!IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR MOTHER,YOU WOULD HAVE DIED IN HER WOMB ALREADY!I WISH I NEVER LISTENED TO YOUR MOTHER AND ABORTED YOU RIGHT AWAY!'Each and every word was being yelled loudly in my ears.

"ANIZ!" the aunty who helps us around the house's loud voice knocked me into my senses."Where have you been my darling?Huh?Look at you!Come on in!Let us take a bath.Yes?"She said so much,but I kept being silent and just noded to whatever she said.

End of flashback...

Tears flowed down my eyes, recalling every lively and heart-clutching memory I had in my life.