Desired By My Boss

Chapter Four- Birthday and Struggling

Wendy

I turned into Jayson’s embrace. He started to hold me each night since I started my period. He was so calm and gentle with me even though at times I was being quite b*tchy. I couldn’t help it. A lot of things irritate me even in the smallest measure when I’m going through my period. I know I snapped at him many times and I felt so guilty.

I looked into his sleeping face. He is so handsome. I reached out to touch his lips. I don’t know why, but I like touching his lips. He didn’t move. I leaned into him more and brought my lips to his. I just wanted to kiss him. I want to feel his lips against mine. I pressed my lips to his and kissed him lightly.

He groaned softly and I froze. His hand tightened on my back, and I saw his baby blue eyes peering down at me. He smiled at me. “Happy Birthday.” He rasped out and smiled. I blushed and tried to put some distance between us. He wouldn’t let me wiggle away. He stared at me before he looked at my lips and how close our mouths were.

He crossed the incredibly short distance, and his mouth was on mine. I felt like a jolt of electricity shot through my body. I gripped him to push him away, but I pulled him closer. He nipped my lips, and I opened them. He dipped his tongue inside. I ground against him. I could feel how hard he was against my belly.

His hand wandered to the hem of my tank top. He slid his hand under it and raised his hand until he could cup my bre*.st. He grazed my nip*.le, making it even harder than it already was. I gasped into his mouth. I felt him smile. He adjusted me fast and my tank top was off my body and his mouth was feasting on my bre*.sts. I moaned and held his head close. His other hand dipped below the hem of my shorts and underwear.

He ran his fingers along my swollen lips before pushing a finger inside. I gasped and arched. He quickly added a second finger. I rocked against his hand. His d*ck ground into my hip in the rhythm his fingers thrust into my body. He curled his fingers and brushed my g-spot. My back bowed off the bed. He worked me fast and I could feel my orgasm approaching. I pushed at his hand to push it deeper into my body.

He chuckled against my bre*.st. “Are you going to c*m?” He rasped. “Yes.” I panted. “Do it. C*m on my fingers.” He used his thumb to play with my cl*t and I fell over the edge of the precipice I was teetering on. I screamed out as I came on his fingers like he asked.

He pulled his fingers out and licked each one clean. “Mmm, you taste good.” I was flushed with the aftermath of my release, but I felt it on my hip. I could feel the wetness. He came with me. Jayson kissed my lips again. “I’ll start you a bath and get breakfast going.” He said as he got up and left me in his bed. I was trying hard to catch my breath. What did I just let him do? We want him to do it again. My body replied.

I had to agree with my body, but I’m not ready. I don’t want Jayson to think I’m just using him as a rebound, even though the circumstances of why my last relationship ended are drastically different from just breaking up. Some shame overcame me. I feel like I just cheated on Taylor, enjoying what Jayson did. I didn’t feel this way after we had s*x, but I was wallowing too much and just needed the distraction. Now it seemed different, and I feel like it’s too soon.

We have needs. How long are you going to make us wait? I know body, but I keep expecting Taylor to come home when his deployment is done. I’m sorry. I can’t do this to Taylor. Tears fell down my face and I wiped them away. One thing is for sure, I need to sleep back on the couch, nightmares or not. I can’t be tempted to kiss Jayson. I can’t allow him to kiss me. It is not fair to him and he’s my boss. I need to remember that.

I walked down the street. I had no real destination in mind. I took my bath and ate breakfast. Jayson told me I wasn’t allowed to work today. I wanted to refuse, but I relented and decided to go for a walk to help clear my head. I told Kya I would have dinner with her and mom. She’s going to pick me up at six.

I walked aimlessly for a while before heading back to Jayson’s. I was watching the sidewalk as I walked when suddenly I was shoved back by paws. I looked down at the beautiful German Sheppard who was wagging his tail and licking my hands. I saw Prince. I crouched down and hugged him. He nuzzled the side of my head and licked as I sobbed on him.

“Charlie. Charlie. Oh, sorry did he bother you?” I snapped out of my stupor, and I realized I wasn’t holding Prince. “I’m so very sorry.” I apologized to the brunette woman holding this dog’s leash. I stood to continue on my way. She rested her hand gently on my arm. “Are you okay?” I nodded, fighting back a sob.

“I’m sorry. It’s just your dog reminded me of my boyfriend’s dog, Prince.” “Broke up?” I shook my head. “My boyfriend was K9 security forces for Peterson and he was killed in an ambush last month. Prince tried to save him and barely survived. Again. I’m sorry.”

She leaned into me and wrapped her arms around me. I couldn’t hold back the sobs. “I’m so sorry for your loss honey.” She cooed and patted my back. “Wendy?” I opened my eyes to see Jayson running up to us through my tears. “What happened?” He asked as he pulled me into his arms. “Prince.” I said softly and gestured to the dog. “Oh god. Come inside.” “Come Charlie.” The lady said.

I felt my hand nuzzled and licked. I petted Charlie and crouched to give him a hug and scratch his head. “Thank you.” I whispered to Charlie. Jayson took my hand and walked me back to his house and inside. I took my shoes off and slid down the wall holding my legs to me as I sobbed. Jayson sat next to me and put his arms around me, pulling my head onto his shoulder. He let me cry.

If I wasn’t feeling guilty from this morning, I got my answer just now. Taylor is not happy with me. He knows I cheated on him. I’m a horrible person. I pushed away from Jayson and got up. I went into the bathroom to clean my face up. Crying over my shame won’t help me. I washed my face before going back out into the living room. I sat as far away from Jayson as I could get. I picked up some files and began reading.

“I told you not to work today.” “Yeah, well, I didn’t want to cry on my birthday but that didn’t happen. I guess we both get to be disappointed.” I retorted. I cringed internally after I said it. I feel like I slapped Jayson. He doesn’t deserve this, but I can’t stop how I’m feeling.

Jayson didn’t say anything even when I got ready for dinner. I guess I am grateful he let me be. I wore my black dress Kya wore when she saw Jeremy again. I guess it suited me as I’m in mourning. Jayson wished me a good time when Kya arrived.

We met mom at the restaurant. I ordered dinner, but I barely ate. I was just glad they didn’t sing happy birthday to me. I don’t know how Kya talked me into going out to a different club. I was shocked to see everyone there in the VIP to celebrate my birthday.

I had many pineapple tropical type of drinks. Scott was drinking almost as much as me. I danced with Jeremy and Jordan. Jayson eyed me but I couldn’t dance with him. He danced with Alaina, Kya, and Stephanie anyway.

I reached for another pineapple drink. “Haven’t you had enough?” Jayson asked. “No. Mind your business. You’re not the boss of me.” I broke out laughing hard. “Well, you are, but not of my personal life. If I want to drink until I pass out, that is what I’m going to do.” I raised my glass to my lips, and it was snatched away.

“Jayson is right, you’ve had enough sis.” I stared at Kya. I glowered. “Give me my drink.” I demanded. “No.” “You can’t boss me around. I’m a grown woman.” “Wendy, please we are just looking out for you.” I scoffed at Kya. “You know what fine.” I sat in one of the chairs and Kya handed me a water. I glared at her when I took the water and drank it.

I was being carried over someone’s shoulder. I looked down carefully and I stared at a perfect *ss. I wanted to touch it. I squirmed to reach for it. I caressed it and squeezed it. “Wendy, what are you doing?” Jayson lifted me over his shoulder and set me on his bed. “You have a perfect *ss. I wanted to touch it.” He tried to hide a grin.

“It’s time to get some sleep.” “Okay,” I said. I stood and lifted the hem of my dress. Jayson had gone into his closet. I was hot all of a sudden, I needed to be naked. I awkwardly pushed my black lacy thong off. I removed my matching strapless bra and tossed it on the floor. “I know your birthday is technically over--.” Jayson lifted his eyes from the purple bag in his hands. His mouth dropped open. He is so cute.

“You got me a present?” I squealed with delight. He held the bag out to me, looking to the side of the room. I turned to set the bag on the bed. I pulled the tissue paper off the top and tossed it over my shoulder. I reached in and pulled out a stuffed pineapple with sunglasses. I squealed again.

I hugged it to me. I turned and beamed a smile at Jayson. “I love it,” I said as I jumped at him. He caught me and I used the moment to climb him. “Thank you.” I leaned in and kissed him. He wasn’t kissing me back. I leaned back from his lips. “Is something wrong?”

Jayson cleared his throat. “Uh, you’re naked.” I leaned further back to look down at myself. “Yep.” I confirmed. He licked his lips and I wanted to trace his lips where his tongue just left a path of wetness. I leaned in to lick his lips. He leaned his head back. I realized he wasn’t holding me, and he was looking away. I glanced back down at myself. “Oh,” I said. I got off him.

I grabbed my bag of clothes and made my way into the bathroom quickly. I moved too quickly, and I lunged for the toilet. I emptied my belly. I cleaned myself up and drank some more water from the tap. I raided Jayson’s ibuprofen.

Jayson was laying on his side with the covers over him. I took the stuffed pineapple and the pillow from the side of the bed. I made my way quietly into the living room. I laid down and pulled the throw blanket on the back of the couch over me as I held my pineapple to me. I was a fool. I acted like a fool. I lay there and sobbed quietly.

I opened my eyes to the sunlight on my face. I was in his bed. F*ck, f*ck, f*ck. I cursed him. This is the third time I woke up in his bed since last night. I would wake up and go back into the living room and I guess he would come and collect me. I don’t belong to him. He made it clear he was disgusted with me last night. I have to agree with him. I’m disgusted with myself. I think I’m going to stop drinking for a while. Maybe.

I grabbed my bag and went into the bathroom. I took a shower because I could smell the alcohol as it had seeped through my pores. I scrubbed my body thoroughly. I brushed my teeth and got dressed. I brushed my hair and tossed it into a messy bun.

“Morning. Coffee is ready.” I nodded as I went to the cupboard to get a mug. I poured myself a cup and got into the fridge to get the creamer. I poured some in and added sugar. I needed the caffeine and sugar rush this morning. “What do you want for breakfast?” “Nothing.” I replied curtly as I sat across from him with my coffee, sipping it as I pulled a file to me and opened it to get to work.

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I’m so ready to be done staying with Jayson. Work or not, I want to go home. I’ve barely spoken to him other than what we need to discuss for work since my birthday and that was two weeks ago. Every night I try to sleep on the couch. He just comes and collects me while I’m sleeping.

For the past few nights, he’s been sleeping with his body half on me, locking me to his bed. I haven’t slept much because, as much as I hate him now, he still smells so good, and his lips look as kissable as before. Maybe more so. I’m going to go insane, and we are barely a quarter of the way into the files.

“It’s time for bed.” Jayson declared as he set the file he was reading down and took his reading glasses off. “You go. I’m good.” “Now.” He commanded me. I tossed the file and my notepad and pen down on the coffee table. I turned to look at him. “I told you before and I’ll tell you again. You are not the boss of my personal life.”

“You’re not taking care of yourself, Wendy. I need you strong. How much sleep have you gotten in the past two weeks?” “I would get more sleep if a certain giant boss would leave me alone and stop taking me to his bed every night.” “You are not comfortable out here and I can’t stand to hear your cries.” He rebutted.

“That’s no excuse. Just close your door. I’m fine sleeping on the couch. I can handle myself. I’m a woman, not a little girl.” “Wendy, you don’t have to deal with your nightmares by yourself.” “Yes, I do. It’s my life, not yours. I have no one anymore. The man I thought I was going to marry some day is gone. There’s nothing left in life. I just wish you all would realize that. Especially you. I’m not your charity case to try and fix.”

He growled out at me in frustration. “You’re grieving Wendy. We are just trying to help you through this.” I looked at my left hand and turned it back and forth to look at it. I showed Jayson. “Oh, look, no ring. I’m not yours. I don’t have to do as you say outside of work.”

“What about your birthday? Are you going to forget that you came all over my fingers while I sucked your bre*.sts in my mouth. Or how you jumped on me naked later in the night, kissing me. You are mine whether you want to admit it or not.” “Take that back.” I lunged at him with my fist, hitting him in his chest once.

He grasped my wrists and dragged my body until I was sitting on his lap facing him. “No.” He said. He let go of my wrists and grasped my head and pulled me towards his face. He flicked his tongue out and licked my lips. I tried to press away from him. He held me firm. He flicked his tongue again. “No, I hate you.” I said.

“No, you don’t. You want me as badly as I want you. Your nip*.les are hard as a rock begging to be licked. I bet if I slipped my hand inside your shorts you would be wet for me. I’ve been patient Wendy, but you are mine and I want nothing more than to bend you over the arm of my couch and f*ck this attitude you’ve developed out of you.”

My mouth dropped. “Is that all you want?” “Yes.” He gritted through his teeth. I pushed off from him. I pulled my tank top off. I let his eyes feast on me as I removed the rest of my clothes. I moved to my end of the couch and bent over it as I knelt on the couch. I looked over my shoulder. “What are you waiting for?” I asked.

Jayson started pulling his clothes off. I waited for him to position himself behind me to get this over with. I wasn’t prepared to feel him touching me and his tongue flicking me from behind. He licked me and sucked my cl*t into his mouth. I moaned. “What the fhaa…” “Quiet. You don’t get to say anything else unless you are screaming your pleasure.” To make his point, he spanked me.

I moaned as he rubbed where he just spanked me and dived his tongue back in licking and sucking me. I couldn’t stop myself from widening my legs to give him easier access. My head rested against my arms as I panted and moaned. “I want to hear your pleasure noises. Stop covering them up.” He spanked my other *ss cheek, and I felt myself get wetter. He murmured his approval as he rubbed my cheek where he just hit me.

I exploded a few minutes later with his tongue and fingers, bringing me to my climax. I was feeling loose as my orgasm rode my body. I almost didn’t register Jayson filling me with his huge d*ck. I whimpered as he slid into me each delicious inch. He just settled himself in me and didn’t move. I wanted him to move. I needed him to move.

“Jayson.” “What do you want Baby?” “I want you to move.” He slid out and back in and stopped. “Jayson.” “I moved.” He was going to make me beg. “F*ck me please Jayson.” I was desperate for him. He hovered over my back until his mouth reached my ear. “Tell me your mine and only mine.” “I’m yours. Only yours Jayson.”

He pulled out to his tip and thrust hard back into me. I cried out. “That’s right Baby and don’t you forget it.” I would have agreed to anything as long as he didn’t stop what he was doing. He gripped my hips and pistoned in and out of my body. It was glorious.

Jayson and I f*cked all over his house all night long. I groaned when the alarm for work went off. “Sleep. We’ll work from home today.” He kissed my head from behind and pulled me in tighter to his body. I felt instant guilt consume me. Last night was incredible, but I can’t let it happen again.