Coffee, Tea or Me

Missed Chance

NO call from him. I cannot bring myself to call him either. In times like this when you cannot just bring yourself to barge in, restraint is like a b***h that wants to lure you in her den and taunt you to death. I admit that sometimes, I did not have the patience to wait. But if no choice was in sight, well, I would try so hard to not let my impatience got the best of me.

I sighed.

Of course, it was understandable. One can do so many things at a wedding. So, carry on. It's not as if I could impose on him. What are we anyway?

Aww... That hurts. My inner b***h taunted. But I unheeded it.

Straighten my back, I entered the coffee shop overlooking the wedding venue. While I'm off duty now, I have to linger around. There are times that some unforeseen events could strike like a thunderbolt which needs an immediate address to save from escalating into a nightmare. Boss Lina tends to panic at times that Boss Vicky and Boss Chris, the other two bosses at HELLO, FUTURE secretly advise me to stay whenever Boss Lina will be the one holding the port. Like this one now. I just silently pray that nothing like that would happen. I'm too tired my bones seem to creak.

I took my seat near the glass window after I gave my order to the waiter. Within minutes, the wedding was on a roll. And there he was, walking so confident with a dashing smile on his face. Some girls on the side even shriek in delight.

Damn. He was breathtaking.

Once again, I cannot stop that warm, delicious feeling that tickled my spine. The unexpectedness that grips my consciousness signaled that a certain level of awareness about the man was afore me. While the peeling of warning bells was triggered that moment again, something in me surges with the challenge.

Just when he finally reached his place to stand in wait, I took out my cellphone and typed: Hey, you should smile more often. It suits you well. Even the girls out there can't stop swooning I felt jealous.

Hahaha... Wait for me, please. When this is over, I will join you up.

Do I have a choice?

Yes. But I insist that you wait for me, all right? I will make it up to you.

I let the waiter settled my coffee on the table before I took a photo of it and sent the same as a reply to Dave. Then I naughtily sent the text: Coffee, tea, or me?

No tea. At least not now. Coffee and you will do. A winking emoji accompanied his text.

Ayiiieee... I swooned on my sit. Even my toes reacted to it. God, am I really falling for the man? I know. I know. It was too early to conclude. But I can't stop my heart from reacting.

My hands shook with excitement as I breathily compose my reply.

Be still now. Don't worry, with my body feeling like a dumb fat cow, I could wait for eternity if that's what it takes.

Duh... Now, I am really flirting. Huh! But I cannot stop that smile from occupying my lips now.

Love it. Can't wait for this wedding to be over.

Patience, please. As I said, I will wait for you. I will drink my coffee as slow as a turtle. I can't drink too much caffeine in one sitting or I will jump at you right from the door.

He sent a three laughing out loud emojis.

I sighed. Not the bored one but a happy sigh, instead. I contentedly sip my coffee. But before long, my phone was ringing like a little b***h that demanded the utmost attention. It broke me from my trance-like state once I hear what Boss Chris was saying at the end of the line.

"Carl's met an accident here at the venue. And I have to rush him to the hospital. An important set-up for the wedding here is yet to finish. Please come ASAP."

"Is Carl's okay?" Carl is one of my fave co-worker, an all-out and proud gay who's brilliant mind can speak for itself. I could do magic but he can do a miracle when it comes to our job. When we teamed up, we can do and breathe fabulous into what we are doing. No exaggeration there. Its a fact. For that, the owners already offered us a partnership in the hope that we will stay with the company instead of giving in after those events companies who were trying to lure us away from HELLO, FUTURE to work for them.  We have yet to seat for a long talk with the bosses to see if what's on the table. And yes, he is my friend. So now, I was shaken with worry.

"Let's hope for the best."

"All right, boss. I'm coming."

When the line was disconnected, I sat there for some minutes, trying still to assimilate how things went so fast. I look down on the gatherings especially with Dave who seems to try to console the nervous groom beside him.

I sighed so heavily this time. "Well, then. s**t happens. Go, Self. Move. While it is regrettable that things do not go as planned, coffee with him can wait." I stand feeling as if my feet were tied with a metal ball.

Sometimes, it sucks consoling yourself when you actually feel bad.