A Broken mate

Moon goddess

I don't remember how Long I have been in the dungeons or how much time passed.

I didn't bother to keep a tab on time.

I had come to accept that this was going to be my home. Perhaps until my death.

The pain of getting whipped daily and the pain of rejection weighed down heavily on me.

After some weeks, whipping wasn't the only thing they did to me.

The guards started forcing myself on me. It was endless torture.

I know Toby could feel it, feel that someone was forcing themselves on me but alas!He didn't care.

I was the mate of the most powerful Alpha in the land yet I was defiled by guards.

To me that embarrassment was worse than death so I decided to do the only thing I loathed.

Yes, I finally decided to take my life.

Not because I couldn't bear the pain anymore, but the humiliation was too much.

I was a woman who valued my dignity but here, they had trampled upon my dignity like trash.

I bet even prisoners didn't get to be treated like this.

I got the news that Toby was planning to transfer me to the werewolf prison. I flinched at the news.

If this was hell, I don't know what I would call the werewolf prison.

It was a place all the notorious criminals were kept.

There it wasn't just the silver chains restraining you, prisoners would be fed wolfsbane poison everyday.

That was a dangerous poison that could easily kill your wolf, leaving you the weak human body.

For us werewolves, we prided ourselves with our extraordinary strength and abilities. All these were made possible by our wolves.

Killing one's wolf was akin to killing that person.

A shifter would choose death over losing his second half.

I didn't want to imagine what I would go through if I ever landed on that place.

Not to forget the numerous cases of female prisoners being found dead from s****l assault.

I figured out that death would be an easy way for me.

" After this, the pain will disappear. we can finally rest." I told scar.

" I am sorry you had such a weak and hopeless companion. In our next life, I hope the moon goddess will bless you with a powerful host."I said to her.

I sat down weakly, concentrating my strength on my palm before striking my chest with all the strength I had left.

Slowly, darkness consumed me.

I woke up to darkness surrounding me. I tried blinking my eyes to no avail.

" Where am I ?" I asked myself.

" Am I finally in hell? Will I be meeting the devil very soon? But why is it so dark and silent here?"

I kept wondering.

According to afterlife tales, hell is supposed to be where I get to meet the legendary Lucifer.

It is said that there's a big fire burning the souls of the sinners and filled with cries.

But this place was eerily quiet and no light could be spotted anywhere.

Then my brain started hurting.

I felt an excruciating pain hit my nerves as memories of how I spent the last few days alive.

The hatred in my mate's eyes, the whips, how I was assaulted.

They kept repeating in my mind like a broken record.

The pain from my hurting head coupled with the painful memories made me feel like I was experiencing bone crashing sections.

Then I started falling down to god knows where.

The memories never stopped replaying in my mind.

" Stop!" I shouted.

I couldn't take it anymore.

Did I die only to have torture follow me to the depths of hell.

Was pain supposed to be my portion forever?

Couldn't they give me a break?

Did I commit an unforgivable mistake in My past life that the punishment had to be projected to my next.

But I already paid for whatever unknown dues I owned when I was alive.

Why do I have to experience pain even In the place I thought I could finally rest.

" My child." I heard a soft voice calling me, making me turn my eyes to the direction of the voice.

Then I saw her, a fairy, dressed in a long royal dress.

She was beautiful, no, not just beautiful.

She was everything that exceeded beauty.

I didn't have to guess who the lady was.

Actually, this wasn't the first time I saw her.

On that fateful night when Ellielost her life, I spotted her observing me after Toby left me behind, carrying Ellie in his arms.

I tried going to her, but she disappeared.

At that time, I thought it was my imagination but now that I am seeing her here, I could tell that I wasn't imagining things.

She was there, watching me as I suffered rejection and accusation from my mate but she did nothing to intervene.

" You saw me getting hurt but never helped me." The first words to leave my words were accusing.

" My child,my power is limited to blessing every wolf with their mate. I don't have the power to control fate." She answered and I could feel the sincerity in her words but that did nothing to lessen my pain.

" Then why did you have to curse me with such a Mate. A mate who rejected me and brought pain to me?" I can't believe I had the audacity to question the moon goddess. Since I was young, my mother taught me that the Moon goddess was to be respected at all times. She made that very clear to me but then here I was, questioning her.

She was the almighty one who all us descendants of the moon worshipped.

She was our god.

" As I said before, I don't have the power to control any of your fates. My work is limited to pairing my children. The rest is up to you and the fate bestowed by the god of fate." She answered patiently.

" Then Who is responsible for deciding our fate? I would like to meet and question him?" I asked, trying to hold in my anger.

I really wanted to ask him or her why he bestowed such a cruel fate on me?

Ask why of all people, I had to suffer for the crimes I didn't commit?

" You can't meet him. He's not someone anybody can meet. I don't see him myself." The moon goddess told me.

Although I wasn't pleased, there's nothing I could do.

" Your life ended badly so I am giving you another chance. This time, you have to look for your purpose in life.Only then can you be able to avoid repeating what happened." The moon goddess said, making me confused.

What did she mean by giving me another chance?

And what purpose was she talking about?

" What do you mean?" I asked.

" I will send you back to your old life. This time around I expect you to be the master of your destiny. If you let others control you, I am sorry but you'll face the same fate as your last life." The moon goddess said.

I don't know if I should be happy to hear that or be afraid.

I don't want to go through the same pain and heartache as my past life.

But the moon goddess said that there's hope.

Hope that things might be different this time.

But for that to happen, I have to find the purpose of my life?

How was I supposed to do that?

" Can I have a different mate in my second life?" I asked. I couldn't believe I was bargaining with the moon goddess.

" Unfortunately no. Toby will be your mate. He is your destined one, in this Life and the next.This time, make the wise choice and avoid disaster." She said and I felt my heart ache.

Just the thought of Toby's hate and disgust towards me made me afraid to take the moon goddess's offer.

What if things ended up the same and I experienced the same misfortune?

I wasn't sure if my broken self could handle more pain.

" How do I find my purpose in life?" I asked.

If my mate couldn't be changed, I might as well concentrate on the matters that could give me a different fate.

I will just reject Toby and move on with life.

" That is something only you can figure out and no, you cannot reject your fated mate." Her words shattered my heart.

Why am I not supposed to reject the person who is the cause of my misery?

If I can't reject him, I will have to stay away from him and his lover.

" What exactly happened to Ellie?" I found myself asking.

That's something I couldn't place my finger on until my last breath.

" I can't divulge more information. Just remember, everything depends on the choices you make." She said and started fading away.

I still had questions to ask but I guess, until next time.If there was ever going to be a next time that is.

" Bella! Bella! you will be late for school if you keep sleeping."