He was already awake when I sat up tired in bed, it was early in the morning when he was standing at the end of the bed and I understood the same second, I saw him, that he had not slept at all, not a single second on the tired face that smiled warmly against me as he had stood all night and only looked at me while I slept. “Good morning, babe.” He said the words tenderly and I just nodded back, already feeling that I could barely answer I was so pissed at myself that I had fallen asleep, I should have been awake with him, made sure I took advantage of every second of our time together. “So… I talked to your dad; he will pick you up later… when I'm done…” I just looked at him sadly and put my hands over my face, he talked about it all now like he was just going into the store, and

