I must have fallen asleep there in his arms because when I woke up again, he was not there and I lay huddled on the side of his big bed and blinked tired, I did not know as usual what time it was, night? I looked out of the large window in his bedroom and understood that it must be so as I slowly sat up and put my feet down and walked towards the bathroom needing to pee and I felt more dead than alive as I went to the toilet and washed my hands tired and looked at me in the huge mirror, I looked awful with my hair everywhere and had Grant's shirt hanging loosely on me except for my stomach that showed between the opening sometimes as I stretched forward and wiped my hands on the ridiculously soft towels and went out. I walked silently out on the warm stone floor that always seemed

