Midnight thoughts

Midnight talks

We both watch the night sky it was shiny like a new penny. The stars are fleck flickers and the moon was dim but enough to light and see each other, both of us feels fantastic, the stars, the moon, and the sound of the night it was great and breathtaking, we both sit and watch the night sky. The whole night, we made jokes that will make us laugh, we both shared stories and so on, we did everything, and I would say that you officially know my world, calm, quiet and melancholic memories, I looked into your eyes you look happy and amazed, the inner child that you have is very joyful, you looked happy and it was reflecting to your soul and lips, all the words that come out to your mouth were positive and bright, no more melancholia, grief, burdens or even anger and that's what I'm surprise for, I see my world as died or graveyard s**t, because at this time all the sad happened to me is like a vinyl soundtrack that keeps playing in my head over and over. But for you, this kind of scene is something fun, light and calm moments and somehow that made me think twice maybe, I see this time sad because I let myself think about that, I let my negativity take control.

I introduce you to my world, I tell you my stories like how you did back in the woods, you listen to me all ears, you loved my stories and you never interrupt me you just carefully listen to every word that my mouth releases. A sad and tragic story you said and look straight into my eyes, but upon saying that you've said that you loved my midnights, you find your comfort in there. So, I asked you "Why don't we both go into the woods at midnight?" your smiles peeked through the window of your lips and looked at me happily as if it was a good idea. We both agree and made a promise that we're going into the woods in the middle of the night until dawn, my heart raised and my stomach felt wobbly like it was melting down, I was too excited for it, to the point that the whole night I'm talking about preparation in the woods. Foods, a place to sleep, and things that we need, I was too caught up on what we were planning and thought about it all night.

The night sky looks so fine, the stars that shine all the time, the clouds that aesthetically moved slowly it was good, the time goes and now the sun are rising, the dark coloured sky turns purple, looking at it I just realize that the end of this moment is going to finish, everything will end.

You looked at me and asked why I suddenly stopped talking and looked like a sad cat, I can't tell you how I felt but if you are going to ask me again I would say "because our fun time together reaches its limit" with a sad low undertone.

I hung my head low, and you stare at me with confusion in your eyes, I remember I never had you, I want your love but I know there's someone in your heart, I saw it in your eyes, but why I'm still hoping for more? why I'm still thinking that you will love me the same way I did. My eyes began to sore and my tears slowly went down my cheeks, and now you looked terrified thinking what happened to me, my heart, there's something in my heart that makes me feel hurt and sad, my mind doesn't know what's happening you're confused, baby I did too.

If I can only stop the time I will do it just to cherish this moment, I want to feel what it's like being to someone you like and ruled the kingdom I made. It was already seven in the morning and the sun began to rise, you hugged me and asked me why? I already know the answer but I'm afraid if I told you, I don't have the courage to say the word "please be mine" The only thing that I know is to be contented on what we had for me to get along with you many times.

I said my goodbyes and you left I looked at you until your shadow begin to fade in the sunshine, now the only thing that I need is to let you go and fly on your own, I want to see you rule your own kingdom and as for me I will still bad witch in your homeland, holding the memories that we've made, I cry, thinking the girl that you like is so lucky because you like her the same feeling I felt to you, I lay my body and let my body eat by sadness, but still I'm thankful because at least in the last time I have a chance to make another day with you. I want now to see you be with someone you loved, I want to see you reach your dreams with someone you choose, it was enchanting to meet you and the flashed backs starts to interfere, I see your angelic face and your green coloured eyes, the first day we met, what I did just to have fun with you in the back of my head, that days is something that I want to keep because that's a living proof that I did something that I didn't expect that I can. I looked in the mirror and let myself look at my reflection. I saw my eyes dreaming, I'm dancing with someone I saw it in the curtain and when the light comes up the guy vanished and realized that she was alone all the time, I'm on my knees the curtain begin to fall and the only word that my mind speaking is "I'm sorry I can't keep you".

This is it, this is the end.