Midnight thoughts

Hold my hand

My sweat was all over my body, and my imagination is in a place where all is happy, they say they know us but I guess they're all wrong, they never know about how we care for each other, and they don't know how I like you, I don't know what will happen if they knew that I love you. I close my eyes and let your angelic face appears in my mind, I don't know what to do but the only thing that I know is I like you. You give me the brightest and happy days in my life, you never let me down.

Your smile is the reason why I'm happy, your gesture is the reason why I want to wake up every morning, and you are the reason why I keep falling. I know loving me back is impossible but I'm thankful to our Lord God because he gives me a chance to do things I never did before.

We passed through some barricades, we walked some sea and survive it, together we stand, together we're happy, together I can be what I want, together we fly, I hope I never lose you, I hope these things, these journey of us would never end, hold on me and I will hold on you wholeheartedly, we will never let down each other.

We make the dark sky into a bright and shiny one, we stop the rain and we dance into the night sky, we were so brave to make promises, we made plans together, and start to build our future, I watch you breathe in, watch you breathing out all the breath we take and out was the only thing that we have, it feels surreal. We both hold our hands tight and securely, we watched the sun comes down, watched the stars and moon and every second of it was love, I couldn't ask for more because doing this kind of thing is enough, you're enough, you're enough for me because you're the one.

You were my favourite person in the whole wide world, you're the only one who sees the good in me, you're the only one who sees the truth when everything around me was a lie, these are the reason why I keep falling for you, you are the reason.

We kept hanging out in that woods, mall and places that I have never been to, we held hands when we were alone, and reminiscing about you was a smile on my face, I gave you my heart even though you don't know it, I put it on your pocket and I hope when that day comes that you knew it, it's either you accepted it or not if you accepted it holds it gently and carefree, but if you'll going to drop it please give it back to me I'll understand don't make it broke and shattered, I will be okay.

I walked in the land full of grass, it was really greener and evergreen, but it has spikes on it, and it was sharp as a knife I walked on them barefooted even though my foot was getting bruised and bleeding I kept walking because I knew, in the end of the line you were there standing and waiting for me, you will hold me, kissed me, hugged me tight, that's why I kept walking because I'm looking forward on my prize, I'm looking forward to seeing you there smiling and being proud of me, I'm looking forward to see you happy because I did it. I'm looking forward to seeing you, my love. Bear with me.

As I walked through that grass, you are my guide and you are my strength, I held on to you tight and hopeful, God knew how much I adore you, I prayed to God about you, and I tell him our story, I tell him that I am happy whenever when I'm with you.

In my bed, I sat down and keep thinking about you, wondering if you were thinking about me and if you felt the same way too I attempt to tell you this but when I'm in there my mouth shut and I can't talk, the feeling that my tongue got twisted and can't say any words, that's what I'm feeling, I'm afraid. That's the reason why I'm contented with what we have because I don't want to end up alone again.

You fit like rhyme in a word poetry, I use a lot of names but you're the only one to fit in, Oh no I think I fall in love again what should I do, my heart was weak I keep falling down, oh no.

I was thinking what if I hold onto something strong in order for me not to fall because I don't know what would happen to me after this, I don't know if you catch me after I fall or maybe you would leave me while in the middle of the air.

I fall into something high even numbers can't count it, it was high and deep, if I fall and got down my body would be shattered on the pavement, I'm scared I don't know how would I pick up myself and stand after those deep falls, that would be badly damage through my bones.

Maybe this is the life of a person who's been in love with someone who doesn't know what will happen at the end of the story, I wish I knew what would happen in order for me to inform myself and to save my body from falling apart. I lay down my body and looked at the ceiling, I need to be ready for what would happen because that's the only thing that I have to lessen the pain if he would leave me when I'm still falling, I hoped after that I have the courage to stand again and move, I wish the branches of trees would save me to be not badly damage. I close my eyes and remove all the thoughts in my head.