SAMUEL
I see her and she is beautiful.
I can't stop touching her, kissing her, and admiring her.
Every time she is near me, I cannot control the insane desires I have for her, which bloom uncontrollably.
I don't want to, I need to maintain the armor that I have always had with women, but with her, it's as if it melts when she sees or feels me.
I can't feel, not again...
I try, desperately try not to fall for her, but each time it becomes more difficult, it costs me so much not to give in to what she provokes in me.
Is it normal for a girl like her to destabilize me in this way? No, I don't think so, I doubt that this is normal or good for me.
I need to remind myself every f*****g minute, every second, that it's just a game, that it will last at most 3 or 4 more weeks, and then it w
