The diaries of my s*x life

Chapter 2 : Secrets out

My phone pings, a text from Laura.

“Lunch in the city at 12:00?” She asks.

I reply “Never needed it more than today!”

I get the kids and myself ready. We head out towards the city. On the way I stop to drop the kids off at my mom’s house. I drive on the highway towards the city, admiring the traffic, how I missed it.

I pull in at the cafe me and Laura got lunch at regularly. She sits waiting, in her pristine pressed suit, she most likely came straight from court.

I join her at a small round table, outside overlooking the busy roads of the city between the skyscraper buildings.

We start talking about how life has been recently, superficial topics and small talk.

“Anna, how have you really been.” She asks concerned.

I explain to her how my life has gone to s**t and I don’t even know who I am anymore. I tell her it feels like my marriage is crumbling in silence and that I am no longer happy. I wish my life was different. I want to be free. I want to be able to go clubbing, drink till wee hours of the morning and having rough s*x.

I have no sense of identity anymore. I am no more than a housewife and a mother. I do nothing for myself.

She looks at me concerned “Girls night tomorrow night! Im not asking, I’m telling you.” She says firmly. I agree with her.

I need that! I really do! I don’t know how Cole is going to react, he always says he wants me to be home with the kids. He keeps me in this glass box to live in a white picket fence house.

It’s probably going to end in a fight, but I don’t care I need to get out of the s**t hole for a minute.

I head back home, pick up the kids before Cole gets home. I start dinner, bath the kids and tidy up the house. His cars pulls in the driveway. I can tell by the way he slams his car door he didn’t have a good day. He walks inside the house slams his briefcase on the counter and annoyingly asks “What’s for dinner?”

“Lasagna.” I reply.

He looks at me, with a disgusted look on his face.

“Pull down your f*****g panties right now.” I look at him shocked. He never swears, never talks about s*x this way. I stand frozen in the kitchen not knowing what to do.

“Anna, pull down your f*****g panties!” He shouts.

For a brief moment I feel fear, confusion and shock. He walks towards me as I am busy trying to unbutton my pants. When my pants hit the floor, he stands behind me. I can feel his presence radiating anger and rage.

Ive never seen him act this way, he never gets angry. All of a sudden, he rips my panties from my body. The cold air hits my p***y as I stand there exposed.

He spits in his hand, rubs it on his d**k and forces his c**k inside me. He starts f*****g me really hard, it almost hurts. I moan, for a change Im not faking it.

“Shut the f**k up slut.” He says as he smacks me through the face. The utter shock is plastered all over my face but he keeps penetrating me with his d**k. I can feel his c**k sliding in and out of my p***y. He’s rough really rough, he has a look of hate in his eyes.

“Can we take a minute, please.” I plead.

“You’re not going anywhere until I c*m inside you f*****g p***y, spread your legs.” He says angrily.

I lay there, confused, shocked and scared. I feel unsafe. Finally he loses the grip he has on my hips, I feel his c**k throbbing. He cummed inside of me.

He removes his c**k, the c*m is dripping from down my leg, leaving splats on the floor.

“I will breed you until you give me a child that is mine!” He threatens.

He knows!

My oldest son Luke is not his son. Cole and I were getting married, I was having my bachelorette in the city, when I bumped into Nick at the club. I was drunk, It felt nostalgic. Cole was the type to wait until marriage. I was so deprived from s*x at that point, I would basically f**k anything.

I had s*x with Nick, the night before my wedding. Dirty, rough s*x. Nick always f****d me raw, he didn’t like a condom. I loved the way I could feel all the veins of his c**k in my v****a. The way he rubs the head of his p***s against my cIit turned me on.

I was ovulating when we had s*x, Nick cummed inside of me.

My wedding day I bought a plan B pill but it didn’t work.

6 Weeks later I was pregnant with my son Luke. Cole didn’t question it since we consummated our marriage the night of the wedding.

I never told Nick that Luke is his son. He’s not father material. Nick is a wild card, he’s a loose cannon. He couldn’t even settle down with me when we were dating. We were toxic, f*****g other people to make each other jealous. He got a kick out of seeing me getting pounded by some other guy. He did shady business deals. He wasn’t father material. I knew that Cole was a family man. That all he wanted was to settle down and provide. I chose not to tell Cole because I knew Luke would have a stable home and a good father figure.

Somehow Cole found out that Luke is not his son. Now he’s trying to breed me and give him another.

How does he know? I didn’t tell a soul except for Laura. She is the only one who knows. She would never say anything. I need to talk to her when I get to the city tomorrow.

Cole proceeds to go shower and gets into bed. I follow, I take a shower, washing the c*m off my legs. I analyse the marks left on my skin due to the forceful s*x. Hand marks on hips and around my throat. I wash away the shame and shock. I get into bed next to Cole as if nothing happened.

He turns to me and says, “Play with yourself till your p***y is wet, Im going to watch and when you’re ready, Im going to pump you full of c*m like the c*m slut you are!”

I look at him in utter shock, “what the f**k Cole?” I ask.

He looks at me as if I offended him.

For a moment I can see him feel shame and embarrassment. He turns around, turns off his nightlight and proceeds to sleep.

I sit there, in complete disbelief. He knows, he’s treating me like I’m breeding stock. This is completely out of character for him. For the first time ever he scares me. He makes me feel unsafe. Am I in danger?

I need to talk to Laura as soon as possible..