Sweet life of Phoebe Grey

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

(Phoebes Pov)

When I went downstairs after breakfast this morning my Mom told me that Dad went to visit  Teddy. My heart sinks. He probably just needed a break from the broken and screwed up child.

All day my anxiety is at 100%. I think my math teacher noticed because she pulled me aside and asked if everything was okay. I have been so worried about Dad and him leaving. Am I that bad that he had to go see Teddy? All I want to do is hug him.

It is now 7th period and the tears are building in my eyes they are about to spill. I grab my phone and walk out of class. Sawyer stays close but not to close for comfort. I call my dad quickly in the hallway. He says he thought I knew that he left and that he will be home soon.

I decide I want to go home because if I stay here any longer I will have a panic attack. Sawyer called my mom and she said just to sign me out and she will finish her work up.

The attendance woman is giving Sawyer a hard time about letting me leave since he isn't my legal guardian. I just go out and sit in one of the waiting chairs we have in our school. All of a sudden someone pops down next to me startling me.

I don't look over because I am not in the mood to have a conversation but then I hear a voice. "Sorry didn't mean to startle you." He says. It is a deep smooth and sexy voice. I immediately am intrigued to see who this man is.

When I look over I think I see Adonis. He looks around my age maybe a little older. He has brown hair and the bluest eyes I have ever seen in my life. His skin looks like he just got back from vacation, a beautiful tan. He has white and straight teeth that are covered by perfect pink lips. And don't even get me started on the body.

"I am Nathan nice to meet you. You are?" He says when he totally catches me staring. I blush and take his hand in mine. He has a very firm hand shake. I make sure to look into his eyes. A second passes as I remember that he wants to know my name.

"Hi I am uh Phoebe Grey… nice to meet you too." I say back stuttering and making a complete fool of myself. He smiles "Christian Grey's daughter?" I nod and frown at the same time remembering my dad. "What are you doing down at the principles office Ms. Grey?" Nathan smirks while saying this. "My CPO is signing me out I have an um an um appointment." He tilts his head a bit probably confused as to why I am stuttering.

"Cool I am new here I am waiting to be assigned to a kid to "shadow" for a couple of days" He roles his eyes. He has great eye contact; I almost feel him staring in my soul. I nod and ask him where he is from. "Florida… my dad got relocated because of his job." He shrugs and I nod. Well Florida explains the surfer tan.

"Phoebe I see you have met Nathan" Principle Marks says as she walks in front of Sawyer. I nod and give her a tight smile. "Well since you have already met Phoebe she may as well be the person you shadow." She says to Nathan. A megawatt smile forms on his face. "That would be perfect," he says looking at me.

"Um sure I guess that is fine." I say shrugging I guess getting to have Adonis follow me around for a couple days wouldn't kill me. "Great Phoebe you won't be at school tomorrow so why don't we say he'll start shadowing you next Monday?" She says I look down and realize my dad has already called me out for tomorrow. Meaning he has something up his sleeve. I agree to it and then shake hands with Nathan. He gives my hand a little squeeze and I about melt on the spot.

As I walk out I turn around one last time but then I realize he was in the middle of checking me out. Dear lord this boy. He blushes a bright red and quickly snaps his head back to the principle. I laugh to myself.

When I get home I go upstairs and lay on my bed. Soon the thoughts of Adonis leave my head and the thoughts of my dad fill them. Why can't I just be the perfect daughter that he wants? I sigh and lay on my side facing the wall as tears pour out of my eyes. I need to clear my head I swear I feel like I am suffocating.

As the thoughts choke me more tears pour out of my eyes. I hear someone knock on my door then my mom comes in. I try to stay still and maybe she will think I am asleep but she doesn't. My mom rushes to my side. "Oh baby girl come here." She pulls me up and I instantly sob into her shoulder.

"Phoebe, tell me what is wrong sweet girl." She demands as I cry, I just shake my head not being able to control my emotions. “Dad hates me," I say stuttering because of my crying.

"Phoebe Grey we both know that he does not hate you at all." She almost scolds me. "Mom I got so bad that he needed to go see Teddy, he couldn't deal with how bad I was anymore." I sob she shakes her head and almost laughs.

"Baby he went to see Teddy because he didn't get to spend one on one time with him last time he was there. You know as well as I do that your father loves you more than anything on this earth." She says but I just cry. He can't love me after everything.

"Phoebe you haven't been sleeping well I know that for a fact and you are clearly very distraught. I am going to lay with you while you take a nap. No if ands or buts about it." She says looking pointedly at me. I just lay back with her "Also I am calling Flynn and we are going to go to an appointment because I don't know what is making you think so lowly about your father." She says and that is the last thing I hear before I fall asleep. At around 11 I wake up to voices outside my room.

"Christian she has been asleep since 4. She is exhausted it is a wonder she hasn't passed out." My mother says. I can't hear what dad says back. "She thinks you hate her because of everything. She thought you needed to see Teddy because you got so fed up with her. She obviously has something going on in her head that she needs to let out. Flynn said he would meet with her tomorrow at 9 am. Then you can take her." I hear my Dad talk back to my mom but it is muffled.

I feel the pressing need to pee so I get up and walk into my bathroom. Both my parent's voices disappear. I walk past the mirror and refuse to look into it. I hate what I see when I do. My parents deserve the best daughter Ava deserves the best cousin and friend. I can't be either. I see the razor on my counter as I walk past it to the toilet. I have never cut myself ever. But…

After I use the toilet I come back out to my room and sitting on my bed is my Dad. He looks tired and a bit stressed. But he is masking it with one of his million dollar smiles. "What are you doing here? I thought you were with Teddy." I ask

"Phoebe you called me upset I wasn't going to let you sit here in pain, your mother told me you haven't eaten since lunch and god knows if you even ate then." He says sounding sad. My heart feels so heavy and sad. When I hear his voice.

"Come on Bubs lets go get you some dinner." He sighs stands coming over to me to lead my downstairs. But first he takes me in his arms. "I love you Phoebe Grey. More than anything else is this world".