For Jess, going back to work was like a formal return to real life.
No more willfulness.
Previously, he thought he was going to die, so he let himself go and shook the heavens and earth. Now, the situation had changed. His future life was still long. He had to raise his child and support his parents. How could he be reckless again?
This was life.
He felt as if he had become scared again, but there were some changes.
When he was about to ‘die’, Jess sometimes felt that if he could not endure it, then he should just not endure. Life in this world was a short few tens of years, and he really was able to live freely as he desired. But that didn’t mean he could just approach everything without apprehension.
It was too exhausting when he had a baby in his stomach; he had to raise the fet
