Charles Something in me had snapped and I told myself that f**k it, I was going to find Miss Ruth. I needed to hear what she had to face because of that old man. Yet, I can’t bring myself. I don’t think I am ready to accept the truth. It has just been dropped on me, so it will take me a long time to have it processed and accept the fact. Being fed lies, the last thing one should do because of how it always ends when the truth is out. See how I had turned, my life has been turned upside down, i haven’t been able to do anything good. Beta Drew was the one that suggested I get more into work, maybe it would help me out and get my mind off whatever seems to be disturbing me. Nothing had worked so far and since I had moved into this house, I haven’t even been able to give Rose my undivided

