I Still Want You

Project With Anna

Lucas and I stayed up way too late having a makeout session. Last time I looked at the clock it was well after 3am. It was almost 10am when I crawled out of Lucas's bed. "Where are you going?" I heard Lucas asked, still half asleep. "You know I gotta get home Lucas, I have Anna coming over today to work on our stupid project", I replied, letting out a deep sigh. I was not looking forward to spending any amount of time with her. I felt his hand rub my back, "It will be okay babe, you know she's not going to start anything, especially at your house" he said. "Yeah, I know I still don't want to do it though". I said, leaning over to grab my clothes off his bedroom floor. I gave him a small smile as I got up to make my way to his bathroom to change.

Lucas was still lying there giving me a smile as I made my way out of the bathroom, now dressed, I went over to him to give him a kiss. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me on top of him to make me squeal and laugh. "Stop it, you know I gotta leave, I said still giggling, and Jess had better be up" I said, pulling myself off him, "Okay, text me later and let me know how you make out, he said as I was walking out of his bedroom. "You know I will" I replied giving him a quick smile as I was opened his bedroom door to walk out. To my surprise, Jess was walking down the hallway as I walked out of Lucas's bedroom. "Oh good, your good to go". I said, giving her a smile. "Yes, my mom just texted me asking when I was going home. I told her shortly". She replied.

I dropped Jess off, and went home to shower. I put on some comfy black sweat pants, and a light gray under armor hoodie, I went upstairs to make a coffee, and toast with raspberry jam. "Hello honey, I didn't hear you come home". I heard my mother say coming into the kitchen, "Morning mom". I said, taking a bite of my toast, "I just got home a little awhile ago". "How was your weekend? I have barely seen you" she said, making a coffee herself. "I actually had a lot of fun, and Zack and I are on good terms again" I replied. "Oh, I'm so glad to hear, Zack is such a sweet heart Sammy", she said, giving me a huge smile. Mom always really liked him, and I don't blame her. I consider myself lucky to be such great friends with him.

After I finished my toast and coffee, I went downstairs to my bedroom to chill before Ana was due to come over. I heard my mother call my name. I let out a sigh as I walked upstairs to meet Anna at the doorway. "Hey, I know I'm probably early, but I figured the sooner we start the sooner we finish", she said barely looking at me. "Sounds good to me". I replied, turning my back to her to go back downstairs. She followed. I closed my bedroom door behind her as she walked in. She sat at the foot of my bed, with her books still in her arms. I sat at the head of my bed, and looked at her. She was looking at my walls, trying not to make eye contact with me."You just going to stare at my walls the whole time?" I asked, she turned her head to face me, "no, I just don't really know what to say" she replied on the verve of crying. What the hell is going on? I thought. I gave her a wtf look, "You have something to say?"I asked. " Yeah, I actually do", she replied, letting out a sigh. "Sam, you have no idea how sorry I am, about everything, your party, and mostly Zack" she said, wiping tears from her eyes, "I wasn't tying to ruin your friendship, I knew how much you both mean to eachother, I guess I was jealous, I knew Zack would never care as much about me as he does you". "What are you talking about?" I replied still giving her a look. "Oh, come on Sam you can't be that stupid" she said looking at me. "He would do anything for you, there's no one in this world that would ever compare to you in his eyes, the way he looks at you, it's like your his goddess, and I'am so jealous that he would never look at me like that, I like him so much Sam" she said looking down at the floor. I let out a sigh. I didn't really know what to say back. I didn't realize she felt that way. "Look, Anna what you did was pretty mean, and I get where you're coming from, but Zack is his own person. If he decides he wants nothing to do with you, that's on him, and I'm not getting involved." I finally said. "I don't expect you to, honestly. I just wanted you to know how I felt. I do want to be able to talk to him if he ever gives me the time of day" she replied, still crying. I felt bad at that point. As much as I didn't really care for the girl, I wanted to be nice. "I can talk to him" I said, closing my eyes. I felt like I was going to regret the words coming out of my mouth. "Really?" she responded, smiling, "Yes, but you have to promise me no more s**t Anna", I said, giving her a stern look. "I promise, I don't expect us to become friends obviously, but I do want to be friendly towards you, and we can all hangout" she replied still smiling. All I could do is return the smile, and hope for the best. "Now, we should get this project started" she said.

A few hours later, we finished our project. Mom had come down to check on us, asked if we needed anything, or if Anna wanted to stay for supper. Anna declined as she promised her mother she would be home. Anna had left, and I went upstairs to get some water. "How was it?" mom asked, stirring the spaghetti sauce. I let out a sigh " it was alright, guess she's not that bad" I replied before taking a drink. "That's good honey, want to set the table?" she asked. "Sure mom." I replied.

After supper, I went downstairs. I laid on my bed staring at the ceiling for a bit before texting Lucas.

Hey, babe, I survived. I sent him

Oh, I'm glad you didn't end up strangling her or something, he replied.

Lol, no she apologised for everything, and wants to talk to Zack. I told her I would talk to him.

Are you sure you want to do that, Sam ?

A part of me no, but at the same time, I feel bad.

I know you got a good heart. Just be cautious.I don't want to see you get hurt again.

Thanks for being concerned. I'll see you tomorrow xoxo

I didn't bother to check my phone to see Lucas's response. In fact, I got up to walk over to my closet. The Christmas present Zack gave me was still sitting up in my closet, I sat on the floor with my back against my bed. I was playing with the pretty blue bow. I never did open it. I will eventually.