Dahlia kept grumbling inside of me, and this was stressing me out. I tried to ignore her but the more I ignore, the more she intensifies her act, and this was beginning to get to me. I already know what her worry was, but she should know that there is no going back.
Even if I should give in to her, what valid excuse would I give to my friends for the cancellations?.
I am done appealing to her and trying to make her reason with me. Either she understands me or she doesn’t. Whichever one is fine by me.
Finally, when she couldn’t bottle them all in, she poured it all out “We shouldn’t be here Andrea, and you are well aware of that. If you wanted so much to venture into your scary adventures since it is quite obvious you missed them, then why drag these kids with you. Okay you tell me Andrea, what wrong have they done been your friends?
See you have no answer Andrea, absolutely no defense or you just wanted an experience of how been selfish feels like. Or maybe you want to show them how far your strength could stretch, or your super power. There are other days Andrea, why must it be today?”
I wanted it to stop, these accusations, they are hurting me. All I desire was just a little fun, and when has that become a taboo, other kids get all the fun they desire. Dahlia shouldn’t be doing this to me, she of all people was supposed to o understand me.
“Other normal kids Andrea, other normal kids. Please always remember to add that. Okay, let’s say you dragged them here because they had no idea just how much danger you are about to expose them to, what about me Andrea, what about poor Dahlia, must you also drag me here too despite my resistance?”. Dahlia asked me.
“Nothing bad will happen to anyone Dahlia, there is no danger anywhere” I responded, though in doubt.
“Okay, continue. Let’s see how well you can convince yourself on that Andrea.” Dahlia said.
“See, you can’t lie to yourself Andrea, now everyone is in danger and thanks to you”. She added.
These words cut across my heart, it gave me this sharp pain, piercing deep into my heart. I would never put my friends in danger, whether knowingly or unknowingly. Dahlia’s accusations were killing me. I could withstand any hatred, but not from my Dahlia.
I know Dahlia is angry with me for refusing to call off this sit out, but I had to do it for my friends cause they all needed it, I needed it too.
“Speak Andrea, speak”
I couldn’t take it any longer, my head exploded and I let out a loud scream within me.
This caused a strong wind to cut across the garden, and violently shook the trees in the woods.
“It seems it’s going to rain, but the day is bright” Brenda said not knowing the cause of the wind.
“I doubt so Brenda” Lilium answered her “its just some strong wind. The whether is just fine. I think this happens occasionally, especially in the woods”.
The wind stopped and every where became clear. I tried to reach Dahlia but discovered she has blocked me from contacting her.
Poor Dahlia, I know she is always worried that she couldn’t do as much as she wish she could for me, but she shouldn’t be too hard on herself and on me too.
“Time’s up everyone, I think we should start now, it’s already ten minutes” I said.
There is nothing to fear, everything will be just fine. I tried to assure myself.
“Uh…yea, let’s get this party started” Consty supported.
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Our little party was great. The jokes, little fights here and there, our laughter, of course the sumptuous meals. Everything was just perfect and I wonder what could actually go wrong in all of these.
Its already 12 pm, and uncle Jasper is supposed to come take us back by past 1 pm. The day is almost over and it appears nothing could possibly go wrong.
I was glad that everything went as planned. We all had a nice time. This could never be any better.
Dahlia is finally back, and I was glad to have her back with me. We have both apologized to each other. Things couldn’t get any better.
“I would suggest this becomes a monthly practice for us you know” Consty told Lilium and Brenda.
I watched happily as they discussed amongst themselves. I was happy they enjoyed every bit of it. They were all so excited.
I felt like a mother, proud of myself for successfully taking good care and protecting my kids, I felt accomplished.
Dahlia was equally happy that her fears never came true. She too enjoyed the party. She kept on blabbing of how perfect everything was. I on my part was shuffling between listening to her and listening to my friends. Just like a mother with so many kids fighting to get her attention. Doing this was so fun for me, and I was proud of me.
“Okay, what if I tell you that achieving such may not be as easy as you put it, there are unforeseen circumstances most of the time, and that must be made provisions for” Lilium pointed out to Consty.
I wonder what argument she and Consty were having this time around, these two always have something to either discuss or argue about. They made me their umpire in their arguments, but this time, I am just so glad non of them is dragging me into their talk.
Brenda is on her phone while listening to the duo argue. She puts in one or two words at intervals.
“Andrea, I said what’s your take on that, or aren’t you paying any attention to us? Lilium asked drawing my attention to them. It’s obvious that she has been trying to get my attention but I wasn’t responding.
I don’t even know what they were discussing about, so how the hell was I supposed to have a take on it.
I mustn’t let them know I was not following I thought to myself. Because that would be disappointing to them especially Lilium. I tried to guess a reply but that may be worst if I eventually come up with something totally different from their topic. I had to give in.
I stared at her in lost.
“My take on what?”. I questioned.
She was obviously disappointed and turned her face in annoyance, refusing to answer me.
Consty, on the other hand was eager to know what I felt about their argument. So he replied. “Which do you think is more effective, reading all through the night, reading in the daytime, or reading just when a person feels like?”
I thought about it for a while, then I said “I would say all methods are okay. You just got to know your strength and work with it.”
“Wow, that’s actually the best. I was thinking it was reading all night” Lilium said happy that I have contributed to their conversation. I on my part must have to multitask my brain to be able to take in their conversation while still focused on other things. Because this must not repeat itself else Lilium may never forgive me.
Just then, I heard it, noises from afar. I tried to make out the sound, and I realized that it’s a growl, in fact, growls coming from the woods. I quickly reached out to Dahlia, I hope she heard it too.
Before I could ask her, she responded “They are rogues Andrea, five in number and they are coming for us”.