I'm afraid, hurt, and mad... I don't like how people pretend to be good and nice. To do something that they thought is a good deed but it isn't. They aren't helping but instead they are destroying. Did they even know that? Are they aware?
The intention is good but the result is damaging.
Since I got here people always misinterpreted my silence to being shy. I am not... Those people aren't empathizing , they seek for gossip. For a subject to be talk in town... I've never like this place nor the people.
How did we end up to this? I still remember clearly what happened that night...
December 2004
We were inside the house preparing to eat our dinner when I saw from our window my aunt with her family wearing decent clothes.
They look at us and my mother smiled then asked,
"Where are you going Tes?"
"We're going to Andrey's house." My aunt replied
"Are you not going?" My uncle added and looked at us.
"I did not get invitation." My mother said and added "Besides we're about to eat already."
"Ow, we will be late to go home tonight so if you want you can go to our house and watch television." my aunt suggested
"Really? That's so sweet of you Tes, sure we'll do. The kids will be happy to know that!"
"Okay we're about to be late already. We're going now."
"Let's go" My aunt hurriedly called her kids and ride in their motor.
My mother smiled to us and told us about the news. Knowing we could watch television I get excited.
When we were watching television my younger brother don't stop on crying so my mother got up from her sit and make my younger brother go to sleep.
I got too focused in the movie I didn't notice that it's been too long since my mother told me that she will just take a pee outside.
When my Ate woke up she go to the hammock where our younger brother is sleeping.
"Where's mama Al?" she asked
"She told me she'll just take a pee..." I answered
We've waited to our mother until our younger brother woke up and keeps on crying.
We get worried so my sister asked me to look to our younger brother. She go outside then after minutes she go back and told me
"We're going to look mama"
I stare in her face she was so pale and afraid...
From that moment I knew something is wrong but I've never knew that it will be turning point of our lives.