THE DEVILS TRADE

ELYSIAN

When finally I'm at hell's gate I let my anger at myself rise to the surface. This is where I get to pay for my mistakes, my sins, and I'm glad. I can't feel the heat of the flames that coat my periphery but I will I myself to sink in deeper, to feel the pain I must have inflicted on others in my lifetime. I don't want to run, I want to own it. outside the gates i stand before the parting of the gates of heaven and hell..a place where good and bad is equaled.

Though the sunset was illuminating the horizon, the woodland pathway was still dark. The trees stood as if charcoal against the deep blue sky. The only flash of color was the orange pouring across the skyline like molten lead from a furnace.

i slung the sack of grain over his shoulder and walked, not looking at the beauty ahead. After a time i became aware of a glowing up ahead too low and too white to be the sunrise and he lifted his eyes to meet it. i stopped. A figure approached, not human, but human form. It was not reflecting the morning light, but emitting it, actually glowing from within. His skin was almost metallic, bronze perhaps and he was tall, taller even than John. His eyes were like fire, reds, oranges and yellows that flickered and sparked. Despite the mud on the track the figure's white robes were quite spotless, even his shoes. Then he spoke, deep and baritone, "i saw what happened"

i sighed and looked down."i dont know whats going on with me lately...its just whenever i see her i..i Gabriel..i feel so helpless" i said desperately.

he smiled and offered me to sit on the bench beside him. " its strange..the same devil who created the havoc is now surrendering himself to love-"

" i dont know..i came to you because your'e the best at advice"

he lightly chuckled."i swear Lucifer if any of the other angels know i'm still "advising" you..believe me i'll be the 8th fallen angel in no time"

i smiled. " are you really going to abandon your true best friend" i said with a guiltless face.

Gabriel rolled his eyes at the comment" i was your best friend until you thought its better to rule reign of hell then to serve heaven"

" i may regret my decision now but thats how it is now"

Gabriel stood up. "i have no time"

"i think i'm falling for the forbidden love."

his eyes widen as he stared at me,"A human..this is so dangerous..yo..you cant-"

"she had this kind of passion...that even bought the devil down to his knees" 

"Lucifer no, dont do it! it'll hurt you so much"

"no pain was greater when my angel was separated from me"

"it was your fault...you choose hell!" "you still have the heart Lucifer dont let it destroy you further"

"it is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply."

"the demons of hell wouldn't like it..it is a grave sin..Be careful"

i nodded. "i wont tell you to go after her Lucifer..she has a pure soul like an angel..she deserves to belong in heaven..create heaven for her first if you want to fall in love with an angel. 

just than his majestic white wings burst open..he smiled warmly at me and flew towards the gates of heaven.

HEAVEN.

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 i closed my eyes and let out a long sigh.

heaven.

When i opened my eyes i found myself on a river bank. Cool water flowed by, eddying around the twigs of a fallen tree branch. Behind him was a willow tree, exactly the same as the one i used to sit by with the other angels. Across the way sat a kingfisher, its blue plumage resplendent it what must be the light of summer, though early in the morning.

i cast my eyes up to find the sun but it wasn't there. Odd.a warm breeze blowing his long bangs just enough that he could see the ocean beyond. Every facet was as good as a mirror and a different hue of blue. How odd he thought, that he'd never noticed how many shades of blue there are. Then i recalled never in billions years i saw colors around me this pure and vivid.

i dipped my hand into the water and brought it out, watching the drips form their ever increasing circles on impact. So scintillating. i held my wetted fingers to the air, there was a breeze, just softly. my eyes caught a dragonfly briefly before i heard a soft seraphic whisper..disturbing my trail of reminisce i open my eyes and saw Roseangel staring inquisitively at me.

"Heaven," she breathed,"what was heaven like." she stared ahead at the doors of celestial heaven that stood incredibly tall..with the word heaven beautifully inscribed on the top of the golden gates.

"i dont remember" i muttered.

"that can't be..i know enough about you to know that you were the most favorite angel on the reigns of heaven."

"i said i dont wanna talk about it" i snapped at her. she flinched backwards as i clicked my fingers and vanished.

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ROSEANGEL POV 

The emptiness is always there; I consider myself decent at hiding it, masking it with normal human emotions. No one is going to ask me why I'm smiling. 

It hides everywhere, this emptiness, in the closet, the cupboards. There isn't any getting away from it. My nightmares seem to help fill it, with what I don't care to elaborate. They remind me of my childhood, like the emptiness is the monster under the bed. 

I'm so f*****g scared of it, but i need it. I need to feel something. I need something to go to s**t, something to be imperfect. I think, sadly, I feel safer when something is wrong. I need that monster under the bed. I need it to distract myself, from not everything else but, simply, from myself. Don't worry, monster, there is another one sleeping right above you.  

i wanted to my memories to dissolve, to vanish, to fade...i try so f*****g hard its a curse that cant..i feel so powerless..after the so called God took away my family i thought i was lost and by-gone and defenseless...its crazy how humans can love someone with extreme intensity. god gave us love as a blessing that falls as a curse.

but then i see Lucifer..he lost so much more than i could ever interpret..he was the most liked angel on the entire Kingdom of heaven..i had this passion burning, yearning to know more about his story. we saw him as the ruthless monster..but..who made him the monster?

i wiped my stray tears and went inside his palace.

Elysian(Adj): divinely beautiful