Desirable Secrets

06|Spiral

Seventeen

Alexander's stomach sank as she read over the text for a second time.

"Seventeen." She whispered to herself.

What the f**k, Alexander couldn't believe she was having a s****l relationship with a minor.

"You're so f*****g stupid, Alex."

Rubbing her forehead, she looked around the room trying to calm down, Alexander felt sick, disgusted even, her stomach crunch at the thought. Opening her phone, she went straight to her library, deleting the video and photos she had of the younger girl.

"Fuck." Alexander shouted.

She held her stomach running to the bathroom, Alexander leaned over letting out everything she had for lunch.

All she could've done was cry, thinking back  to everything they've done or everything she told the girl made her stomach turned, as she finished throwing up.

"Yo, you okay?"

Alexander looks up at her younger sister. Her tears wouldn't stop as she thought about how Riley and the girl were the same age.

"I'm okay,"

"You don't look like it, hold on, I'm going to get some water."

Alexander wanted to bash her head into the toilet and just forget

People will think she was just overreacting, it wasn't a big gap.

But Alexander has always been creeped out by people dating younger girls.

What the f**k does a 17-year-old have in common with a twenty-one-year-old.

Nothing, that was always Alexander's answer. They were both in different timelines in life, the twenty-one-year-old already experiences life differently.

"Here, get up." Riley hand over the cup, helping her off the floor.

"Thank you."

"Go gather your thoughts and then you can tell me while I run you a bath." Riley rubs her back sitting her by the vanity.

Alexander sighed, stripping out of her clothes. She didn't want to think about it.

"Come on." Riley helped her to the bathroom.

"Thank you," Alexander mumble as she looked around at her favorite vanilla-scented candles.

"Now tell me.” Riley sat on the toilet seat looking at her.

Alexander told her about the situation, from having only fans, to meeting the younger girl and the attachment she grew for her.

And that's what Alexander thinks it is, that's  why she was mad. She grew something for the younger girl that she didn't understand.

"First, why didn't you tell me you were making porn, I will have asked to join, two, why didn't you ask her age at first?"

"Because you don't need to have a damn parent to have a credit card? You have a credit card and everything you buy, I see. Where the f**k her parents at?"

"Alexander, maybe her parents are rich and don't care that much or if she's independent? Babe so much could be happening." Riley pours lavender on her back.

"f**k, I know it's not a big gap, but it makes me feel sick, you know in Columbia it's okay, people get married to younger women and I always say, I will never in my life be with someone younger than me that's grooming, we have nothing in common she hasn't lived life."

"Alexander, you can't say that. You know nothing about the person, you don't know what they went through, I understand where you're coming from, stop freaking out, your ugly crying." Riley wipes her face.

"Thank you, hand me a towel." Alexander raised out of the water.

"I know we're okay with seeing each other naked, but I don't wanna see your dick."

"Riley, I have seen your d**k serval times, I took care of your bum ass." She dropped the towel, stepping into the shower.

"Okay, but it grew, so you haven't seen the improved version of it, that's why I should be on your only fans. I will come in swing my d**k and make all the tips."

"That's never happening, All I need you to do is, go to school and get that business degree or go to the NBA." Alexander pointed at her.

"You're no fun." Riley stuck her tongue out, getting out of the bathroom.

Alexander walked out of the bathroom into her closet, searching through her dresser.

"So I made a list of things, we can do with this situation. One of them is you can forget all about this and court the girl until she's 18." Riley showed her the book.

"I'm not doing that, I will not court a minor to be with me that's grooming, because that's what it's going to feel like." Alexander slips on some clothes.

"Okay, how about not courting but talking to her until she's eighteen."

"Don't you get it Ri, she's a seventeen-year old who paid me for a s****l relation, at some point she had to notice I am older than her." Alexander glared at her walking to the living room.

"So you want to forget this?

"Exactly." Alexander opened the bottle of tequila, throwing out a shot.

"You're not a drinker, put that away.'

"Maybe I am, I didn't think I was a pervert but I guess we learn things new every day." Alexander tilts her head back, downing two shots

"I'm allowing this for one night. After that, you're cut off. Alexander, I love you but you're not becoming dad." Riley glared at her.

"Whatever." Alexander raised the glass in the air before bringing it to her lips.

That's how the night went. With Alexander drinking her sorrows away, Riley didn't understand why she was taking it so hard.

"It's 3 am, and it's time to go to bed."

"She had the biggest boobs I have ever seen." She slurred on the sofa drinking from the bottle of tequila, "she looks like if a Soto gang and Anime had a baby."

"Okay." Riley helped her off the sofa.

"I have never seen her face, but I know she's beautiful." Alexander held on tighter to her neck.

"I bet she is."

"Her p***y was beautiful, I bet her face is as well." Alexander bounces around a few times on her bed when Riley shoved her.

"I have never heard you talk this vulgar."

"Ha, Norra loves it and she likes when I call her princess, I like to call her that too." Alexander brings the bottle to her lips.

"Gimme that."

"No, why she had to do this to me, Riley." She placed her head in Riley's lap, crying.

"It's okay Alexander.” Riley rubbed her head.

"I'm no better than Tessa."

"Who's Tessa?"

“I met her in a park, I was only sixteen, she was thirty. It was two years since dad died and mom was still taking it hard so I was stress with school and taking care of you, I already didn't have time to be a kid. She took advantage of that at first I thought I was the s**t, I was f*****g someone older, until she became possessive, and always threaten to kill herself if I left. It was emotionally draining until it got so bad that even if I said no, she will pressure me into saying yes. She took advantage that I had nobody, she groomed me into what she wanted, a puppet."

"I didn't know that happened to you."

"Riley, everyone is fighting their own battles. That's why I try giving you everything and always here for you so you will never seek it in someone else." Alexander placed her bottle in Riley's hands.

"Let me get you some water."

Alexander sighed, she never wanted to tell anyone about it, that's why she felt so bad when she found out Norra's age.

"Here."

"Thanks, Riley." Alexander strip out of her clothes laying back.

"I hope you know, you don't need to fight anything alone, I know how bad dad was, especially knowing his supposed to be sons were born daughters with extra packages. I'm here for you always." Riley kissed her forehead, turning off the lights.

Alexander allowed her words to sink in, as she moved around the bed trying to get comfortable.

"What the fuck." She pulled the hard surface from under her, realizing it's her phone.

22 messages from Princess.

12:00am-Princess: I hope it's not a problem. I'm turning 18 soon.

12:09am- Princess: I don't have a problem with yours.

12:23am: Princess: Please text me back Daddy.

Alexander cringe at her texting daddy.

Does she have daddy issues?

Alexander pressed on the message to reply, allowing her feelings to pour into the messages.

Alexander: Dear Norra, I'm sorry, but I can't continue this agreement. It makes me feel weird, you're a minor regardless of anything and I don't know how to look past it. I am not that type of woman. I know how it feels to be with someone older and I don't want that for you.

Alexander: I know how it feels like to be groomed by someone much older, I know how draining it's like because you try everything to please them. To think that they mean everything to you and they take advantage of that.

Alexander: I know this isn't about us, but that's how I feel if this is continuing between both of us. So much is at risk with us, I had to delete the pictures of you out of my phone because it's child pornography. I can't be caught with it, something you don't know about me, I'm studying to be a gynecologist and they can kick me out of school.

Alexander: I hate that, I got attach to you; I have never been attached to anyone outside of my family. I love our long talks about music and art, running away with each other to some foreign country. And how one day you will carry me to France to eat bread. I will not lie, Norra, I'm going to miss you.

Alexander: I'm going to block you now, I wish you the best in life; I wish you happiness, love, patience, and everything you deserve.

Alexander: Love Alex