'What a f*****g coincidence... ', and he felt so stupid for it, as if he could have stopped the train reaction.
But he didn't really have a mind for coincidence...
At that moment, Nick felt like banging his head onto the mirror and breaking it, as if a head injury or blunt force trauma would solve the problem and make everything swimmy enough for him to not have to make any decisions at all. And as if it would kick Him out of his own head...But, he has tried that... Nick has tried many things, but nothing was a real remedy.
'I can't kill him...', Nick had the passing thought. Resting his head on his eloquent bathroom sink, arms dangling in mid air whilst his deflated form hunched over. He wasn't sure if he was referring to Him or Rowland in that moment, but either or didn't make his li
