Rowland had the passing thought.
This as well, seemed all so unprofessional considering their original plan and agreement, whatever made Rowland so special might have been temporary in his own eyes, Rowland was somewhat waiting for him to turn cold or to become distant; not now but soon, as the idea churned in his stomach along with the need to fill it.
But Nick wasn't acting that way at all, playfully making every excuse to so much as graze Rowland's coat or touch him as they walked. It bothered Rowland to think it would be temporary, he felt that he would never be able to see the world the same way in anyone else's eyes and didn't believe that he would fit into anyone's lives ever again either, or simply couldn't be bothered to do so.
He had turned some type of leaf over and not eve
