Stardust Remembrance

Chapter 42: Just Being Together (1)

In the middle of the night, Loran suddenly woke up from a nightmare of death with a racing heart and a cold sweat.

She dreamed that someone was chasing her, and could never see his face, as if it was Dr. Mu wearing a helmet, or as if it was the Consul wearing a mask.

Loran tried hard to fall asleep again, but everything came back to her like a movie, scene after scene, making it impossible for her to sleep at all.

Previously, when Feng Lin told her that the difference between level A and level 3A was the difference between humans and non-humans, she didn't think so, but now she finally understood. Even if she had become a level A physical ability, under Tatsuza, the Consul, and the others, she would have no power to resist at all.

Tatsuya thought that she was scared of Dr. Mu, but she didn't know that she was more scared of them.

After all, while Dr. Mu was still in another starfield far away, they were right beside her, holding her life and death in their hands.

What would they do to her if they knew the truth?

The youngest commander in the history of the Federation, the pride of the heavens with an honorable status, had been tricked into marrying a dirty, lowly death row inmate.

I'm only afraid that even death would be too merciful and would surely imprison her.

All of the extreme human experiments that Feng Lin was adamantly opposed to might be put into practice, forcing her to be a mating mother and using her for genetic breeding ......

The more Loran thought about it, the more scared she became, knowing full well that she shouldn't be imagining things to scare herself.

However, when it was late at night, their mind became extraordinarily fragile, the secrets she had been carrying for years overwhelmed her, and all the negative emotions came out like a tidal wave.

Thinking that she still had training early tomorrow morning, Loran opened her terminal and told the robot to bring her a cup of Phantom Blue Phantom Green.

After pouring it in one gulp, she felt slightly better.

She lay flat on her back and quietly waited to fall asleep again.

Suddenly it occurred to her that it was daytime in the Central Administrative District of Alicata at this time of day, and that Chisoku was waking up just as she was.

Once the thought bubbled up, it could no longer be restrained, and Loran opened her contacts and contacted Chisoku.

Not long after, Qian Xu's gentle voice came through with concern: "What happened? It should be the middle of the night on your side, why aren't you sleeping?"

As the negative mental tranquilizer began to take effect, Loran playfully said, "Qian Xu, run away with me. Let's leave the Odin Federation and go far away."

"Why?" Qian Xu's voice was very calm, not at all intimidated by Loran.

Loran laughed for a while, cried for a while, and spoke upside down.

"I thought that as long as I worked hard, I could always fight for a ray of hope and prove that I have a value of existence. But it's no use, I'm just a small person with nothing to lose, I can't fight those big people who are so high up in the world!"

"I don't want to be hatefully called a liar, and I especially don't want to be called by Feng Lin. In this world, besides you, she's the only one who has been helping me all the time. Supporting me to join the institute, helping me familiarize myself with the work, teaching me to do research ...... I don't want to let her down. I want to repay her for treating me well, but repaying kindness also requires qualifications, I'm a liar, I don't even have the qualifications to repay her!"

"Tatsusa is the commander of the Federation, just like you said, young and powerful, of course, he's the best candidate for a husband. But what am I? A death row inmate! Nothing, not even a memory of myself! One of us is in the sky, to be admired; the other is on the ground, to be trampled on. If I hadn't pretended to be a princess, he'd be too dirty to even look at me. The day he discovers the truth, he'll never forgive me, and he'll already be considered magnanimous if he doesn't kill me with his own hands!"

"From the day I set foot on Planet Alicata, I've been living in fear, and even when I sleep at night, I often dream that my identity is exposed and I'm sent back to the execution chamber to be executed. Every day I lived was like stealing. I don't understand why it is so hard to live when I haven't committed any serious crimes. Is it so hard to even think about being myself?"

"If I am dismantled, death will become a luxury. A piker is not a piker, a piker is not a piker, a princess of the Al Empire has become a tradable commodity because of her genes, and I, a death row inmate, will only be turned into a test subject. Qian Xu, I don't want to be injected with all kinds of strange medicines! I don't want to be forcibly taken out of the egg to cultivate the fetus! I don't want to be locked in a cage to observe the reaction to the test! I must leave the Odin Federation! You and I will go together, the stars are so big, surely we can find a planet and start our lives over."

"Don't worry about the cure, I'll be your genetic restorer. You trust me, I'll be able to cure you!"

Loran felt sober, stating reasons one by one to convince Qian Xu to run away with her, even bringing up the reason that Qian Xu was an orphan, alone and without family in the Odin Federation.

But, she whimpered and whimpered, and as she spoke, her voice got lower and lower, and she fell into a deep sleep without even turning off her audio.

Qian Xu also did not close the audio, leaned back and sat on the edge of the bed, quietly listening to Loran's breathing like the tides under the moonlit night gently rise and fall, and from time to time there are one or two sobs came. In her sleep, is she still crying in sorrow and fear?