Chapter 4: "F- friends?"
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Right now I'm going back to campus, I left and went to a plaza because I needed to be distracted, but hey, it is clear that at some point I had to return and I also don't want anyone to notice that I'm bad.
"Where were you?" they all yell at me as soon as I step foot in the room, which makes me jump with fright and look at them with hatred.
"What are the boys doing here?" I ask just looking at the girls.
"Don't avoid the topic Sara" Laura tells me. "We didn't know where you were".
"I just went for a walk, nor was it a big problem" I answer angrily, what do they care where I was?
"For 8 hours?" Denise asks now more calmly.
"Did you go for a walk for 8 hours?!" Santiago says to me less calm.
"Yes, by God, I did go for a walk for 8 hours. Does anyone else want to ask me?" I answer super sure, even though I didn't know that I had been outside for so long. "I'm fine guys, I really feel better already. I just needed to clear myself, now each one can go to their respective room".
Translation of my words: I am very sick and I need someone to help me but at the same time I don't want to tell anyone anything.
You could say it, you could tell them that you are wrong and they will help you.
Of course not.
They love you, they care about you.
I don't want to put my problems on your shoulders, I'll be fine.
If you say it.
Obviously, nobody is going to come and tell me what to do and what not to do, or how I have to respond to different situations and how I shouldn't do it. I'm old enough for those things.
Don't you remember last year? You also thought they were good ideas.
I thought it was, but now I know they weren't. How can I not remember? If it was me who lived it. It is not the same this time, it is not and will not be.
Whatever you say, your body, your decision.
I know.
After a very, very long conversation about not having to do those things or worry them like that, which by the way I didn't hear half of it, the boys went to their rooms, the girls stayed (because it was clearly our room ) and I went to "dinner", or rather to clear up again because these people that I have as a family made my head ache.
"Hello" someone tell me from behind and I recognize his voice, I recognize his damn voice, it is our dear friend Damien.
"Hello" I answer dryly and just for politeness.
"Wow" he touches my forehead and I slap him looking at him badly, I hate being touched like that out of nowhere and more if I don't know him. "Oh yeah, it's more than obvious that you had to get back to normal. At least you answered me right?" he says the last smiling, I shouldn't have done it.
"Yes, if I answered you, it was because you know something that nobody else knows and that you shouldn't either. So you're going to close that peak you call your mouth at all costs, did you hear me?" I speak slowly but firmly so that he does not believe that I am playing, because in truth I am not playing.
"Whatever it takes?" asks smiling while raising an eyebrow, damn I also want to know how to raise a single eyebrow like that, but on the other hand, by God, what did I say? "I want us to be friends, just friends" wait, what? Friends? And I thought I was going to want something indecent.
It may not be as bad as you think.
No, maybe it isn't.
It is not good to judge people before you meet them.
She kissed me, what else did you expect me to think?
Good point, you have a very good point.
As always, I know.
"Sure" I answer the most normal thing. "We'll be friends apparently, although I would be satisfied with trying because I do not like you in the best way, and I am being totally sincere".
"Very good. Friends?" he asks extending her hand to me, I hit it the same.
"Attempted friends, yes" while I speak I hear footsteps coming from behind me.
"To friends?" I hear Cameron ask, is something else going to go wrong? Why did he have to be here? At this precise moment?
"Yes" I answer turning around. "Friends no more. Or can't I have friends?" I ask defensively, but rightly so, he can't forbid me to have friends, not him or anyone else. And besides, you don't have to talk to me that way.
Just remember that your new "friend" kissed you.
Dammit. Dammit. Dammit.
"Of course you can, well well, I'm leaving the "friends" over here" he makes quotation marks with his hands when he says friends, turns around and walks as calmly as he can, I know he's being sarcastic but damn , it hurts.
At that moment Damián's cell phone rings for a long time and he doesn't answer it, I turn around again and look at him badly because I hate the sound.
"What are you not going to attend to?" I say fed up practically screaming.
"It's yours" he tells me trying to hold back a smile and unfortunately he was right.
"Oh you're right" I speak as I look for him in my diver.
"I know" he whispers but I can hear him.
"Don't go too smart" I tell him while I narrow my eyes but he laughs while.
From: Dad
Your mom lost the baby, can you come over? We want to be with you for a few days ... please
My legs fail, they feel like jelly, I feel like my body falls but Damien manages to grab me.
"What happened?" he asks desperately as he tries to stand up again, apparently he wants to be my real friend but I will see that later.
"Mom lost my little brother" tears come to my eyes.
Laura, Sebastián and David run in, the others come in the back. They see me and I'm sitting on Damien's lap, not quite like that, but he's grabbing me because I couldn't stand on my own, and they're probably thinking about what a b***h I am or what I look like rather.
"Mom ..." Laura starts but Damián interrupts her.
"You know" I try to stop and he grabs me.
"Can you?" I nod to him but that movement makes me dizzy.
It was going to be my little brother, the youngest, it's a death, my little brother died, it can't be, please no.
"Damien" read I say before everything turns black.
POV Damien
I don't like Sara, he is cute but I want to be just his friend. I like him quite well, I am very funny that he has his character. I don't know why I kissed her, it was just a fun time with some guys I had just met, who by the way do I like them.
"Damien" I hear Sara tell me before she faints.
I manage to grab it before it hits the ground and I look at everyone, who is looking at me as if they were threatening me.
"Where do I take her?" I ask them, and Laura, her sister and the only one who "answers" me and I say it with quotation marks because she simply makes a movement with my head to follow her.
When we leave the cafeteria the others do not follow us.
"Why does everyone hate me?" I ask her, she looks at me with pity.
"Because they think you want to keep her away from us" that makes me laugh, I would never do that to anyone.
"That's a lie, I just want to be your friend. Besides, I would never take her away from any of you".
"You already did" I leave her on her bed and turn around looking into her eyes. "You made him fight Cameron".
"Hell" whisper. "It wasn't like that, I didn't want her to fight, God! I had just met some guys and they told me to kiss him that short and I said, well why not? And nothing, later I found out that she really had a boyfriend".
"What happened?" we hear Sara's sweet voice and we turn to her, who smiles weakly at us.
Only I realize that that smile is false? I think so, because her sister seems super happy that she is smiling.
"You're good?" asks her sister.
"Yes thanks. Will you let me rest please?" with Laura we agree and leave because we realize that she wants to be completely alone.
"Thank you" Laura tells me and I just smile at her.
"I go to my room, whatever speaks to me, okay?" she nods and I start to walk, and I take the opportunity to think because I just entered this university and things that I am not proud of are already happening.
POV Sara
I can't take it anymore, I'm tired, emotionally tired. I do it, I promised not to but I do it; one two three four...
Don't do it.
I need it.
Do not do it.
I can't help it.
DO NOT DO IT!
Sorry.
I come out of the bathroom as if nothing had happened, tomorrow morning we go home so I start packing as quickly as I can to be able to sleep through the night, I don't have to put much away because I have clothes there.
The girls arrive when I'm already in bed and I'm pretending to be asleep, I don't need any more questions than I already have in my head without answers.
The next morning we got up and with my father's permission we managed to leave. Before doing so, I said goodbye to Damián and we exchanged cell phone numbers so that we can talk on w******p. Our friends stayed there too, only the Harris quadruplets came.
When we get home, Mom and Dad are sitting on the couches, and Kiara and Alexa are asleep together in the opposite one.
"Hello" we say at the same time and they notice our presence.
"We miss them so much" mom speaks and they both get up to hug each other.
"We are going to spend a week with the family, do you agree?" the four of us agree wildly to what Mom tells us. "We needed you".
"We love them" we say the four of us at the same time.
Dam: Hello
Dam: Did you arrive ??
Me: Hello!
Me: Yes, we are going to spend a week with the family
Dam: That's great! Or not?
Me: yess
Me: We want them to be better, to feel better
Dam: Well I hope they make it
Me: thanks
The same emotion was not shown on my face, lately the more alone the better. So no one pities you, but I don't think my family does that.
- Writer
