The four letter word

REGRET

I don’t have anything to pack or take from this home. It’s my mistake to consider the space Haru gave to me as a personal space. Every time I experience these kinds of things from the people around me, but why is this incident breaking down the heart of mine? Anyway, I need to move as fast as possible. I don’t want to be a burden to Haru again. He seems to already be disturbed by his own problems he is facing in his life. I don’t want to go ahead as a headache for him either. What is that police officer and case became a curse for him too. Let me move on from here. Hana said this to herself, even though it was breaking her inside, tears flowed out from her eyes. She quickly went out of the house. “Oh, where are you going?” Felix appeared in front of her out of nowhere. I shouldn’t explain the incident to him. What if he says let me console my boss , he will allow you to stay with him for some more time , “Ohh Felix , I need to go now , something important came up”. “Ohh is it? Then should I drop you there. It’s already night time. What if it is not safe”. “No need Felix, I can go and thank you.” “OK, let’s meet again, bye for now.” Hearing these words, Hana walked faster from there. She doesn’t want to reveal the incident to Felix right now. Strange, how did the boss allow a girl to move out alone at this hour. What if it is not safe?

Felix don’t go inside his room, he is angry at this moment”, informed one of the servants to Felix as he was about to enter into Haru’s room with some important files. “Ohh God, is he still mad now?” “Yes he asked that girl to move out of the house too. Poor her, she doesn’t know how Haru will behave when he gets angry. I wanted her to inform about this and I totally forgot to warn her earlier too”. “OMG, that’s why he went out earlier, even though I hadn’t guessed about it, there occurs a major problem with business dealings. He was out of mind from this afternoon onwards”. “That poor girl was waiting for him too. She said she needed to inform him about something. Maybe that’s why she went inside . Maybe”. It’s late at night, I think she doesn’t have a place to go to. Let me go and find her out. It may be dangerous at night too.” Go faster Felix, try to find her as soon as possible and bring her here. Without the knowledge of Haru, I will provide space for her to sleep in my room today.”

Felix tried to look for her around the neighborhood. Where did she go? It is getting darker. Is she safe? At least he had to control his anger. Asking a girl whom he tried to protect yesterday and today the same person asked her to move away from his house….Hana, can you hear me, where are you?”

What did I do just now? I asked her to go away from my house ….Ohh God I wanted to control my anger. Did she move out or is she waiting for me outside? Haru went out of his room and called her name. Instead of her, the servant came outside and said “She went away sir, actually she was afraid and worried. Felix went to look for her”.“He hasn’t come back yet, I think he is looking for her”. “It was my mistake, aunty, let me go after him, I need to apologize to her. When Haru came out of the house, he met Felix, who came back. “Did you find her ? Where is she”? “No boss, she probably went away. I tried to find her in every nook and corner of our neighborhood. It was in vain. Let’s try to find her tomorrow. You can go and rest. It’s been a bad day for you too. Take some good rest”. “Then you can leave Felix, take a good sleep and let's work harder tomorrow”. Felix went away with his car and Haru came inside the house.

The thoughts of Hana still haunted Haru. Will she be OK? Did she find a safe place to stay? To distract himself from it, he turned on the TV. There was a show that discussed the most important topics of the present time and today they talked about how people get harmed late at night for money by thieves. This show disturbed him more and he turned off the TV and rushed outside to look at Hana. He wanted to find her , no matter how much darker it is ..Suddenly it started to rain and, out of frustration of not finding her, he sat in the middle of the road, in the rain and started to cry and yelled her name so loudly. There wasn’t anyone in the road.

Haru, I am here. A hand suddenly touches the shoulder of Haru. Haru turned his head suddenly. It was Hana. He got up from the road and hugged her tightly. Hana wasn’t expecting a hug from him all of a sudden. Where were you went, I searched for you everywhere. Felix, look after you. It was my fault. I shouldn’t have raised my voice. I am like that whenever I get mad. Sorry, sorry Hana. I regret that moment the most. “Thank you for looking for me Haru, this is the first I felt as if , even I am also an important person to someone around me”.“Let’s go , it’s raining so badly”.