The first thing girls were taught here was not to disrespect their husbands. It was such an important rule that even I knew about it, despite not having a mother to tell me. My aunts had repeatedly emphasized it. The saddest part was that it was always women who conveyed this. Everyone who couldn't stand up to the system wanted those who came after them to submit. The system would remain the same so that they wouldn't have failed. My aunts always said I was rebellious like my mother. In reality, I didn't have a voice. I had no chance to raise it, but that's how they saw it. The same was probably true for my mother. I knew I had to show respect to my husband, but I couldn't feel like Botan was my husband. How could I? He still saw himself as Evin Abla's husband, not mine. He called me a bre
