Botan stayed with me for three nights and on all three occasions, he was extremely calm. In fact, he was overly calm. I was enjoying it, but I felt as if he wasn't. Everything felt like a duty to him. I finally understood that he only pitied me. He didn't want me to become the wife of a man older than my father or someone's mistress at the age of 18. That's why he was insistent on having a child. If he died, Alaz Agha would take over, and having his child would then become more important, but still, Botan continued to try for a child with me. I guess the possibility of reuniting with Evin had made him a calmer person.
Botan went to work again, this time for smuggling. Before leaving, he told me, 'This time it won't take long. I'll be back in at most a month. Take your medicine regularly
