When Botan left, I began to reflect. I started to think about everything he said. For the first time, someone other than my wet nurse had said that I wasn't responsible for my mother's death. My wet nurse used to say that everyone's time is set. I knew this as well, but it wasn't enough to console me. This situation often led me to question whether the killers bore any blame at all if everyone's time was predetermined, and the conclusion was clear to me. It seemed as if some people were destined to be killed at a certain time, and I felt as if I had killed my mother then. This didn't change my belief that I was a murderer. I always thought this way, but now Botan had offered me a new perspective. My mother had given birth to five children over eight years. They even said she was still nurs
