I wasn't expecting such a question. Why was Botan asking me this? Why now? I was sure I looked at him like a startled duckling, but I couldn't pull myself together or answer immediately. Botan waited. He just stood there too. Maybe he was aware of my astonishment.
"If you're worried about hurting me, don't be, Dicle. I've said things to your face before. There’s nothing that would hurt me anyway," he said. Did he think I had forgotten? Elif had a saying I liked: Women forgive but never forget.
On the other hand, he said there was nothing that would hurt him. He said it was okay not to love. If I said I didn't love him anymore, he wouldn't be hurt. He wouldn't even be surprised. There would be no point in lying. He wouldn't be devastated if I said I didn't love him. Maybe he'd even say, "
