Until I met you

Chapter one

” FATHER I HAVE SIN. I HAVE A

CONFESSION.”

I lean against the confession booth and

sob silently. I hated my life , I hated

everything. Do you know that feeling of

wanting something badly and then your

best friend took it away ? I felt useless

for letting it happen in the first place.

” What is it my child ?” The priest’s voice

comes out through the window.

I sniffle and sob. I don’t even know where

to start from. I remembered my tiny little

self and my family. But where are they ?

They turned their backs on me.

.

Few days earlier…

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” I’m really happy for Ariel , for finally

being a sister in church.” Leslie said from

beside me. We were at the dinning room

eating cause dad decide to make a family

dinner to celebrate my success. I’ve been

called into the convent to be a nun.

That’s been my dream since highschool.

It’s normal for me. Naturally I’m an

introvert and possibly I love my simple

life. I’m not really the type who wanna get

involved with friends or even the media.

Father hated it. He’s a deacon in our

parish and he’s really respected. We’ve

leave our life in truth and fear of God. I

think that’s one of the reasons my

parents hated social gathering. I’d never

had a boyfriend and I’m really grateful

because I’ve always wanted be a nun.

Weird part is no boy ever ask me out. I’m

this crazy nerd back then in highschool

but I care not. Leslie was a little normal ,

because she sort of had admirers. I dress

normal. Like every normal Christian

daughter who’s a Deacon’s daughter.

” My baby is gonna be the first sister in

this house. I’m glad you kept your

virginity.” Mom chuckle with a wide

smile.

“Virginity doesn’t decide if you can qualify

being a sister.” Leslie said.

“That doesn’t matter. She makes a good

step and I’m happy she’s finally taking

her vows.” Mom giggles.

” When are you going back ?” Alexa asks.

She’s my cousin and too naughty. She

likes boys and always wanna dress fancy.

Dad sees her as a bad egg and hated

seeing her around our apartment. Nobody

dares make hell in our house.

” Tomorrow.” I replied her. The rest of

the evening was really exciting because

my parents spend the entire evening

advising me.

.

The following day I left the house for my

new home. The convent. I met the mother

superior who announced I’ll be taking my

vows the following day. I’ve spent almost

two and a half months here and it was

better than I thought. I guess that’s what

nerds deserve.

” Hey Freddie..” I said on the phone.

Freddie’s my best friend. We’ve been

friends since elementary school and

finally till we left highschool.

” Sup Ariel.”

” I’m fine. How are you ?”

He sighs.” I’m good. I sort of missed my

best friend. What are you doing ?”

” Nothing. I met the mother superior and

she said I’m taking my vows tomorrow.

Hope you’re good ?” I ask him on the

phone.

” Yeah. I really haven’t seen you since

prom night. Truth is I’m really glad you’re

finally becoming a sister in church.” I

smile and stare at my reflection in the

mirror. My parents are not even aware I

have a male best friend. I’m sure they

would have gotten rid of him.

” Are you back from Florida ?”

” Yeah. I’m in the states now.”

” Okay. I’m gonna drive to your house

and possibly spend few hours before

returning back to the convent.”

” That’ll be nice of you.” I nodded to

nothing and hang up.

I remembered when we were in

highschool close to prom. Freddie’s the

first person who ever told me I’m really

beautiful and I believed that. I once had a

crush on him in junior year but i made

sure I didn’t tell him. We were always

together and we both won homecoming. I

love that night , that was the night he told

me i was beautiful. Afterwards I hoped he

was gonna tell me he liked me but then

he told me he had a huge crush on Aida.

Then she was school’s most popular girl.

I hated her , I’ve always hated her. She

was a bully , always made me feel inferior

like I was nothing. Making jest of my

looks and everything about me. And when

Freddie told me he liked her , i hated her

more. I cried that day at school’s

bathroom and curse her endlessly. She

took what I’ve always wanted. Luckily

they dated and Freddie was really happy.

I’ve never seen him that happy before.

I moved on. Looked at my reflection and

decide to take back everything. Maybe

that was when I discovered I was

supposed to be a sister , not getting

angry at my best friend because he didn’t

have feelings for me. Unluckily they broke

up. Aida dumped Freddie for school’s

new hottie.

” Ariel..” Freddie smiled and hug me once

I reached his apartment. I’ve been here

once and since then it’s void.

” Wow. Look at you Freddie. How long

have i seen you ?”

” A year ago..” I chuckle and smile.

” Please sit.” He offer and I nodded

before sitting.

” What should I get you ?”

” Maybe water.”

” I’ll be right back.” I watch Freddie turn

to a corner which I assume it’s the

kitchen. My eyes snap at the TV set and

everything around his apartment. I forgot

to mention , Freddie’s parents were sort

of rich though.

” There you go..” he motion to me giving

me a glass of water.

” Thank you.” I tell him and gently take a

sip.

” You’re welcome. How’s it been with

you ? Look at you . You look more

beautiful Ariel. It hurts a little that you’re

now in the convent.” Oh really ?

” It’s what I’ve always wanted.” I defend.

” Really ? I remembered when we were in

highschool. You’ve always wanted to go

to college and then major in clinical

psychology or maybe business.”

” Psst.” I scoff and stare blankly at him.

Where’s he trying to dive to ? I think we

all have our own rights to make our own

choices , right ?

” Freddie are you okay ?” I ask him and

drop the glass of water on the table.

” Of course I am.” He smiles.” Are you

done drinking ?” He motion to the water.

” Not really.” I blink and take a sip again.

I felt a bit dizzy. I drop back the water

and rub my already sweaty palm on my

habit.

” Are you okay ?”

” Yeah. I just feel a little tipsy. I’m

good.” No I’m not good. My head’s

pounding and I feel weak.

Freddie smiled at me and his frequent

smiles are giving me creeps. What is

happening to me ? He stand up from his

chair and sit close to me. I wanted to

move a little but I trusted him , he’s my

best friend.

” Are you sure you’re okay , Ariel ?” He

ask with a smirk touching my thighs.

” Freddy what are you doing ?” I wanted

to yell at him but my voice sneak out like

a whisper.

” Nothing. I just can’t stop admiring you.

I really wish you can stop this nun

madness and let me love you Ariel.”

What ! I wanted to move far away from

him but something is wrong. I felt weak

like I was drugged. Wait ! He drug the

water ?

” Freddie , what did you put it in the

water ?”

” Something that’s gonna make you weak.

Let me love you Ariel.” He smirks

touching my laps through my habit. I

wanted to remove his hand but nothing is

working. I feel powerless.

He continued touching me and I couldn’t

help but plea.

” Fred , don’t do this. You’re my best

friend and we’ve been friends since

childhood. You can’t take advantage of

me , I’m taking my vows tomorrow in

church.”

” f**k the church..” he thunder and that

made me flinch.

” I want you Ariel and I’m having you.”

With anger lace in his voice he lift me off

the ground and kissed me roughly. I

fought , I cried , I plea but nothing makes

any sense to Freddie. He was different ,

all I could see is lust in his eyes.

” Freddie don’t do this.” I plea. Freddie

hiss and slapped me. He aggressively

push me against the couch and fondle

every of my parts.

I kicked but he was stronger. He removed

every of my clothing and have his way

with me. I couldn’t move. I lay still on the

couch and cried , but that wouldn’t

change anything. My best friend just stole

my innocence.

” You should wear this..” he said

stretching some clothings at me. I turn to

look at him and sob. Why his he acting

like it’s nothing. Like he did nothing.

” I don’t hate you Ariel. I want to be your

boyfriend.” He’s not okay. He needs to go

to rehab.

I wipe my tears and shamelessly got up

from the couch to pick up the remains of

my habit which he successfully tore when

having his way with me.

” I hope God forgives you , Freddie.” A

stronger part of me wanted to yell at him

, curse him, hit him, but I wasn’t that

strong woman. I was this nerdy girl who

was raised differently.

” Ariel , it’s no big deal. I’m not leaving

you. I want to be with you.”

” You’re not okay. You’re acting like it’s

nothing. Freddie you stole my virginity.

You r***d me. Abuse me and took

advantage of our friendship. God’s gonna

judge you and I’m sure he will.” My eyes

met in contact with the blood on the

chair.

I sniffle and ran out of the house to my

car. I hated myself for everything. Why

did I pay him a visit. Of course it’s

because I trusted him. I tap my wheel

endlessly and cried. What’s my life gonna

be like. With tears still in my eyes, I

ignite the engine and drive out of his

house. I barely could see but I hold back

my pain till I’m close to my house. I

climb down from my car only to find my

mom and dad talking outside.

” Mommy..” I sob and collapse on the

floor.

.

I blink my eyes several times and open it.

I could see faces smiling at me. I sit up

at once but someone quickly grab my

arm and lay me back.

” Ariel.” Mom coo beside me stroking my

hair.

” Mom..” I resume crying again.

” Baby calm down okay. Talk to us, what

happened ? You’ve been sleeping since

yesterday and mother superior had been

worried. You’re supposed to take your

vows today right ?”

I can’t believe I’ve been sleeping since.

So I’m supposed to tell them I got r***d.

What will they see me as ? That I’m no

longer a virgin.

” I got raped.” I burst out. The smile on

my mom’s face disappeared. Including

dad and Leslie.

” r***d ?” Leslie asks. I couldn’t bring

myself to explain. I feel like a looser and

a worthless person.

” Ariel , who r***d you ?” Mom yell and

her anger already crowded the house ?

” Ariel we’re talking to you. Who raped

you ?” Dad scolded.

” Freddie.”

” Who’s Freddie ?”

That’s the issue , who’s Freddie ?

” Freddie is my best friend. We’ve been

friends since highschool..”

” What ! You’ve been keeping a male

friend since highschool and we’re not

even aware.

?” Mom roar.

” How are we even sure he’s not your

boyfriend ? Your dirty little boyfriend that

you’ve been hiding , huh ?” Dad ask

glaring at me.

” Daddy no.. it’s just..”

” It’s just what ? You sneak out of the

convent to visit your boyfriend and then

had s*x , you’re here telling us nonsense.

What type of daughter are you ? Why

can’t you be like Leslie ?” Dad fired.

I couldn’t believe my ears. They are

always comparing me to Leslie. She’s the

good girl. Always the family’s favorite. I

remembered it was when I told my

parents I wanted to be a nun after

highschool they started making me feel

special. How could they accuse me after

I told them the truth ?

” You’re a disgrace Ariel. You’ve always

been a disgrace and I regretted having

you. Get ready to explain to the church

how come you were r***d when you’re

about taking your vows.” Mom scoff

irritatingly.

” I hope God forgives your sins you dirty

little whore.” Dad curse. What !

” Dad..”

” Shut up. Don’t ever call me your dad.”

That was it. I watch them walk out of my

rooms in disgust. I hated myself. I hated

Freddie more. He changed everything but

I wasn’t ready to take it to heart. I stood

before the Pope and i really couldn’t say

anything. The story doesn’t make any

sense to them . I drove out of the

convent to visit my male best friend and I

got r***d.

” You have to leave the convent Ariel. You

comitted fornication and you lied that you

were r***d. You’re expelled from the

convent. I hope your sins are forgiven..”

” You should leave…”

…….

Okay. This is the beginning of the story.

This is where it all started.