This is what love is?

chapter 18

***blue's pov***

We put the file to the side for a few hours as mum stayed for the day. Mikey's turned his phone off, deciding jordan won't be going back to the hell hole, not after the sh*t that was in them photos. It was that bad i actually threw up. There were pictures of her with different guys, them handing her money, her sucking them off and riding them in cars, her doing lines of cocaine, working in a strip club. Dave managed to take pictures of inside her house it was filth! cocaine residue, needles and baggies over the coffee table, alcohol bottles and cans every where. The worst was of jordan sitting on a chair with all that sh*t infront of him, her mum laying on the sofa with a band wrapped around her arm, passed out in her own piss! All pictures were taken over a month with dates and times to prove it was a on going thing. I cried for a good hour making myself sick again. My mum cried with me, mikey was so upset and livid for what his son's been going through, and because i was crying. But once we calmed down we realised we had jordan here and he wont be leaving. I'm getting her here as soon as possible the little f*cking tramp!

We're meant to be meeting Alex in a few hours, but i can't let that boy out my site, and im smothering him.

"Babe, you can put him down. He won't disappear, the doors are locked, and your mother's here." Mikey rubs my back, looking at me like a caged animal, i kinda feel like that, i will come out biting and scratching anyone that touches this kid. I look at jordan and his just resting his head in my neck, sound asleep hugging me back. I look to mikey having the wildest thought, and let me tell you it's f***ing wild!

"How would feel if i adopted him?"

"Are you actually considering that? I mean..are you being serious?" Mums sitting there jaw hanging wide open getting teary again.

"As serious as frankie is with noodles" I smile at him. He takes jordan and i reluctantly let go, he lays him on the sofa and turns to me.

"Blue, seriously?"

"Mikey for f**k sake! Yes I'm being serious, even if things don't work out with us, we can be civil, we can write up a agreement that we both have split custody, i can't let that boy go. He needs a mother figure, and i'd like to think im the sh*t thank you very much!" He starts laughing and puts his arms around my shoulders kissing me, i take that as a yes?

"Have i told you how amazing your are?" he whispers

"You have, but dont stop, no one likes a quitter!" Mum runs into us, jumping up and down.

"Yay! I get another grandson! I am so so proud of you blue! I'm so glad you came out of my vag!" I groan, and mikey laughs. this woman!

"Do you think jordan will stay with us? We got a tree house, pool, and play room, me and dad can take them out on the boat?" She asks mikey,

"I mean, i have no issues, and if blue will let him leave her sight. and obviously if jordan wants to?"

"Um no woman iv just got the child!"

"Oh shut your yap. If he wants to come with us he can! plus, i think it's better if his not here while you take the trash out so to speak?" And she's actually right. We need to make plans in getting carla here tomorrow.

"Ok, your right! But please do not let them, especially him out of your sight! the woman is unhinged!" she claps her hands

"Oh im gonna spoil him rotten!"

And off they went a few hours later all happy and shouting, not even a murmur that any of them wanted to stay with us, Thanks kids love you too! But i am happy how quickly his losing his shyness and just getting to be a kid!

Me, mikey and Alex are sitting around the island in the kitchen unloading todays events and his speechless! I lift his jaw.

"Shut your mouth, your catch flies!"

"Wow! that's a lot! I mean, I'm happy for you guys, but how are you going about this? that woman is the devil!"

" Well from what we know, she's never home, leaving jordan with her mum all the time. I'll show you the file we got. My phones off, so il tell her to meet us downstairs in the morning, blue's got everything in order, so her lawyer will be here too." mikey gets up to grab the file.

"It's bad Alex you need to prepare yourself, i threw up." I say getting upset again, mikey returns with the file and slides it to Alex. He sits there going through it, clenching his teeth, jaw ticking. Till he stops and gets chocked up, getting up and walking out the kitchen, which causes tears to fall from me eyes. Mikey rubs my back, i know what picture it is that's set him off, i dont even have to look. it's going to be ingrained in my brain forever. It's of jordan sitting on the floor with a car in one hand and a slice of bread in the other, the bottoms of his feet are black, but the smile on his face as his looking at this shitty f***ing car like its the best toy in the world. It's the lead up to that picture knowing the conditions his in, and his smiling.

Alex returns and clears his throat,

"Sorry. That's bullsh*t, I really do hope you f*ck her over!"

"Oh she ain't got a leg to stand on, we have recordings and videos she's f****d! If she dont sign him over we'll take her to court, i can't go awol and put a bullet in her head, this needs to be done legit. Once it's done she may accidently slip off a cliff?" I say to them.

Alex stayed for a few hours after having Chinese, i really fancied duck rolls, eating something you fancy really hits the spot differently!

I filled Enzo and luca in a bit last night that i need the doors blocked once i have the cretin in the lounge. I threw up again this morning. My nerves are shot, and I'm angry, I'm literally ready to rip her face off!

We're sitting a table waiting for Arthur, mikeys got me on his lap, just holding me to him, rubbing my back still feeling a bit iffy, while i tiggle the back of neck and head.

"I want to kill her" I mumble

"I know darling me too. It won't be long until this is done and dusted, i'm confident it will all be fine. I love you, " He kisses the side of my head.

"I love you" I reply. Hearing footsteps and low voices, i lift my head and lucas is escorting Arthur to us.

Time to rock OR time to roll?