This is what love is?

chapter 10

*** blue's pov ***

Well, that was an interesting start to our date. I really was having such a great time with Mikey, even if i was gonna throw down with 'Just call me jen', i can't believe some women actually act like that? i mean, iv heard about women being like that and seen my fair share of ladies of the night come and go through the hotel. But to actually experience it myself, i was ready to throat punch a b*tch. When my mouth had finally stopped running, i thought i'd definitely ruined the date with my actions. What man likes a woman who fights and talks like a boxer at a press conference, and on top slightly neurotic?

I didn't even have time to be embarrassed and try and salvage the date, or even try and act diplomatic. Because mike the knight kissed me! He freaking kissed me. On the lips!

His the epitome of the full package. His kind, charming, good sense of humour, sooo freaking sexy. He made me feel like i was the only woman in the room. He's also a really good kisser! I want to keep him. I want to do that kissing stuff again!

His ex-girlfriend, though? Wow! She seems delightful, not! The woman sounds like a real piece of work, doesnt go to work, but manages to go out partying all the time, always palming the poor kid off onto her alcoholic mother, who from what I can tell can just about look after herself, rather then let his dad have him? It's just plain spiteful! My heart literally squeezed when he was speaking about his son Jordan, you could see how much he adores that little boy, he said he was trying to get full custody but she wont acknowledge any letter's or phone calls.

I asked him what her name was, and played it off like i may know of her. I'll get dave on it to do some digging for me. His better than any private investigator iv known. With his military background, the guy loves the adrenaline of doing the odd 'jobs' for me and my dad. But no one needs to really know that.

Even if things don't go far with me and mikey, its something i want to do for the both of them. You have a man wanting to be a dad. he's not a scumbag or a druggy, his successful and stable. And you have a little boy who needs his dad and stability. In my heart, i know it's the right thing to do, if not for mikey, at the very least for jordan. He deserves a caring, constant parent and a loving home. All kids deserve that. As long as you have a roof over your head, food in your tummy, and the love of a parent or parents, whether they be blood or not, that's enough in my eyes.

He was driving me back towards the hotel, the radio was on low. He was holding my hand on his thigh, and it felt right? can it feel right this quick? I've known him just over a week? I don't want him to leave, like i already miss him? God, i sound like a ninny! I feel like i really need a football coach shouting in my face,'GET YOUR HEAD IN THE GAME SON!' I'm being all girly a mooshy.

I'm literally winging this like i have from the start. Do i kiss him goodnight or give him a pat on the back like a job well done? last date I had was about 5 years? Now the cars come to a stop outside, and im gonna hyperventilate, but that deep, calm voice pulls me from going over the edge..." I really enjoyed spending tonight with you blue, and if i sound like im coming on strong, just say, but i would like to take you out again?" he says, lifting my hand to his lips. Swoon! im swooning! "I would like that." I quietly say, nodding my head, "Can i kiss you goodnight babe" I just carry on nodding my head. I definitely want to do that kissing stuff again! He let's go of my hand and slowly slides his hand round my neck to my nape, he leans forward and gently touches his lips to mine, i push a little bit more into the kiss, he lightly swipes his tongue along my bottom lip and i open slightly letting him take the lead, our tongues smoothly dance together, my hand comes up to the side of his face running my fingers through his stubble. I've never felt a passionate kiss like this, He slowly pulls away and pecks my lips once more. Who needs panties anyway? We both lean back slightly and try and catch our breath, just staring at each other for a couple of seconds. That kiss has ruined it for all other men. If i ever kiss another man, that is? But il always compare them to Mikey, meeting him and getting to know him it's made me realise that i havent ever met a man whos made me feel like this. Like he has the need to touch me so i won't disappear, checking that im ok and im comfortable.

His so rugged and has this alpha male presence about him. But with a touch that is so soft and tender, a contrast to what you would expect, and i literally melt into into him. He likes me for me and just gets me.

I think im actually willing to give this dating stuff a chance with him. Its made me realise just how lonely i've been, i want a love and companionship like my mum and dad's, the way they care for eachother and how he dotes on her, her craziness doesn't even bother him, he just loves all of her, i want that.

So i build up all my courage and say the most craziest, cringiest, and clichéd thing of all time! "Do you want to come in for a bit? it's still quite early we could have a glass of wine or something...?"

"I'll have the something," he said with a grin and a wink, making me laugh. Me likey mikey right now.

My whole body is buzzing, and the butterflies in my belly are flopping around like there on crack right now! These feelings iv got are wild. I don't want to think about him right now, but i most definitely never had this with george. I mean, iv got no one else to compare this to? But i never had the need to rip the boys' clothes off. Maybe it was because we were young? Anyway, who's George again?

I would like to see if this could go somewhere with mikey? you couldn't put on that good of a show and not slip? The man's compassion and empathy speak volumes,

"Ok, drive round the corner into the underground carpark. The elevator there will go straight up to my floor." No way am i walking through the hotel in case i bump into Enzo. Here's to hoping lindsey nerf n****e has his attention!

He parks his car, and i wait for him to walk around and open my door for me. Pulling me up from my seat holding both my hands, he brings them up against his chest. I look up at his smile, he brings his forehead to mine and kisses my nose, then my lips, which gets heated pretty quickly, "Your a quick learner darling. I can't stop kisisng you."