Still Mine

5

Dallas

I had a very long day, I wasn't prepared for the family dinner, I just wanted to lay down, talk to my boyfriend and sleep.

Now I'm forced to sit next to my enemy.

I had promised myself that I'll stay away from his lane and focus on myself while I'm still living in his house.

I caught him staring at me a million times

I stopped myself from staring too much because deep down I know every part of my body yearns for his touch. Anytime I try to remember how perfect that night was, I'm reminded that he ghosted me.

***

It was on my 18th birthday, I went to a party with Eva my best friend

I was so happy, we drank, we danced and we got really drunk. I knew I was going to lose my virginity that night, but to whom….. I wasn't sure about that.

I met a lot of boys, some were older ,some same age, same younger

“Older men f**k better” Eva will say this to me anytime I talk about my s****l life.

Every time she'll come back from satisfying herself, she will tell me about every bit of it, and all I do is sit down and salivate.

I had lost interest in almost every dude I saw at the party. I was about to leave when I saw him, my 'now' enemy, Henry Morgan staring at me. I was too shy but Eva pushed me to him.

I guess we were all drunk but that was and still one the best nights of my life.

We didn't talk much, he took me to his car - I knew he was rich but I didn't know he was this rich.

He leaned forward and kissed me

His lips were as soft—softer even—but they were firm in a way that I had not expected,my lips not immediately yielding to him.

His lips became an inexorable force, an act of nature—an act of God— and he gripped the back of my head as hard as he dared, pressing my face to his. He ground his hips into me, rubbing himself against me, and used his free hand to claim my thighs, grabbing it so fiercely that he knew I could feel every fingertip as a bright point of discomfort. Slowly, so slowly, my mouth opened up to him, and the first time our tongues slid together in a tangle of silk and promise, he nearly lost it right then and there.

My mouth was greedy, but his mouth was greedier, and we fought each other, who would devour whom the fastest, who could take what we wanted first, I'mwho could take the most, my hips jerking against his and my hands fisting his hair and scratching his back.

When he finally, finally broke our kiss,

“I want to be inside you,” he said. “Just a little. Just to feel it.”

“I'm still a Virgin” I whispered still wanting more

More of his kiss, his touch

Most of it all I wanted to feel him inside me.

“You want to come inside my car”

“Yeah sure”

He lifted me into his car, carried me to the back seat, and I waited as he folded the driver's seat so we could get more space.

“Can I?” He asked, staring directly into my eyes as he was unbuckling my bra.

I opened my buttons giving him free access to my boobs, my n*****s were already firm.

He moved his head slowly down to my boobs, the things his tongue did to my n****e- I can't even explain but I didn't ever want him to stop.

It felt unimaginably good- fantastic.

He moved his hands into my pants, the moment I felt him touch my c**t I wouldn't help but moan loudly.

“Oh my God that's so good, I don't want you to stop”

I screamed

He continued, then took off my pants completely. I could help his b***r.

He rubbed his d**k around his c**t and started moving it inside me slowly.

At first it was painful but after the pain came greater pleasure.

When we were done, he took me to his house - where we had a second round of great pleasure.

The next day, he dropped me at my place. He promised to come back but he never did.

Everyday I prayed for him to come back and now I'm living in his house as his sister.

I've always known that my body still and will always yearn for him

No matter how much my boyfriend touches me, it was never like that way Henry touched me. It was though he was made for me because he knew my body and what each part wanted.

Again, I have to be my mum's perfect daughter and I don't want to break my boyfriend's heart, unlike Henry , he always came back to me.

But what if I can't control how I feel about him?