Toxic love

What's happening to me?

"Hey, don't bully my boyfriend."

Ann said something that sounded pleasant to my ears but did I hear correct? It felt really nice when she called me her boyfriend. Maybe the reason I lived till now was just to hear her say this. But what should I say now. I wanted to think but my heart was beating too wildly for me to think. Maybe my face was all red.

Not knowing what to say, I just looked around us to let my heart calm down. Right outside our school, an old man was selling ice-cream. I asked Ann if she would like an ice-cream and she said yes. I went to the stall with Roman to buy ice-cream but because my luck is so great, I hadn't brought any money with me. It was fortunate that Roman had some and he let me borrow but how great is it. I was feeding my first girlfriend for the first time and I had to borrow money. Just what would she think about me if she knew.

We ate the ice-cream but what after that? I just made an excuse and returned home. I met her today and she called me a boyfriend. Can this be considered a date? If this is a date then my first date was a total failure. But so what? Failure or not date is still a date, right? And I was sure to brag about it to my friends.

There was no one at my home when I returned. Seriously, people don't have a sense of time, do they? I had tons of things to say but there was no one who would listen. Maybe I was relieved that now I didn't have to think about what to say I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already 8. Everyone was home but they acted like I wasn't even there. It might have been because I didn't talk much before but still my expectations were ruined. I was somewhat expecting to be praised or be gifted some allowance to take care of Ann.

I finally got to share my story with my cousin after everyone went to bed. Of course, I didn't tell that I couldn't talk with her. Still, it felt nice. I finally had a girlfriend. I couldn't sleep for a long time out of excitement. I just started thinking what should I do now.

Like always, everything was same today as I went to school. Oh, wait. No something was different. I had a girlfriend. I was excited to see her. I wanted to talk to her about a lot of things. Who would've known that all my excitement would be over when I see her. I don't know if I was shy or afraid of something but I couldn't say anything. In the end I said something with some effort.

"Hey! "

I seriously didn't know if I should be happy or sad. I finally said something but it was just a 'hey'. Ann smiled at me and replied," Hi. Are you alright today? "

" Y-yes. Are you going to class? "

" Yeah. Are you going somewhere else? "

" I-I am going to class too. "

Just what was I asking. Of course she was going to class. Where else was she supposed to go? I didn't know what to say anymore than that. I wanted to catch her hand and walk but I couldn't. Surprisingly I was afraid that my girlfriend will get angry if I touch her. I had touched her many times before too and this feeling was never there. Just the thought of my relationship with her was making me weak against her.

'Just what was happening to me now?'